I’m still here. We are getting through the days, but this grieving stuff is HARD.
We had a big ice/snowstorm here this weekend. Just when I was getting used to Spring. Lovely Kansas weather! Seeing those big, beautiful snowflakes falling and kids playing in the snow made me miss Cora even more. Cora never really experienced snow. She even had a new sled that Joel’s parents had given to her for Christmas. She never got to use it. It was another “first” to go through without Cora.
Sundays are hard too (I think I am still recovering). Joel is a farmer and works a lot. Sunday was our family day–the one day that we always got to be together. Joel loved spending Sundays with Cora. Going to church without her now is hard. It is hard to go to church and see all the families. It is hard to see all the little girls in their pretty dresses. It is hard to see kids coming out of the nursery. At the same time it is so good to be a church. It is good to be around people who love us and who are praying for us. It is good to sing–the worship songs have entirely new meanings to us now. It is good to be in the Word and learn from the sermons.
Each week continues to have ups and downs. I don’t think that is bad. We need time to be sad and cry. We need time to laugh and feel a glimpse of “normal” again. It is just hard and tiring. You never know what your emotions are going to do next.
This emotional unsteadiness keeps reminding me that I have to cling to my ROCK. I am so thankful that no matter what an emotional mess I feel inside that I have a firm foundation in Christ. He fully understands my grief and emotions and is walking this road right beside me. Even when I don’t feel secure, I know that with Jesus I can stand secure. I can keep moving forward. Even through this storm. This is what I continue to put my HOPE in.
The Lord is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer;
my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge.
I’ve had several people ask me about the Cora’s Playground necklaces that we were wearing on Cora’s birthday. Here they are. Thank you to Mark and Stef at HomeStudio for designing such a beautiful pendant in honor of Cora’s life and the Cora’s Playground Project. They are just beautiful!
So, head on over to Etsy. Last I checked there were still some left.
Thank you to all the Etsy sellers who are continuing to donate to Cora’s Playground. I am amazed how kind and generous you all are. You have blessed us so much! Cora’s Playground is in the works, but nothing has actually been started yet. I will keep you updated as things get started.
A few more things…
My mom and I are still sewing. More Cora dresses and other things will be added to Cora’s soon. I will let you know when that happens. We have about 30 dresses cut out. We just have to find time to sew now.
We are not taking any special orders for Cora dresses at this point. Thanks for being patient. We will continue to put more in our shop as often as we can.
So many people have offered to do kind things for us, wanted us to contact them, or just had questions they wanted us to answer. I do read all of your comments (both here and through our Etsy shop). You are so encouraging to us. I haven’t gotten back to hardly anyone because it is just too overwhelming right now. Hopefully someday I will have time to get to know some of you through your blogs and answer questions. For right now I am doing good just to get something posted on our blog!
I think that is all for tonight…
Phew! I am glad that is over. We watched the news tonight and were so thankful for how Megan reported our story. We were a little nervous…you never know what to expect. They even let me talk about Jesus on TV! You can watch it here.
I felt amazingly calm (for me) during the interview. I am so thankful that God gives us strength to get through things like this. Things that normally would make us so uncomfortable. I am praying that someone was watching the news tonight who needed to hear about Jesus and that HIS name would be glorified through our story.
This week I have been asked to go WAY out of my comfort zone.
Last week we had been contacted by the Newton Kansan (our local paper). They wanted to do a story about Cora’s Playground and wanted to interview us. If you know me you will understand that this is totally outside my box. I am a pretty private person and would rather go unnoticed than be in the spotlight. I know you are laughing…there is no going back now!
We agreed to do the interview and met with the reporter on Monday. She was very kind, but the interview was really hard for both Joel and me. Harder than we thought. She wanted to know all about Cora and I started crying the first time I opened my mouth. But, we made it through. We felt like it was an opportunity to share what God is doing in our lives. That’s why we did it.
The article was published in today’s paper. You can read it here. I don’t like having my picture on the front page of the paper AT ALL. But, it was awesome to read about Jesus in our local paper.
Today when I got home (I had just read the article), my phone started ringing. I looked at our caller idea and it was Channel 12 News out of Wichita. I thought there was no way that it could be a reporter. But I was scared that it was and didn’t answer the phone. As I listened to the message I couldn’t believe that someone would want to do a story about our little Cora. They did! They wanted to interview us today and air the story on tonight’s news.
I just cried because I didn’t know what to do. I just waited and thought. Twenty minutes later she called again. I knew I needed to answer the phone. She wanted to come to our house in two hours to talk to us. I told her I needed to talk to Joel and I would call her back.
I am not a good decision maker. I don’t like talking publicly, especially in front of a camera. Not to mention I didn’t think I could get through an interview without crying again. But, I knew this was another opportunity to share the love of Jesus…with LOTS of people.
I called Joel. I prayed that if we were supposed to do the interview that Joel would say we needed to do it. Of course he was hesitant, but he thought we needed to say yes. After all, it is not about us. We are here to glorify God. This might be our opportunity to do just that. We prayed that He would give us the words to say.
So here we are…
This is for all the locals. Our story will be on the 9 o’clock news (on Fox) and the 10 o’clock (Channel 12) news after the basketball games.
We are praying that God would be glorified through this story!