…there are so many things to be thankful for.
…there are so many things to be thankful for.
We made it through the first part of the holiday season. And honestly, yesterday I did not wake up with a thankful heart. I woke up with a heavy heart and tears. I knew that I was having to face another holiday without Cora and I was so sad. The normal happy family gatherings just didn’t seem right without her. I thought about what that day should have looked like. Our house should have been filled with excitement as we got ready for the day and told Cora all about going to Grammy and Papa’s to eat dinner and play with her cousins. Instead our house was horribly quiet and there was no one to talk to. I just felt this huge hole in my heart. It has been there since Cora died, but yesterday I felt it so intensely.
But, God’s grace was truly sufficient to get us through the day when we would have rather stayed in bed and not faced Thanksgiving at all. He gave us the strength to make it through. And yet despite the sadness and heaviness in my heart, yesterday I sensed how much I still have to be thankful for. Even in the face of death and celebrating these holidays without Cora, God’s hope comes shining through.
Yesterday I took time to write down the many things I have to be thankful for. These were just a few:
Joel. My husband is amazing and I can’t imagine walking this road of grief without him. I am so thankful for his constant love, understanding, and support. I am so thankful that I have someone to cry with who misses my sweet little girl just as much as I do. I am so thankful for how he continues to point us to Jesus in the midst of pain.
Cora. My sweet daughter and the eleven amazing months we had with her. Even though loosing her has been the most painful thing I have ever had to endure, I wouldn’t trade those eleven months for anything. I feel so blessed that the Lord chose me to be Cora’s mama. She has forever changed my life and I can’t wait to see her again in heaven.
Baby Mac. What a blessing he/she is to us already. I am so thankful that our house will be filled with the love and joys of a child again. I am so thankful that Joel and I will get to be daddy and mommy again.
Family. ALL of our family is wonderful. I honestly couldn’t ask for a better support system. Even as I write this they are helping me paint and finish some projects in my house so it is done before the baby comes. They love us and will do anything for us and I am so grateful. I am especially thankful for my mom and sister who have stuck so close to me this year. They have seen me at my ugliest and I am so thankful for their unconditional love.
Friends. Old friends and even a few new friends who allow us to be real and miss Cora along with us. They care about us so much and want to know how we are REALLY doing.
HOPE. I am most thankful for the hope that is found in my relationship with Jesus Christ alone. It is this hope that sustains me and inspires me to keep enduring. It is this hope that assures me of the deep love of my Savior even amidst a painful world that doesn’t make sense. Because of this hope, and because I am in His loving care, I have everything I need.
For that and that alone, I am extremely thankful.
Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.
1 Thessalonians 5:16-18
Commit your way to the Lord. Psalm 37:5a
Talk to God about whatever may be pressuring you and then commit the entire matter into His hands…Acquaint Him with it; yes, even burden Him with it, and you will have put the concerns and cares of the matter behind you. From that point forward, exercise quiet, sweet diligence in your work, recognizing your dependence on Him to carry the matter for you. Commit your cares and yourself with them, as one burden, to your God.
Streams in the Desert
I needed this reminder. All of a sudden the past two weeks I feel like I am at the drowning point again. Any hint of stability I was starting to feel is all of a sudden gone. There are so many big milestones coming up and another life change too. My emotions are going crazy and sometimes I just don’t think I can handle it. And really I can’t by myself. So this week I am going to try to stop worrying. I am going to try to stop trying to handle everything by myself and put my worries and fears at the feet of Jesus. I know that I am going to have to continue to cling to Him to get through Thanksgiving and Christmas and welcoming this new little one into our family.
Speaking of Baby Mac…
We had our last sonogram today. It is hard to believe that we made it through all three. Everything is still looking great! We were so relieved and so thankful. The best way I can describe how we are feeling is cautiously excited. We know this precious baby is going to be such a blessing, but it is so hard to know what it is going to be like to bring this little one home without Cora. Another fear to lay at His feet.
Here is one last peek before we get to meet Baby Mac…
Gotta love those big pouty lips!
FYI…The plan for Cora’s is to post on Wednesday morning. Keep checking back for updates.
…to a few questions about the Cora shop
When will you post?
The goal is next week…before Thanksgiving.
I will keep you updated as it gets closer.
Any boy items this time?
We have a swaddle blanket and onesie that would work for a boy.
The burpies could be used for a boy.
Otherwise, everything is pretty girlie.
We are working on some new ideas for the boys.
Any dresses bigger than 5T?
No…at least not at this point.
Actually we don’t even have ANY dresses in sizes 2T-5T this time.
Bummer, I know.
We are having a horrible time finding NICE, plain shirts to use.
We can’t get the Cherokee shirts we were using any more.
So, you don’t have ANY 2T-5T dresses??
No, but we do have skirts this time.
I know it is not the same.
But, they are super cute too…I promise.
A Christmas skirt might be just what your little girl needs.
What else will you be posting?
NB swaddle blanket and onesie sets
dresses 3 month-24 month
Any special/custom orders?
We just can’t keep up with that right now.
I wish we could make everyone exactly what they want.
I promise we would if we could.
But that is just not realistic right now.
Hopefully you will get to Cora’s in time
to find something Christmas-y for your little one!