My first appointment was a little over a week ago.
I was anxious for the day to arrive. I did ok until the morning of the appointment. That morning I wasn’t so great. I was a mess. I was so nervous and anxious and sad all at the same time. I knew I needed to just trust–sometimes that is SO hard! I spent some time with the Lord and tried to hand over all of my fears and emotions to Him. He has been so faithful to walk beside us this far and I knew He would be faithful to help us get through this day too.
I needed that time to just be quiet and listen to the Lord, but I still had this heaviness in my heart that we were moving forward without Cora. I felt horrible. I sat in her room for a while and just cried and cried. So many cherished memories ran through my head as I sat there. I remembered sitting in that very rocking chair in the middle of the night looking at my sweet baby and just being amazed that she was my daughter. I felt so blessed. Cora brought us such joy. Now another little baby was on the way and Cora wasn’t going to be with us to meet him/her. I know Cora will always be a huge part of our family. But, it is still so hard. I was really struggling to sort through the intense pain of loosing Cora and the joy of this new baby.
Joel was just as nervous as I was. We hadn’t been to a doctor’s office since Cora was with us. During our days in the hospital we always felt this huge pit in our stomachs when a doctor would walk into Cora’s room. That was such a horrible feeling. Each time we prayed that bad news wouldn’t come out of the doctor’s mouth. So often it did.
As we sat waiting for my doctor to come in I think we were both feeling that same pit. We were praying that we wouldn’t here bad news that day. We didn’t know if we could handle any more. We just wanted to hear the sound of a little heart beat. We needed to hear some good news.
The nurses and doctors were so gracious to us. The great thing about living in a small town is that they all knew about Cora. We didn’t have to explain anything. They understood and were so kind as tears rolled down our cheeks. They were wonderful!
And then we heard the amazing sound of our baby’s heartbeat. We needed to hear that so badly! We even got to take a peek at our new little one.
For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
Everything looked great so far. I am 12 weeks along and January 2nd is my due date. We are so thankful for this new little life! I am feeling pretty good. Just tired. And very emotional on top of already being very emotional. I am grateful for my amazing and understanding husband. He is so patient with me.
Thanks for your many sweet comments. We loved reading them all! We feel so blessed to be loved and prayed for by so many.
So, this is the beginning of another new journey…
we will be clinging tightly to the Lord the whole way!
Obviously, this is not a secret anymore! We wanted to share with all of you our exciting news. We are so thankful that the Lord has blessed us with another child. We can’t wait for our house to be filled with that joy again.
But this announcement comes with so many mixed emotions as it is hard to imagine adding another child to our family without Cora here with us. She would have been such a good big sister!
We are so thankful for all of our faithful prayer warriors out there! Please continue to pray along with us for a healthy baby Mac. What a miracle this new little life is!
The 4th of July stuff is out.
It looked like so much when we were sewing.
But I don’t know how long it will last.
We are still sewing.
Hopefully we will post more red, white and blue next week.
This will have to due for now.
Go to Cora’s NOW!
Have a great weekend!
Thank you so much for playing along with us. My mom and I had so much fun reading through all of your comments. What great memories and family traditions!
Here are the giveaway winners:
One red, white, and blue Cora dress
Sarah: I must say…I’ve never won a thing before in my life, so I thought I’d give this a chance! I absolutely LOVE the 4th of July dresses!! My fondest memories as a child are going with my parents to pick out the fireworks. I was always so excited to get the snaps and sparklers! I also loved making a mess with the black snakes with my brothers! We would participate in the towns activities (going to the parade and water fights and such) and then bbq with friends. We always ended the night by lighting off the fireworks. I’m so proud to say that I have passed some of these memories on to my own children. They love to go and pick out snaps and sparklers and love going to the parades! We have started a tradition of bbqing with friends and lighting fireworks as well! I love watching their faces as the fireworks go up in the air. I just hope that I’m giving them the same fond memories that my parents gave to me!Thank you for this great opportunity!!Still praying for your family in Nebraska.
One red, white, and blue girl’s t-shirt
Cherie: How fun!! This is my first time commenting. I know, shame on me!What a blessing your words are to so many, especially me! One of my favorite things about your journey is the relationship you have with your mom. I can completely relate to having a mom that you love to spend any day with. We are so blessed to have the best moms and to have such a special and close friendship with them. God is good!! You asked about family traditions…Our 4th of July family tradition is to go to my husband’s grandparents house to watch the BIG fireworks display that the school across the street puts on. My husband comes from a farming family and one of the best highlights is Grandpa’s homemade peach ice cream. By the way, I LOVE YOUR CORA DRESSES! Adorable! I just can’t seem to get my hands on them. Who knows…maybe now. :)Thank you for sharing your journey with all of us. Stay strong…I can not imagine how people do this life without our amazing God! Praise the Lord we are HIS!!
One flag onesie
Bri: I left on a service mission for my church for 18 months on July 5th, 2000. That July 4th before I left was a special one because I knew it would be the last time for a while I would be with all of my family. We went to “The Stadium of Fire” which is always a special experience. It is very patriotic and inspiring. I LOVE the 4th of July and I would LOVE to get one of your giveaway items. Thank you for sharing your life with us. I often am in tears when I read your posts. You inspire me.
Sarah, Cherie, and Bri please contact me at firstname.lastname@example.org with your contact information.
We will start posting our red, white, and blue stuff at Cora’s sometime this week. Keep checking back!