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Commit your way to the Lord. Psalm 37:5a

Talk to God about whatever may be pressuring you and then commit the entire matter into His hands…Acquaint Him with it; yes, even burden Him with it, and you will have put the concerns and cares of the matter behind you. From that point forward, exercise quiet, sweet diligence in your work, recognizing your dependence on Him to carry the matter for you. Commit your cares and yourself with them, as one burden, to your God.

Streams in the Desert
I needed this reminder. All of a sudden the past two weeks I feel like I am at the drowning point again. Any hint of stability I was starting to feel is all of a sudden gone. There are so many big milestones coming up and another life change too. My emotions are going crazy and sometimes I just don’t think I can handle it. And really I can’t by myself. So this week I am going to try to stop worrying. I am going to try to stop trying to handle everything by myself and put my worries and fears at the feet of Jesus. I know that I am going to have to continue to cling to Him to get through Thanksgiving and Christmas and welcoming this new little one into our family.
Speaking of Baby Mac…
We had our last sonogram today. It is hard to believe that we made it through all three. Everything is still looking great! We were so relieved and so thankful. The best way I can describe how we are feeling is cautiously excited. We know this precious baby is going to be such a blessing, but it is so hard to know what it is going to be like to bring this little one home without Cora. Another fear to lay at His feet.
Here is one last peek before we get to meet Baby Mac…

Gotta love those big pouty lips!
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FYI…The plan for Cora’s is to post on Wednesday morning. Keep checking back for updates.
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  • Heather at All A Flutter - I’m thinking of you, and praying for you, during this time as I know how difficult times like these are. God will walk with you every step of the way. I can say that with all my heart because He did that for me and my family. He can slow down time so you can take it just one minute, sometimes one second, at a time.ReplyCancel

  • Marla Taviano - Praying for you both!!ReplyCancel

  • Diana - God is bigger than we are… just try to give it all to Him. Very hard to do as humans, yes, but He does carry us. Christ’s love to you both! You are in our daily prayers, always at the top of our prayer journal. Blessings on Baby Mac! {{hugz}} 🙂ReplyCancel

  • Abby - I don;t know you, but I am so proud to have shared in your journey. You are the strongest and bravest person I believe I have ever encountered. Thank you for being real with us! I am praying for you to have peace and joy as you bring sweet baby into your lives!

    PS- I am going to be living on your blog Wednesday waiting for my chance to get some Cora’s clothes!ReplyCancel

  • The Moffats - Wow! Look at those lips!! Glad the ultrasound went well. Praying diligently that the Lord will give you the strength for each new day, especially during the next few weeks. Love and hugs.ReplyCancel

  • Marsha - What a cute, sweet baby. I will be praying for you during the next few weeks as the holidays approach.

    Love and prayers,

    Marsha in VAReplyCancel

  • onlymehere - God bless you during this season of firsts. Your faith sustains and helps many of us who don’t comment too often. You’re new baby will be here before we know it and I wish you luck and blessings with that too. You’re often in my prayers as well as your sweet husband and new little one. Cora is often in my heart too as I have my first granddaughter who is pretty close to her age. May God bless and comfort you all. CindyReplyCancel

  • Joanne (The Simple Wife) - Praying for you.

    And my Emma still prays for “Baby Cora’s family” each and every day. Without fail.

    Sending love,

    JoanneReplyCancel

  • Robin in Benton - I’ve been thinking of you and praying for you – I know the rest of the year is going to be hard. God will get you through it. Blessings to you both and to Baby Mac!ReplyCancel

  • Lauren Kelly - And with each new first, Jesus will be with you every step of the way. We love you!!! 🙂ReplyCancel

  • Miss Em - You and Joel weighed heavy on my mind last night. I spent quite some time with God talking about you and your family and asking for some peace. I find myself praying for people I don’t know lately more then for people I do know. It seems strange but it is easier to pray for people I don’t know. It is just that praying for those close to me can be so complicated some times. Ok, rambling here but what I am getting at is that while I was praying for your I realized that I need to pray for others close to as well. Whew, I got a lot of praying going on here. =) Anyway, many blessing to you as you make your way through this next month.ReplyCancel

  • Trisha Larson - I know how hard the first Holiday’s are. I was there last year. For me, the days and weeks leading up to it were worse than the actual day. I hope that you are able to find Joy amongst the pain.

    By the way, I’m on the same path as you in that I’m trying to let God carry me and my burdens. I’m trying to rejoice in the good and let Him worry about everything else. It’s a tough challenge since I’ve been trying to get pregnant for 19 months since Nate died. I hope and pray that someday God says yes to us but until then I’m going to try and let Him carry it. It’s just too heavy for me. I don’t want to be weighten down anymore.

    Hugs!
    TrishaReplyCancel

  • Micah - Praying for you all…ReplyCancel

  • Sherrie Kulwicki - Jess, we lost our youngest son 4 1/2 yrs ago and I can totally relate to ‘feeling like’ you lose ground around a holiday or anniversary or birthday. It still happens for us and we continue to survive and move forward afterwards. Great love means great grief – I have learned that lesson. And alongside that I have discovered that he (our baby) is worth the pain. One day you will dance down streets of gold with your Cora as we dance with our Justin and we will laugh and sing and thank God for the promise that is ours in Christ Jesus. We are bound together by our pain and by our hope! Looking forward to dancing with you sweet sister and brother!ReplyCancel

  • La Familia Garcia - Yay, a baby update! Glad that everything looks good! Thanksgiving blessings!ReplyCancel

  • Al's World - I am praying for you all this thanksgiving and christmas. I know how you feel, with the arrival of our sweet precious boy, but to do without my mom is scary. If you need an uplifting song or message to get you through it, Savior Please by Josh Wilson hit home the other day. Hang on to Jesus..He is hanging on to you!ReplyCancel

  • eeguiltner - Hi Jess,
    I am feeling very much the same way. All of a sudden everything seems to be overwhelming. I will join you in praying for peace and the Holy Spirit’s strength and guidance.
    Love,
    Erin GuiltnerReplyCancel

  • Karina - Baby Mac looks gorgeous. I am so pleased for you that all looks well with the baby. I continue to hold your family in my heart every day and look forward to “meeting” your new little one! I will also TRY to get something from Cora’s on Wednesday…I know I’m going to have to be faster this time!!ReplyCancel

  • Carrie - What a beautiful baby!

    I am praying for you and your family as you encounter this season of ‘firsts’. The ‘firsts’ are always so hard when you’re grieving and your heart is so raw. Praying for peace.ReplyCancel

  • Anonymous - Thanks for being transparent. I know how to pray in the next coming weeks for you and your family. Love you my friend!ReplyCancel

  • TRICIA @ The Zoo - Hi Jess and Joel.
    As always, I cannot begin to imagine what the two of you are experiencing right now. I continue to pray for all of you and know that the Lord has it all in his mighty hands.
    Thank you for sharing that reminder. Sometimes it’s easier said that done, right?!
    I wish you all abundant blessings.

    With love and prayers,
    XO*TriciaReplyCancel

  • Lexie Loo & Dylan Too - Praying for you, as always.
    The baby is beautiful!ReplyCancel

  • BEK - Thinking of you and congrats on this new life almost here!!!ReplyCancel

  • Anonymous - Jess,

    Your husband is hot! I bet he looks awesome in his overalls on the tractor. Do you have a name for Baby Mac yet. What about John Deere.

    NataliaReplyCancel

  • Sue - Be brave!! Keep focusing on that gorgeous little bundle you’re going to have to cuddle in just a little while (when’s your due date, by the way?). The holidays are going to be tough, but try look for the positives around you. It was what got me through many tough days and still helps. When you’re feeling down, try think of just one or two things that are really great in your life and they’ll get you through! Thinking of you so much through it all…

    Sue xReplyCancel

  • Miss G - This is a wonderful post, Jes. I hope that your thanksgiving day had happiness in it. I hope that you are feeling peace from burdening God (who is soo strong and capable) with your fears and struggles. I pray that you have the strength and tenacity to leave them in His hands rather than trying to take them back. (I know that’s what I often try to do.) Blessings! KellyReplyCancel

  • Marlene W. - I just stopped by your blog tonight and have to agree . . . those big pouty lips are sweet!! Praying for you tonight. 🙂ReplyCancel