Somedays I wonder how I can keep going. I wonder how I can keep moving forward without Cora and with this huge hole in my heart. It makes me so sad to think it has been six almost seven months that we have continued through life without Cora alongside us. I hate that time is moving forward without her here. But then I marvel at the fact that it has been six almost seven months that I have lived through this dark storm and I am still standing.
Yesterday as we worshipped in church, the words of these songs seemed to jump off the screen at me. I think I needed a reminder of why I am still standing. A reminder that Christ alone is my solid ground through this fierce storm. And because of this living hope, He gives me a reason to keep moving forward.
In Christ alone my hope is found
He is my light, my strength, my song
This Cornerstone, this solid ground
Firm through the fiercest drought and storm
What heights of love, what depths of peace
When fears are stilled, when strivings cease
My Comforter, my All in All
Here in the love of Christ I stand
No guilt in life, no fear in death
This is the power of Christ in me
From life’s first cry to final breath
Jesus commands my destiny
No power of hell, no scheme of man
Can ever pluck me from His hand
’til He returns or calls me home
Here in the power of Christ I stand
(In Christ Alone)
Jesus You’re my firm foundation 
I know I can stand secure
Jesus You’re my firm foundation
I put my hope in Your holy Word
I put my hope in Your holy Word
I have a living hope
I have a future
God has a plan for me
Of this I’m sure
Of this I’m sure
(Firm Foundation)
I pray that whatever you are facing today, that you too would find your feet standing secure–
in Jesus, our firm foundation.
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  • August 24, 2009 - 9:34 am

    TRICIA @boutellefamilyzoo - Beautifully written. God indeed provides for our every need.

    With Love and Prayers,
    XO*TriciaReplyCancel

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  • August 24, 2009 - 9:43 am

    Ethansmom08 - Very Beautiful…and so very true!

    Praying for you,
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  • August 24, 2009 - 10:04 am

    Claudia - I absolutely love this song!!!!

    What a great reminder, thank you so much.ReplyCancel

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  • August 24, 2009 - 10:04 am

    Janice - So very true.ReplyCancel

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  • August 24, 2009 - 10:14 am

    Lauren Kelly - Beautiful! Thank you for this reminder!!!ReplyCancel

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  • August 24, 2009 - 10:19 am

    Alaine - That’s my all time favorite song. It moves me to tears every time I hear it or sing it. What a wonderful anthem for our lives.

    I don’t know you IRL, but I was following your blog 7 months ago and have prayed for you often since then. I’d like to think I could handle such a huge loss with as much faith as you have. Cora is blessed to have you for her mommy.ReplyCancel

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  • August 24, 2009 - 10:29 am

    Ashlee , JT. Soph, Shiloh, and Baby Tollett - Your strength and courage is such a testimony. When I click on your blog, it so hard for myself, even a stranger to look at the pictures of your beautiful daughter and know you are without her. I can not fathom what you have gone through and as a mother, I know my heart would be devastated.

    Your faith is a testimony and I will continue to pray for the gradual healing and kind touch of the Father’s hand to guide you through your days ahead. I’m not sure where you live at this time besides somewhere in Kansas, but I grew up just south of Wichita about 60 miles and now live in Overland Park.

    I know a lot of people are excited to see how the little life inside of you will bring such a new joy and hopeful healing to you guys. Take care and much love from a fellow sister in Christ.ReplyCancel

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  • August 24, 2009 - 10:32 am

    Missy - thanks for sharing! such encouragement. if your still standing after all you’ve been through…then i can too ;)

    love and prayers!ReplyCancel

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  • August 24, 2009 - 10:40 am

    Courtney and the Boys - Thank you SO much for this. I learned earlier this morning that I have to put my dog to sleep, and my heart is broken. But I will still stand…in the love of Christ. God bless you in your journey, and thank you for your testimony.ReplyCancel

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  • August 24, 2009 - 10:49 am

    Samantha - So beautifully put, your strength and courage astounds me. If you and your family can still be standing, it puts new encouragement in my heart. Thank you for the reminder.ReplyCancel

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  • August 24, 2009 - 11:06 am

    Allison - Ive been reading for a while but have never commented. I just want you to know that you are such an inspiration to me! I am so glad you are still standing. :)ReplyCancel

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  • August 24, 2009 - 11:16 am

    PamperingBeki - I, too, am amazed that you’re still standing.

    I’m quite certain I would not have your strength.

    I’ve told you this before, but nearly every worship song now has a different meaning to me. Particularly those you chose for Cora’s celebration service.
    My eyes have been opened like never before.

    I hate that it had to happen, but God is working through Cora and your family.ReplyCancel

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  • August 24, 2009 - 11:43 am

    Marla Taviano - LOVE that song! Praying for your hurting heart!ReplyCancel

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  • August 24, 2009 - 12:37 pm

    sewbusy - AMEN!! The Lord has used you so much this year in helping to bring healing to my life after the loss of our son almost 3 years ago. I am so thankful He has given me this healing! Thank you for being willing to be used by Him! I pray that some day you may experience that awesome healing power HE alone can give.
    Blessings,
    Ami

    Ps this is not to say I don’t still hurt but I can now move on with JOY and HOPE and PEACE! It is truely wonderful!ReplyCancel

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  • August 24, 2009 - 12:56 pm

    Trasie Bressler - Thanks for sharing and I know that with all that you have gone through and you are still standing then I know that I can too!!!ReplyCancel

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  • August 24, 2009 - 1:12 pm

    Erica - i don’t know how people get through life without Christ being their foothold and strength.ReplyCancel

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  • August 24, 2009 - 1:15 pm

    dg darling - I still pray for you daily you know…Though I never knew Cora in person I think of her often, maybe because my baby girl is close to her age. I see her smile in my mind alot when my daughter smiles. Honestly, for a little girl I never knew, she sure has left an impression on my heart. So have you, and Joel. I know you didn’t set out to inspire anyone and I know you would gladly trade the admiration to have your baby girl back but I am so thankful to have gotten to “know” you and Cora through this. I pray that all will be well with this baby you are expecting and I pray that your’s and Joel’s hearts will be blessed with peace and healing. Just know that the world has not forgotten your Cora and we are all praying for you as you continue to grieve while at the same time going on with life…ReplyCancel

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  • August 24, 2009 - 1:21 pm

    Sherryl - You are still standing because you still have a purpose in this world – to be the great mom that you were to Cora yet again to another little baby.

    Take it one day at a time.ReplyCancel

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  • August 24, 2009 - 1:44 pm

    mom2wendy - Only Christ offers safe harbor in the tragic sea of grief.ReplyCancel

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  • August 24, 2009 - 1:56 pm

    Falling Around - Love that song.

    I continue to be amazed by your strength through moving forward without sweet Cora. Your strength is a miracle only God can provide and an inspiration to us all.

    Love & Prayers,
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  • August 24, 2009 - 2:05 pm

    Kelli - This is my very favorite song!! It’s truth is powerful!! Praying for you and your husband!!!ReplyCancel

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  • August 24, 2009 - 2:22 pm

    Juliann - Praise the Lord, Amen. Jesus IS the name above all names. Without him, we truly have no hope. Thank you for sharing your faith with me.ReplyCancel

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  • August 24, 2009 - 2:29 pm

    lil miss' mama - You are so courageous. My family and I sung In Christ Alone last week at my grandfather’s memorial service. It is a song full of hope, which is what I pray that you will hold onto as you maneuver the days and months ahead. I know that that song has helped give me anchor as I miss my grandfather so very much and it has only been one week since he left for Heaven. God’s blessings on your family forever.ReplyCancel

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  • August 24, 2009 - 3:47 pm

    Sharon - It’s so true, we never can stand on our own. Please feel lifted by so many prayers that are being sent your way!ReplyCancel

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  • August 24, 2009 - 4:06 pm

    Anonymous - Through you pain You are still being an inspiration..How true your words are. You continue to amaze me with you faith, strenth.

    I think about you and your Cora everyday, multiple times a day.

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  • August 24, 2009 - 4:10 pm

    Krystal - That song never fails to leave me humbled AND encouraged. Thank you for sharing your heart. I love the opportunity to pray for others, though of course I wish we didn’t live in a sinful world full of pain and suffering. Heaven sure looks good, doesn’t it!?!ReplyCancel

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  • August 24, 2009 - 7:01 pm

    Karina - I wish I could believe that. I am so glad, for your sake, that you do! Given my lack of faith, I’m certain that losing a child would kill me; I don’t know how anyone in your position copes without the sense of a greater power in their lives. I take comfort in your faith for your sake – and that, too, is very inspirational.ReplyCancel

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  • August 24, 2009 - 7:44 pm

    Brandi - Absolutey beautiful!!! I pray for you and your family every day.. I can’t imagine your pain. THINKING of you!!!!ReplyCancel

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  • August 24, 2009 - 8:12 pm

    Rebecca - This song has always been a favorite of mine. The message is so strong. It just fills me with hope for things that seem uncertain and difficult.

    You have been on my mind and heart and in my prayers everyday for these last six almost seven months since Cora went to heaven. I sometimes marvel at the grief I continue to feel for somebody I have never met.

    May He grant you joy. May He grant you peace.

    Love and Hugs to you and Joel.ReplyCancel

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  • August 24, 2009 - 8:23 pm

    Jenifer - Preying for youReplyCancel

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  • August 24, 2009 - 8:50 pm

    sassy studio - hello macs,
    your strength and love and lessons are shared so beautifully…..lessons for life for all, thank you in so many ways.
    wish we could have met you for ice cream when you were here in Canada!
    sassy in SK (besdie AB)ReplyCancel

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  • August 24, 2009 - 9:01 pm

    mommaof4wife2r - i love that song…it speaks volumes to me each time i hear those words!

    “No power of hell, no scheme of man
    Can ever pluck me from His hand”…man, that is hope! praise god!ReplyCancel

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  • August 24, 2009 - 9:07 pm

    Joy - I think about you guys daily…I am continually praying for you as you weather this journey. SO thankful you are finding strength in Christ – our shelter – we sang a song in church this weekend called “Made Me Glad” by Hillsong. It’s powerful, and I think you might like it if you don’t know it already. My heart is continually so burdened for you both…it is teaching me to truly give ALL that I am to the Lord – that my children are not mine, but His…it can be so hard to do. Thank you for your faithfulness, honesty, and true testimony to Christ. I am praying for your sweet Mama’s heart – for healing – and for a growing love and joy for the precious gift growing inside you. With Love, JoyReplyCancel

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  • August 24, 2009 - 9:23 pm

    Allison - I’ve been reading your blog for awhile but don’t comment a lot. I just wanted to let you know that I keep you and your family in my prayers.ReplyCancel

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  • August 24, 2009 - 9:28 pm

    Jen - I found your link on safe Haven.. and I must say what a great song.. I lost my daughter in may..she was 9 months old.. it is so hard..the day to day with out her is awful..people always say “I don’t know how you do it” I always say back to them “by the grace of our God..” because if it were just me, I would never get out of bed..the playground is beautiful and a wonderful tribute to precious your daughter..ReplyCancel

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  • August 24, 2009 - 9:50 pm

    jenjensden - To me, “In Christ Alone” is the most powerful song we ever sing in church. Every time we sing it I say I’m not going to cry and when we get to the verse about Him rising from the dead on the third day, Jesus’ sacrifice and His overcoming death is so real to me, and tears always flood.

    I am constantly amazed by your faithfulness. The peace, joy and beauty that you exhibit through this blog, and I’m sure throughout your life, is definitely Jesus shining through you — there could me no other explanation after all you’ve been through. I’m so glad you have Jesus as your firm foundation.ReplyCancel

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  • August 24, 2009 - 10:06 pm

    Cristy - So very true! You are the perfect example Jess.

    ((Hugs)) and love…

    CristyReplyCancel

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  • August 24, 2009 - 10:07 pm

    Shauna - I definitely needed that today-thank you for sharing!ReplyCancel

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  • August 24, 2009 - 10:20 pm

    Ang - I pray for you often. I know you don’t know me, but I follow your blog and your little girl is just precious! I am so sorry for the hurt that your family has endured. I may have already posted this request to you. I have tried to ask as many people as I can especially considering the path your lives have taken. But if you get a chance can you go to my blog and scroll down to read the ‘tragic’ post? This family too needs much prayer. Thank you!! my blog address is http://buckinghamsblog.blogspot.com/ReplyCancel

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  • August 24, 2009 - 10:31 pm

    Liana - you are AMAZING. Stay strong. Your witness and openess (once again) has moved me to tears. I think of your family often.ReplyCancel

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  • August 24, 2009 - 11:32 pm

    Christina - That is such a powerful song! May you continue to be blessed as you bless others through your own growth, stretching, healing…ReplyCancel

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  • August 25, 2009 - 12:08 am

    shepherdsgrace - i love this song as well…

    also…when I suffered the loss of a much desired pregnancy in 2007…the Lord comforted me with Blessed Be Your Name…

    the brokenness then, He used to make me stronger now…I then lost my much beloved grandmother(mother) September of that same year…and I broke…yet He held me..

    And I realized…it’s all Him…and I love Him…

    May He strengthen you…hold you, encourage you…as only He can and does…

    blessings, and thank you for your testimony..

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  • August 25, 2009 - 7:50 am

    Maple Memories - Still praying. Daily.ReplyCancel

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  • August 25, 2009 - 10:36 am

    Hailey - You are always in my thoughts and prayers.
    Hailey in NCReplyCancel

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  • August 25, 2009 - 12:47 pm

    Maria - I have never left a comment, even though I read your blog pretty much every day and have now since before Cora’s illness. And I have never, never checked your blog from work. But for some reason today I did…and now I know why. I needed to read those words to that song because today is a day that I need to be reminded of that. THANK YOU…MANY HUGS TO YOU AND YOUR FAMILY! Praying for all of you!ReplyCancel

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  • August 26, 2009 - 8:24 am

    Robin in Benton - Thinking of you and praying for you today. With God’s help you will continue to stand and mover forward.ReplyCancel

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  • August 26, 2009 - 9:46 am

    Adrian - What an amazing mother you are! I can’t imagine the heartache you must go through.. I don’t have a blog of my own just yet, but I saw your blog through a friend’s and I was so touched to read your story. Know that you and Joel are in my prayers as you deal with the loss of Cora and the joy of bringing a new life into this world and your strength is a inspiration to so many! With Love, AdrianReplyCancel

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  • August 26, 2009 - 10:08 am

    Angie - Beautiful.ReplyCancel

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  • August 26, 2009 - 12:41 pm

    Sheila - Your strength amazes me and I pray daily for you and your family!! Thanks for the reminder that Christ rises above all storms!ReplyCancel

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  • August 26, 2009 - 2:49 pm

    PamperingBeki - Thinking of you today.ReplyCancel

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  • August 26, 2009 - 3:48 pm

    The Pike Family - Hello there :)
    I have been reading your blog for awhile now but I have never posted..I dont know why? Probably because I live in AZ and you have no idea who I am :) but I just want you to know that you are amazing…truly! Thank you for all the inspiration!
    XOXO JulieReplyCancel

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  • August 27, 2009 - 7:57 pm

    Jessica - Hey I nominated you for an award CHECK my blog!!!ReplyCancel

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  • August 30, 2009 - 2:56 pm

    The Koehns - We sing Firm Foundation at our church a lot (in fact, we sang it today). It is a short song, but oh, so powerful! Keep inspiring us all. Can’t wait to see pictures of Baby Mac!ReplyCancel

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  • September 3, 2009 - 3:29 pm

    Rachael - My FAVORITE SONG! It is so try and speaks to what you are going through. Thinking of you.ReplyCancel

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  • September 4, 2009 - 5:24 pm

    Nan in Can - That first one is one of my all time faves. So much truth and beauty… Keep standing. But when you fall, you know whose arms you fall into. “His power is made perfect in weakness…”ReplyCancel

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THE COLORS!
I just love how Cora’s Playground is coming together.
Check out the new flooring.




Isn’t it GREAT?

DuraPlay installed the flooring. They even donated some of the cost so that we could have the colorful design–which I love!  
We are so thankful for all these talented, generous people who are helping make Cora’s Playground possible.

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  • August 19, 2009 - 3:45 pm

    Jamie from Quinter - The colors of the flooring really make it look awesome!!ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 3:49 pm

    Stacia Howard - WOW! It looks awesome!!ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 3:50 pm

    Tina - It looks amazing! I hope to visit her playground in person one of these days.

    Also, Jess, I wanted to ask if you mind if I steal your “Praises” and “Prayer Requests” terminology that you used while Cora was sick. My Aunt Linda is currently very sick and fighting Diffuse Large B Cell Lymphoma on her brain. Our family started a website for her through caringbridge and I just really like that idea so I hope you don’t mind.

    Take care!ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 3:53 pm

    wicker0407 - It looks amazing brings tears to my eyes. I know my kids would LOVE to play on that playground! Continued prayers from my family to yours!
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  • August 19, 2009 - 4:00 pm

    Maureen - Wow! It looks amazing!!!ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 4:06 pm

    Susy M from Miami - Cora is smiling down from Heaven. What a great playground but remember, she has an even better one up there. God bless you all.ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 4:06 pm

    Kendra - love the playground! so adorable and full of life!ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 4:13 pm

    CourtneyC - wow, what an awesome playground!!!ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 4:14 pm

    Joel - So glad you like it Jess! It’s been a blessing to work with you and your church!ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 4:16 pm

    Lundstrom Family - That is adorable, just like Cora! What an awesome memorial for her. Praying for you!ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 4:17 pm

    Amy - It is so beautiful!

    I will visit one day (I’m actually not too far… about 6-8 hours away in southern Oklahoma), so my girls can slide on Cora’s slide and play on Cora’s playground.ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 4:18 pm

    Missy - i’d love to play there! seriously, it’s wonderful. what a beautiful reflection of your sweet daughters life.

    blessingsReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 4:21 pm

    jennifer rogers - oh my gosh it looks great! I just wish we lived near you so that I could take my little boy there to play it looks so inviting!ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 4:22 pm

    Jenny - That is the cutest playground I have ever seen!ReplyCancel

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    Tara - wow! the colors are awesome!ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 4:25 pm

    kimberlysayre - That looks awesome!ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 4:26 pm

    Anonymous - LOVE IT! Great job Mom and Grammy on picking out the floor..What a fantastic legacy to your beautiful Cora Paige!

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  • August 19, 2009 - 4:26 pm

    Elle's Mom - Oh my goodness! That is the most beautiful and special playground I have ever seen! I have goosebumps!!ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 4:32 pm

    Marla Taviano - Oh my word, Jess!! That is beyond amazing. It’s INCREDIBLE. It just screams, “CORA!!” What a beautiful, beautiful reflection of her radiant, happy life!!

    Praising Jesus with you!!ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 4:33 pm

    Kelly - It looks amazing! I was just thinking about the playground today, and wondering if you would post an update soon. I also love the new blog design. I love seeing all the different pictures of Cora. She is so beautiul! I know she would have loved the playground.ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 4:38 pm

    The Carrolls - This looks so amazing! Still praying for your family!ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 4:41 pm

    Taylor - Love the flooring…Great colors!ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 4:43 pm

    sarah m - It is SO cute & fun – love it!!ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 4:44 pm

    Polka Dot Moon - What a wonderful, beautiful and amazing playground you have created! And I feel the same with your new blog header! Her smiling face makes me smile too :)ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 4:45 pm

    Erica - wow wow wow! i love it! the flooring reminds me of the yellow brick road! :) so cuteReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 4:47 pm

    Restless Mama - This is such a beautiful project – you’re such a beautiful family for doing this.ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 4:47 pm

    Megan - It is a really beautiful playground. The kids will absolutely love it. It’s really special.ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 4:50 pm

    The Sieberts - love it! how cheery and inviting and a great way to remember how happy Cora would have been playing on the playground :)
    Love your new blog layout too…ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 4:54 pm

    Jennifer Rutherford - This is the coolest playground I have ever seen!ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 4:59 pm

    Sherryl - Such a happy, happy place!ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 5:03 pm

    Falling Around - Oh my goodness… it is wonderful! I love the flooring. I’ve never seen it done like that before – it’s amazing! It’s truly coming together beautifully.ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 5:06 pm

    Heather - HOW ADORABLE!!! It looks great!! And I love how the new layout switches the pics each time!
    Hugs and prayers,
    Heather~ On the HomefrontReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 5:07 pm

    Kelly Taylor - I’m a lurker, but just had to comment today. The playground is beautiful and I don’t know of a single child that won’t absolutely LOVE to play on it. What a wonderful way to honor precious Cora’s life.ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 5:09 pm

    Ashley - Cora’s Playground is absolutely beautiful! Hands down the most amazing playground I have ever seen, and I have seen my share! The flooring pattern is a great touch. What a wonderful gift to the children of your area.ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 5:16 pm

    Dina Ross - Perfect, simply Perfect!!!ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 5:17 pm

    Mum2twopreciousgifts - Wow! Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful!

    Congratulations on organising such an incredible tribute to your precious Cora.ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 5:18 pm

    Sara Lynn - That looks like so much fun!!!!ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 5:23 pm

    Julie - Jess, I LOVE the floor. It’s perfect. Love you!ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 5:25 pm

    dg darling - That is so incredibly cute!!! I wish I lived anywhere near you so I could take my own baby girl to play at Cora’s.ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 5:31 pm

    Megan - What a beautiful playground in honor of such a beautiful baby.ReplyCancel

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    La Familia Garcia - I love the new blog look!!ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 5:52 pm

    Bailey - It is very beautiful – what fun the kids will have!ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 6:01 pm

    Katie - It’s beautiful! I would LOVE to play there with the kids I babysit for!ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 6:04 pm

    Anonymous - Colorful, happy, and full of Joy, just like your sweet Cora!! That’s what I feel when I see this playground.ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 6:09 pm

    Trasie Bressler - Absolutely Perfect!!! I love the colors, I love the equipment what a beautiful place for all of Cora’s friends to play on. I love love love it!!!!ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 6:11 pm

    THE ZELLERS - DuraPlay!!! Jess, the owners of DurePlay are my good friends and neighbors, Misty and Darren Toomey way down here in Wimberley, Texas. They live just a few doors down from me. I’m so happy that they partnered with you to make Cora’s playground so colorful and safe for the kiddos to enjoy.

    Misty and Darren have two young children themselves, Cash and Blue, who I know would love to spend some time at Cora’s playground. I’ll be sure to let them know what a special project they were a part of, just in case they aren’t aware.

    Everything is just beautiful, a true reflection of Cora. All it needs now is a few dozen little ones squealing and laughing. Can’t wait for the pictures of that.

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  • August 19, 2009 - 6:21 pm

    Shosh - WOW! This is the nicest playground I’ve ever seen! And I’ve seen a lot….ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 6:23 pm

    Angie - Incredible…beyond all the visions I had of how it would look!ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 6:25 pm

    Allison - Wow! It’s really breathtaking! Such a wonderful tribute to your little girl.ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 6:30 pm

    mommaof4wife2r - it is more than fab! so creative and fun and playful…perfect! and what a great honor for cora to have such a lovely place in her honor…she deserves it!ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 6:32 pm

    Christine - I love it, so colorful and fun! What a wonderful tribute :)ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 7:03 pm

    Our Curly Girls - WOW! It’s a beautiful and inviting haven for children. I absolutely love it!! :)ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 7:16 pm

    Shane and Casey - I’m going to get lost in your comments, but I just had to write that the playground looks amazing. Cora has to be beaming down on you two with pride right now!ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 7:27 pm

    Bambi - The playground is amazing! What a wonderful tribute to Cora.ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 7:44 pm

    Chris - WOW !!! BEAUTIFUL.
    Cora must be so proud of you :)ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 7:45 pm

    Kelly - Gorgeous! Cora would have loved it.ReplyCancel

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    laura - that has to be one of the coolest playgrounds i have ever seen! so happy for you and your family!ReplyCancel

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    PamperingBeki - Holy cow Jess.. That’s amazing!!! So exciting!ReplyCancel

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    Jane In The Jungle - That is amazing and new little Mac will LOVE it!! Bet Cora is laughing and clapping in heaven!ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 8:12 pm

    Abby Johns - The flooring colors really make the play equipment POP. I love the whole design; it makes me want to be a kid again!ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 8:15 pm

    Shannon - Absolutely beautiful and fun–just like sweet little Cora!ReplyCancel

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    Julie @ Joy's Hope - What a cheery, beautiful, wonderful amazing place. I can’t wait to see it.ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 8:21 pm

    Kristi REDISKE - I love it! Do you know yet when the dedication is going to be? I really want to come to that.ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 8:21 pm

    Carrie Hasson - SO AMAZING!!!ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 8:21 pm

    Jessica - Beautiful! Olivia would LOVE it. She loves bright colors!ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 8:24 pm

    Mandi - What a fun place for little ones to play!ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 8:26 pm

    The Costellos - Wow, so beautiful and amazing. What a legacy for Cora to leave and to think that she will be remembered for years to come by those who weren’t even privelleged to meet her before she went home to the Father! Blessings to you!ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 8:37 pm

    gwswenson - Absolutely wonderful! You have really good taste.

    I would love to bring my children to play at Cora’s. Can’t wait to see pics of Baby Mac toddling around there.ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 8:50 pm

    Kristin Stegent - Wow, amazing. I love, love, love it also! Perfect.ReplyCancel

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    Sheila - Beautiful!!!!ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 9:01 pm

    Emily - Wow! The playground was great before but the colorful flooring made it absolutely amazing! I know you must be so pleased with the way it is turning out.

    I know you don’t know me but your story has touched my life in ways you will never know. I am praying for you and this new life inside you. Thanks for sharing your life with us!ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 9:06 pm

    Sherri - That is one awesome playground!!! Still praying you both!!ReplyCancel

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    Beckypdj - It’s beautiful.ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 9:15 pm

    Micah - Awe-some! That looks so cool! I can’t believe what a difference the flooing made! I mean, it looked great before, but now it really pops!ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 9:23 pm

    Hayes Family - Wow! This looks amazing! Keeping your family in our prayers in Kansas City. The Hayes FamilyReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 9:46 pm

    Livesays - It looks beautiful! What a fun place for kids to play! Very cool to think about Baby Mac some day playing on the playground which honors his/her big sister!ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 10:04 pm

    Anonymous - I LOVE the colorful flooring. I take my kids to various parks around our city and haven’t seen anything like it. A special playground to commemorate a special little one.

    Your story inspires me daily to look at the important things in life….God, faith, family, friends. The petty things just don’t seem to matter. Thank you for reminding us of this fact, and most importantly for drawing people to God through your story. God is using your pain to bring glory to Him. You are being a faithful servant. Well done.ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 10:16 pm

    Vera - LOVE IT!!!ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 10:28 pm

    Marylou in Abilene, Texas - What a beautiful tribute to your precious baby girl! I have followed your blog for some time and have prayed often for you. I am a 76 year old great grandmother who counts it a privilege to pray for families like you who have special needs. May God give you a special blessing today and in the days ahead as you await the birth of a new baby. Our next great grand arrives January 29th, to our granddaughter, Kristin and Clay who live in Kansas City. Just wanted you to know I am praying for you two.ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 10:59 pm

    cheryl - Makes me wanna be a kid again! What a blessing this is going to be for many, MANY children at your church! Cora’s memory lives on!

    We have dear friend who lost their son in a tragic accident over 20 years ago. They had a playground built at our church in his memory..and it’s still there, with his name on the fence…ministering to 1000’s of children! Be encouraged!ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 11:47 pm

    Lexie Loo & Dylan Too - It looks absolutely amazing!ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 11:57 pm

    Katherine - How beautiful!!!! What a wonderful way to honor sweet Cora. God blessed yall when he made Cora for you, and now He has blessed you by providing this great tribute. God bless you and your family.ReplyCancel

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  • August 20, 2009 - 12:17 am

    Monica - Wow, it’s amazing!ReplyCancel

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  • August 20, 2009 - 12:34 am

    Amber - It looks so great! I’m with you, the colorful flooring designs are fabulous. It adds so much cheerful character. The playground is coming together so wonderfully!ReplyCancel

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  • August 20, 2009 - 12:35 am

    i love plum - looks amazing!!!ReplyCancel

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    Candice - I love it!ReplyCancel

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  • August 20, 2009 - 4:47 am

    Sue - This looks fantastic!! Well done, you must be so chuffed… Can’t wait to see it filled with kids!

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  • August 20, 2009 - 5:46 am

    susana - It looks awesome!!
    I know kids would LOVE to play on that playground..what a beautiful reflection of your sweet daughters life when they are playing in ground…
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  • August 20, 2009 - 7:02 am

    Team Alix - It looks great! I love the bright colors and happy playground structures- a wonderful, happy vivid memorial to your beautiful daughter.ReplyCancel

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  • August 20, 2009 - 7:24 am

    JJ - Looks amazing! When baby Mac is older you will be able to take him/her there and tell them all about their amazing big sister. I am still praying for you guys every day.ReplyCancel

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  • August 20, 2009 - 7:29 am

    Scott, Joanna, Matthew - What an awesome and colorful playground!ReplyCancel

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  • August 20, 2009 - 7:42 am

    Kristen - What an awesome looking playground! :-)ReplyCancel

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  • August 20, 2009 - 7:44 am

    Tiffany Lockette - What an amazing contribution to in honor of a precious little girl. Brings tears to my eyes. I hope you find some peace with it completed. They did a fantastic job. Continuing to pray for your strength.ReplyCancel

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  • August 20, 2009 - 7:57 am

    Robin in Benton - I love it – it looks terrific! What a wonderful memorial to Cora!ReplyCancel

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  • August 20, 2009 - 8:03 am

    Anonymous - It really a beautiful legacy. ALl the best to you as you continue your journey.
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  • August 20, 2009 - 8:23 am

    annaelyse - wow jess! it’s BEAUTIFUL!!!!ReplyCancel

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  • August 20, 2009 - 8:32 am

    Erica - How wonderful. What a great legacy.ReplyCancel

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  • August 20, 2009 - 8:46 am

    Lauren Kelly - Oh my word, looks sooooo great!!! :)ReplyCancel

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  • August 20, 2009 - 8:49 am

    Karina - The playground looks amazing!!! That floor really pulls it all together. What a beautiful tribute to Cora.ReplyCancel

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  • August 20, 2009 - 8:55 am

    Anonymous - Hi there! A silent reader here in Denver, but I pray for you just about everyday! I love the playground, it’s awesome! And so colorful! I really love that Cora will be remembered and that she will live on in the hearts of others! Even in life she is a beautiful angel!

    Congratulations on the upcoming addition to the family! How wonderful the Lord is-he never fails!ReplyCancel

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  • August 20, 2009 - 9:14 am

    Anonymous - It looks AWESOME!ReplyCancel

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  • August 20, 2009 - 9:27 am

    Claudia - Makes me want to be a kid again … looks like you are in a children’s book when you are playing in it.

    What a wonderful way to honor the life of your precious one!

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  • August 20, 2009 - 9:27 am

    mommyof2 - What an amazing place for children to play AND learn who God our Lord and Savior is! Such a blessing to those tiny souls. Great work !ReplyCancel

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  • August 20, 2009 - 10:00 am

    Zingo Tots - How awesome to see this amazing project near completion! Love it! I know it will bring smiles to soooo many faces for years to come! Also love the new look of your blog! Beautiful!ReplyCancel

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  • August 20, 2009 - 10:05 am

    Toni :O) - What an AWESOME playground! How wonderful to see it all pulling together. I know you both must be so proud. You live in such a terrific community for everyone to work together on such a meaningful project. I love all the bright colors and how inviting it looks. So nice to know that I helped contribute to that…makes me just beam and I know sweet Cora will be smiling down upon all those children playing there. Sending hugs to you both (and Baby Mac)from Michigan!ReplyCancel

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  • August 20, 2009 - 10:38 am

    Chris Johnson - Awesome! This is just beautiful. Imagine all the little ones that are going to have memories of Cora.ReplyCancel

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  • August 20, 2009 - 10:51 am

    Shelley - http://www.facebook.com/pages/Prayer-Group/90435222450

    I started a prayer group a little while ago on Facebook, and I just wanted to let you know that I have mentioned your blog, and that we are all keeping you in our prayers. God Bless!ReplyCancel

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  • August 20, 2009 - 10:53 am

    sarahross - I couldn’t help but smile seeing it. It’s beautiful.ReplyCancel

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  • August 20, 2009 - 11:19 am

    Kelly - Cora’s Playground is beautiful, I love the flooring how it ties into the play equipment, such fun vibrant colors!
    Keeping you in my prayers today!ReplyCancel

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  • August 20, 2009 - 11:26 am

    MyLinda - That is a beautiful tribute to sweet Cora! And just think, it won’t be long before Cora can watch her brother/sister playing in her playground!ReplyCancel

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  • August 20, 2009 - 11:27 am

    onlymehere - I absolutely love your new header. They melt my heart. The colors are awesome in this playground and absolutely every kids dream come true! It’s fantastic. CindyReplyCancel

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  • August 20, 2009 - 11:59 am

    JenniferNe - That is the coolest playground I have ever seen! Great job! I am so glad that I was able to buy a dress to help with that playground! God Bless!ReplyCancel

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  • August 20, 2009 - 12:46 pm

    Christine - Absolutely stunning!!! What an incredible difference that makes! I expected to see the solid dark flooring, but this is completely fabulous!! I just love it :)ReplyCancel

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  • August 20, 2009 - 1:00 pm

    Audrey - Amazing! I would love to take my own daughter to play on that equipment. She would go crazy!ReplyCancel

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  • August 20, 2009 - 1:01 pm

    A - WOW- it looks phenominal!!!ReplyCancel

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  • August 20, 2009 - 1:02 pm

    Dragonfly fine designs - That is amazing! Those kids are really going to enjoy it!ReplyCancel

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  • August 20, 2009 - 1:30 pm

    Erin - Love it!ReplyCancel

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  • August 20, 2009 - 2:25 pm

    Michelle - Cora’s Playground looks like a wonderful place for children to come and play. You should be so proud of your accomplishment. You have honoured your sweet girl in the most amazing way!ReplyCancel

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  • August 20, 2009 - 2:51 pm

    Ashley Ann - So fun…we want to come play! It is just perfect…love the new blog design too!ReplyCancel

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  • August 20, 2009 - 6:04 pm

    Cristy - Yea! So beautiful. What an awesome way to honor little angel Cora. We can’t wait to play on it soon!ReplyCancel

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  • August 20, 2009 - 7:00 pm

    Jenifer - Its Looks AmazingReplyCancel

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  • August 20, 2009 - 7:02 pm

    The Shepherd Family - The park looks AMAZING!!
    Praise God!ReplyCancel

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  • August 20, 2009 - 8:26 pm

    Judy - Wow, it’s amazing! I love it! It’s going to be a place of joy for so many children! I’m sure you’ll be hanging out there this time next year with Baby Mac!ReplyCancel

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  • August 20, 2009 - 10:12 pm

    amyflew - Wow that is sooooo awesome, I didn’t even know you could do outdoor playgrounds with color on the flooring like that!!ReplyCancel

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  • August 20, 2009 - 11:08 pm

    Becky - Oh my gosh, how much fun is that playground!ReplyCancel

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  • August 21, 2009 - 12:52 am

    Anonymous - What template did you use? I absolutely love the family photos..Please blog about the new template so I can know!

    Pray for you each night..

    A friend from Ohio :)ReplyCancel

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  • August 21, 2009 - 12:54 am

    Renee - Wow, what an awesome playground!!!
    What an awesome memorial for her. Praying for you!beautiful reflection of her radiant, happy life!!thanks for sharing..
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  • August 21, 2009 - 6:53 am

    Marsha - Looks amazing! I love the pictures at the top of your blog too! What a sweet sweet little girl.

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  • August 21, 2009 - 8:07 am

    Baylee and Blair's page - Simply awesome!!!

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  • August 21, 2009 - 12:50 pm

    jess - that is the most beautiful playground I’ve ever seen! what a wonderful memorial for Cora.ReplyCancel

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  • August 21, 2009 - 7:01 pm

    Ethansmom08 - WOW! I love it! :)ReplyCancel

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    texasinafrica - It looks so great! What fun!ReplyCancel

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    Jennifer - It looks wonderful! What a fun playground!ReplyCancel

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  • August 21, 2009 - 9:25 pm

    vanettens - It is beautiful! It might just be the cutes playground I’ve ever seen:)ReplyCancel

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  • August 21, 2009 - 9:39 pm

    Anonymous - Praising God with you! The colors and playground look awesome!ReplyCancel

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  • August 21, 2009 - 10:37 pm

    Christina - It’s amazing!!! That makes all the difference, doesn’t it, having that flooring down? Wow. Thanks for sharing the progress!ReplyCancel

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  • August 21, 2009 - 10:49 pm

    Andrea - WOW! SO amazing and so wonderful!

    What a perfect little playground. It has become something that looks so fun.

    Congratulations!ReplyCancel

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  • August 21, 2009 - 10:51 pm

    TRICIA @boutellefamilyzoo - Looks so fantastic!
    I ADORE the new blog layout. Your header brought tears to my eyes.

    Everything about it evokes the pure joy that is your beautiful family.

    With love and prayers for all of you,

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  • August 22, 2009 - 9:01 am

    Anonymous - The playground looks awesome! What a monument to Cora!
    I also wanted to tell you I love your new blog layout. I love the pics of you all and Cora on the header. It is nice to see her there. I have been thinking of Cora (and you all) so much lately, as our daughter is exactly the age Cora was when she was diagnosed. Just know that you are in my thoughts and prayers as you navigate this new road-looking forward to new life and grieving life lost. Cora has helped me treasure the little moments a little better.
    Blessings-
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  • August 22, 2009 - 2:42 pm

    Suzy Q - Beautiful, just beautiful!ReplyCancel

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  • August 22, 2009 - 9:53 pm

    Amy - IT’s awesome! So cool!ReplyCancel

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  • August 22, 2009 - 10:18 pm

    Whimsical Creations - Just fantastic!! It looks fabulous!!ReplyCancel

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  • August 23, 2009 - 8:26 am

    The Mershawn's - Wow, wow, wow! I want to come play:). Great job!ReplyCancel

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    writing4612 - That looks so awesome!ReplyCancel

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  • August 23, 2009 - 11:40 am

    Amanda - Darling!!!! What a happy place, darling too is your new header…Cora was/is just a precious, precious baby, again, so deeply sorry for your loss…excited for your new little life too! Best wishes and congrats on all your hardwork on the playground.ReplyCancel

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  • August 23, 2009 - 8:57 pm

    number17cherrytreelane - It is bright and colorful–a true tribute to both of you and your amazing daughter….ReplyCancel

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  • August 25, 2009 - 5:27 am

    Anonymous - wow! it looks amazing!!
    nice to see that it all turned out you wanted it to….

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  • August 25, 2009 - 7:28 pm

    Miss G - It’s amazing! love it!! KellyReplyCancel

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  • August 27, 2009 - 9:53 pm

    Heather - I want to come play on this!! What a great memorial to a amazing little girl!! I LOVE IT!!

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  • September 1, 2009 - 12:30 pm

    Emilie - Oh the playground looks AMAZING!!! You both must be so happy!ReplyCancel

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    KellyH - What a beautiful park!!ReplyCancel

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  • September 28, 2009 - 1:11 pm

    michele - okay, that is seriously one of the cutest playgrounds i have ever seen. oh my, how sweet.ReplyCancel

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Today has been an emotional roller coaster. 

But I think it is a perfect picture of how our lives feel right now.
Constantly going back and forth from joy to sadness… 
and trying to function amidst it all.
The day started off with our sonogram. That’s right! I am half-way through this pregnancy and we are getting closer to meeting this sweet little baby that will be joining our family. We can’t wait!
My doctor sent us to a specialist for the sonogram. As far as we know neuroblastoma is not hereditary. They are not treating this as a high-risk pregnancy. But, after everything we went through with Cora my doctor wanted to do everything possible to give us peace of mind right now.
The doctor’s office we went to today was right across the street from the hospital where we spent 17 days with our sweet Cora. It was so hard to even see that hospital building again. We were thankful the sonogram wasn’t actually in the hospital. I don’t think we could have handled walking through those doors again.
Today we are thankful for good news. We were so thankful to find out that Baby Mac is healthy. Everything looked great! What a relief. But then it was back to reality as we had to answer tons of medical history questions and explain to the specialist Cora’s brief battle with cancer.
The doctor was so kind as we struggled through all the answers. The tears were coming. After talking with the specialist we feel pretty confident that there isn’t too much to worry about. I will have two more sonograms throughout this pregnancy with the specialist. Again, just to take every precaution and for our own peace of mind. We are thankful for proactive doctors who are trying to make this as easy as possible on us.
And in case you are wondering–which I’m sure none of you are…
We are not finding out if Baby Mac is a boy or girl. 
It will be a surprise to us all. 
Cora was a surprise too and we loved it that way.
Well, if that wasn’t enough to handle in one day, there was more. 
Joel and I still have not purchased a gravestone for Cora. I don’t even know if gravestone is the “correct” word. I just know that I hate even saying gravestone or anything like it. 
We should have done this a long time ago. But it has been too hard. It is just one more thing we have to do to make Cora’s being gone all the more real. But today since Joel was already gone from work–which is hard when you are a farmer–we decided we needed to just go and do it.
It was just as horrible as I expected. I wasn’t sure if I could even walk into the place without falling apart. But, I made it through without even a tear (I fell apart when I got home instead). I don’t think I could cry because I was just so mad that we were even there.
I was mad that the salesman was showing us clipart pictures to put on the stone to represent our daughter’s precious life. How can we choose a clipart picture to represent how much Cora’s life meant? I was mad that we were trying to decided how to write Cora’s name on a gravestone instead of writing her name on nursery name tags, birthday invitations, and play group lists like my friends are doing with their kids. And I was mad that my daughter’s name was going to be in a cemetery–even though technically it is already there. It just seems so wrong. So final.
We were there a little over an hour and that was all we could handle. We probably will have to go back to make the final decision, but at least we made the first step.
Maybe it was a mistake to do all that in one day. But really, our days are filled with those extremes of emotions quite often. It is just our reality right now. And although we often don’t know how to deal with these emotions all at once, the Lord knows every little thing that we are feeling. And He cares about us more than I can even comprehend.
I am so thankful that Cora’s life does have meaning. I am thankful that we can look beyond her gravestone and see the hope of eternity. And although walking this road really stinks, I am thankful for this new eternal perspective the Lord is giving to me.
Now we live with a wonderful expectation because Jesus Christ rose again from the dead. For God has reserved a priceless inheritance for His children. It is kept in heaven for you, pure and undefiled, beyond the reach of change and decay.
1 Peter 1:3-4
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  • August 17, 2009 - 11:34 pm

    dg darling - LOVE, LOVE, LOVE the new layout! She really is such a doll. Whether here or in heaven she is such a beautiful baby! Trust that you are still prayed for as well as your new little one. May you be blessed with health and peace…ReplyCancel

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  • August 17, 2009 - 11:46 pm

    wicker0407 - I love the new look of the blog Cora was such a beautiful little girl and she remains a part of all of the lives she touched. I hold a special place in my heart for her. Even though I do not know you I always keep you all in my prayers and I hope in time your grief may get a little easier. God knew what he was doing when he sent this new baby I am sure litle Cora is looking down from heaven so happy and proud of her parents. God Bless Summer & family in CaliforniaReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 12:10 am

    Trisha Larson - We haven’t purchased a marker for Nate yet either. I just haven’t been able to bring myself to do it. I read about so many other moms that get them right away. I felt like the only one that didn’t. It’s been 16 months. We need to go and order one. I just know that it will send me over the edge and I never want to go there.

    So glad to hear the good news about the healthy baby. Nate (also born 3/5/08) was a surprise too. We’re STILL trying to get pregnant again. I hope that someday I can be in your shoes.

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  • August 18, 2009 - 12:12 am

    Mum2twopreciousgifts - The new pictures are beautiful. Truly gorgeous. I smiled looking at them. Prayers for you from Australia.ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 12:20 am

    Shelley - You are amazing to me. Your are always in my thoughts and prayers, and I pray total peace over you guys.ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 12:39 am

    Lexie Loo & Dylan Too - I’m sorry you had a rough day. You have every right to be upset and angry. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
    I’m glad to hear that the baby is doing well! How exciting that you’re waiting to find out the sex! We waited with both of our kids. Not many people do!ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 12:46 am

    Christina - What a long and hard day-the truth is I can’t imagine it, and I hesitate to say how heavy-hearted it makes me to see and hear all that you have to go through because I just don’t know those feelings first hand.
    But, praise God for a healthy baby! A life, this miracle that you get to participate in…may it be a blessing to you as the days pass. I pray that God will not just walk beside you but will carry you.ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 12:58 am

    Anonymous - Love your new layout!

    And those photos of Cora are perfect! Praying for you guys. Always.ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 3:13 am

    Candice - I’m so glad to hear baby Mac #2 is healthy. Hang in there girl. We can’t imagine how hard this must all be for you, just know we’re praying for you!

    LOVE the new blog layout.ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 5:59 am

    Anonymous - Praying with you every day.ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 6:48 am

    Amber - Hello. I love the new blog layout. And I just love your sweet spirit. My heart hurts for you and is excited for you all at the same time. I think it’s neat that you aren’t finding out the gender. I’m thinking about doing that next time myself. i love your family and remember you in my prayers.ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 7:15 am

    Kristen - I loved visiting the blog today and seeing those beautiful pictures of Cora – the new layout is fantastic! Praying for you, Joel, Cora and Baby Mac!ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 7:20 am

    Anonymous - I just wanted to let you know I found your blog through Kelly’s Korner a while ago and I have been regularly praying for you & your family. I am so sorry for you & I will continue to pray that God will bring comfort & JOY to your family.ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 7:39 am

    Joyce - I’ve never commented here but I wanted you to know that I keep you in my prayers.

    So glad your new baby is growing well.ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 7:41 am

    PamperingBeki - My goodness, what a day. :( Reading this made me cry and wish I could hug you.

    I just keep reminding myself that God is good. All the time.ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 7:41 am

    Heather's Home (aka Chez Hez) - Love the new blog look, Jess! That Cora is a cutie pie! And boy oh boy what a day! To go from such joy to such profound grief all in one day is so very hard and is such part of the human condition. The pain in your heart of Cora’s lists….*sigh*. I can only imagine the parties she is having in Heaven that someday you will get to hear all about. And the fact that Baby Mac has a wonderful big angel sister looking our for him or her….what a blessing. Our thoughts and prayers are always with you and Joel and the little bambino you will welcome into your home. Take care!ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 7:48 am

    Angela - I love your new blog layout! Cora looks just so precious up there.

    I love it that you are not finding out what you’re having. We didn’t find out with either of our boys, and we’re not finding out with this baby either!

    Still praying for you; I can’t imagine what you’ve been going through.ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 7:48 am

    Anne - Thank you again for sharing this journey with all of us. I know you don’t have to do that. I appreciate your honesty SO much!
    What a bittersweet day. Joy and tears for you this morning.ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 8:00 am

    Beckypdj - I really like the new layout of the blog.

    Before Peyton went to Heaven, I didn’t give headstones much thought. Then I had to pick his out. Sitting there looking at the computer screen trying to find something that would “represent” his life, I realized this would be the last thing I would buy for him. I hated it and I hated it even more seeing it at the cemetary.

    Cora’s pictures are so precious and I know you miss her so much. Having a child in Heaven does make us so eternally minded. Congratulations on your new blessing. Hugs to you and your family.ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 8:08 am

    Robin in Benton - I love the new layout and the pictures. And I am so happy to hear that Baby Mac is doing well! We will all be excited to see what Baby is when born! At the same time my heart hurts for what you went through yesterday. I can’t even imagine how hard each of these steps are. Cora, you and Baby Mac are in my thoughts and prayers daily.ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 8:15 am

    Heather - So happy to hear that baby Mac is doind well. What a bittersweet day, *hugs* I can’t even begin to imagine the pain you go through daily living life without your sweet Cora. I think of you so many times throughout my day. I have my “Thank You” for Cora’s Playground propped up on my desk here at home and I see your smiling faces every day and am reminded of how precious life is and how amazing and strong you are. My prayers are always with you.
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  • August 18, 2009 - 8:15 am

    Marla Taviano - I LOVE how the pictures keep changing on your header! What an awesome way to remind us how sweet and beautiful Cora is!!

    I’m so sorry about your day. I hate that you can’t write her name on nametags. Aching for you!!ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 8:15 am

    Heather - Oh and forgot to say that I absolutely LOVE the new layout!
    Heather ;-)ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 8:22 am

    Micah - I’m so thankful to God for the good news, and so sorry for the sad way your day had to end. Don’t be overwhelmed by what you will have to do in the future. Just remember that God gives us just what we need to get through one day. I hope today is a good day.

    (I am totally loving the new look!)ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 8:24 am

    Anonymous - Love the new look! Love your blog, it’s real and honest…I have a Cora Mae who is 5, we pray for you often. (I also have Grace-7, and Olivia-2) My name is Tressa Elvehjem, we live in Minnesota, and found you early on…Consider yourself {{hugged}} from “friends” in MN. :)ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 8:30 am

    Karina - I always loved your blog, one of the reasons being it was so clearly laid out and easy to look at. I never thought it needed improvement, but WOW, it is even more beautiful now!

    I just love seeing pictures of Cora. She is such a beautiful baby.

    What wonderful news that baby Mac is doing well! I admire your patience in waiting to find out if it’s a girl or a boy. I never could stand to wait, and always found out about half way through the pregnancy (I have two boys and a girl).

    I am so sorry you had to go through yet more pain in dealing with the headstone. When I picture Cora, I always picture an angel and can only imagine an angel statue in her honour. IF you could only find one as cute as she is. HUGSReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 8:33 am

    A - I love the new look, too! I have been praying that your new baby Mac will be healthy and happy, and I was so glad to read that it’s true! I will continue praying :)

    My heart goes out to you with regard to picking out a marker for where Cora’s earthly body lays. I can’t even imagine the task. I know that she is beautiful and healthy and whole in Heaven, and I’m sure she is looking upon you with love and comfort these days.

    I know I haven’t commented much, but I left you an award on my blog. Your posts really uplift me, even though we struggle with different crosses. You are such a beautiful daughter of the King!ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 8:38 am

    Kristin Stegent - Made me cry! I cannot imagine having to go near the hospital and definitely can’t imagine what it would be like to have to pick a gravestone! Seems aweful!

    I absolutely love your new blog header!

    Can’t wait to see what gender you have! I am due in a couple months with a girl. :)ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 8:40 am

    Stephanie Lane - Great new layout! Thanks for the continued updates–you all are often in my thoughts and prayers!

    I know one of the prayers often on my heart for you and Joel is that as you prepare to welcome this new baby, that the healing of the Spirit would continue to the point that never once do you see Baby Mac #2 as a replacement or second version of Cora. I can’t even imagine being in your shoes, and I’m so excited for you to be welcoming another little one!

    Thank you for continuing to shine the light of the Lord and to proclaim his providence and hope through this road!
    Blessings!

    Here’s a great song by Ginny Owens
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  • August 18, 2009 - 8:44 am

    Shannon - I know Cora is up in heaven right now telling everyone how excited she is about being a big sister! I’m so glad everything went well at the ultrasound.

    And I love the new layout. Such a sweet, precious tribute to your sweet, precious girl.

    Continuing to pray for you all, ShannonReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 8:46 am

    Alicia H - I love the new layout of your blog!! its simply beautiful.. I continue to pray for your little family.ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 9:07 am

    michelle - I love all the pictures of Cora!!! She is too cute!! I will continue to pray for you and Joel, and baby Mac.ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 9:08 am

    Lacie and Stephen - *sigh* I remember picking the gravestone out for our daughter. I have to say it was different for us, but that was probably because our daughter never lived outside of my womb. It felt GREAT to tell people who she was and that she had an impact on the world even if she never took a breath of air on this earth. Don’t you just love it when doctor’s are proactive just to make you feel better? Mine was that way in my second pregnancy and has said he will make sure we see the specialist for any subsequent pregnancy as well! I don’t remember how many sonograms I had just to ease my mind! I came in countless times as a nervous wreck! Congrats on being halfway through! Woo Hoo! Cora’s life HAS left an impact not only on you and your family but on your countless blog followers as well!ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 9:09 am

    michelle - I didn’t realize the pictures changed…even better!!! =)ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 9:11 am

    Joanne (The Simple Wife) - Sending love,

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  • August 18, 2009 - 9:14 am

    Teresa - I love you guys, love the new blog design, love baby Cora. I cry as I type this to you.ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 9:18 am

    Chelsa - i understand what you mean! i think sometimes people think just b/c i’m pregnant again that i’ve forgotten about Andon, or at least that the pain isn’t there anymore… that is soooo far from the truth.ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 9:18 am

    Amanda - Thank you for sharing your feelings. Your honesty about Cora’s death has probably helped more people than you can imagine. I love the new layout by the way.ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 9:20 am

    Tabitha - Pretty much not a day goes by that you and sweet Cora don’t cross my mind. Continuing to pray for comfort for you and Joel. Also praying for a smooth pregnancy and healthy baby. Love the new blog look! Thank you for being so open, honest and humble. God has used you in my life.ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 9:26 am

    sarah m - My heart ACHES for you…I’m so so sorry you have to go through these things. Cling to Him, just as you have been.

    P.S. Love the new layout! Absolutely beautiful. :)ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 9:26 am

    Erica - first of all, your new layout is adorable. the page looks great. second, i’m so happy everything is looking great for your new little one (and yes, i actually was wondering if you were finding out what you’re having lol). i know that brings peace of mind to you! and third, i cannot even begin to imagine how hard your second part of your day was. you are both so strong & brave. i pray peace with both of you!ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 9:29 am

    Audrey - Love your new layout.

    Praying for you, never ceasing. God holds every tear in His hand.ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 9:31 am

    The Morris Family - the blog looks so nice and peaceful! cora is so sweet and her parents are clinging to their HOPE, Jesus.

    Its been 2 1/2 years for our little joel (NB) and we still do not have a marker yet, your right, as in all you said, I feel the same.

    i think of your hearts often, we have much in common, sad to say, but the greatest thing we have in common is Jesus……who is our Help in this trial!

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  • August 18, 2009 - 9:34 am

    Lauren Kelly - I can’t even imagine the emotions you are feeling but so thankful there’s a God that can help you through them and process them all!!!ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 9:49 am

    Scott, Joanna, Matthew - May God always give both of you the comfort and peace during your difficult days. May He also give you joy and happiness as you continue on your journey to meet Baby Mac #2.

    Love the new blog look! Thank you for being an inspiration!ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 9:54 am

    Ethansmom08 - I am so glad to hear that Baby Mac is doing great…I am praying for a healthy, happy baby!

    LOVE the new blog layout…it is so precious and Cora is SO beautiful in all of her pictures.

    God Bless,
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  • August 18, 2009 - 10:00 am

    kimberlysayre - Like so many previous posters, I LOVE the new layout. All three of those pictures of Cora are absolutely adorable! I’m glad to hear (read) that the baby is healthy. My heart rejoices and weeps with you. You and Joel are still constantly on my mind and in my prayers. Your precious little daughter and your hope and love for, and in the Lord has forever changed my life. (((hugs))) to you and your family.ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 10:15 am

    Anonymous - Oh my..I have to learn not to read your blog at work…tears streaming down my face…wish I could say something to help but I feel the same as you and I have never stood in your shoes..Your beautiful Cora’s short life impacted some many and continues to do so..what brought me to your blog many many months ago and still does..You continue to amaze me. Your faith, your words..straight to my heart. I am so sorry for your hurting heart..
    Love the news that baby Mac is doing great..you ask, ask, ask all the questions you need to Momma.

    You are in my thoughts and prayers EVERYDAY.

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  • August 18, 2009 - 10:22 am

    LeAnne - I love your new layout for your blog! I check in with your blog often and have prayed for you and your family a lot. I appreciate your honest writing. I hope you don’t mind if continue to “pop in” on your blog now and then to check in. I am happy for great news on Baby Mac!ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 10:39 am

    mariaalexandria - Thank you for sharing your journey, especially your raw emotions. You remain in my prayers. I am so excited for your new baby and saddened that Cora isn’t here.ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 11:20 am

    Missy - I wish I could give you a hug right now! A lot to process in one day. I do believe your heart is in the right place. You are allowing God to mold you through this painful process.

    Love,
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  • August 18, 2009 - 11:32 am

    Jenni - I have never posted on your blog, just secretly followed your story- I’m not sure how I fell into your blog but ever since the day I did – I have been praying for you and your family. I can not imagine being in your shoes – but the strength you have to put one foot in front of the other is amazing. I love the new layout and Cora’s Pictures. Absolutly BEAUTIFUL! Congrats on Baby Mac- and here’s to a happy and healthy rest of your pregnancy.ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 11:42 am

    Trasie Bressler - First of all I love love love the new blog look!!!

    I can’t imagine your pain, I can’t imagine your loss, but I do know that I am a better Mom because of you and your life story. You keep looking beyond that grave because my friend that baby is dancing in Heaven and she has touched more lives than you and I can ever imagine!

    That baby Mac is blessed to have such amazing parents and blessed beyond measure to have the big sister that he/she has.

    You are amazing people and I am blessed every time I read your blog and am reminded that God knows all of our pain, all of our struggles, and he will never leave or forsake us. We are Blessed!!!!ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 12:05 pm

    Todd and Courtney - I love the new layout ya’ll!! Not sure if you read Katie and Jason’s blog but they just lost their little girl, Reese. You all would probably enjoy talking to one another. Thinking and praying for you every single day.
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  • August 18, 2009 - 12:24 pm

    Sarah - I absolutely LOVE your new layout!! Even though I never had the chance to meet sweet Cora, seeing her face on here just made me smile! She’s such a beautiful baby! I’m glad everything went well with your ultrasound. I think it’s great that baby Mac will be a surprise! Both of my babies were surprises too…although I had my motherly instincts and new what they were! ;) I’m sorry it was such a rough day for you. To go from extreme happiness to extreme sadness in one day can’t be easy. I continue to pray for you and Joel everyday. I can’t even begin to imagine what you’re going through. No parent should ever have to buy a headstone for their child. But I pray that someday your pain will ease a bit more.

    Keep us posted with the pregnancy! Oh…and where are your belly pictures??!

    Praying in Nebraska
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  • August 18, 2009 - 12:38 pm

    Brittany - Praying for your ups and downs…..and peace in between.

    p.s. love your new page!!ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 12:52 pm

    Jessica - BELLY PICTURES! I love the new look of the Blog Cora is SOOO beautiful! I can’t wait to meet the new baby mac…who will no doubt be just as beautiful (or handsome). God Bless you guys…ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 1:35 pm

    Sarah - LOVE the new layout. You are always in my prayers.ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 1:42 pm

    Jane In The Jungle - Girl, Cora’s life has meaning here and Above! That for me, would have been maddening also, the “what should be happenings”, not what is happening. I do not know if this will help but it makes so much sense for me. I have a friend Kori, whose husband only has a few weeks left to live here. Back in May he said these words to her, “this life here is temporary. I can’t even begin to fathom what it’s going to be like in Heaven and to see our Maker’s face. How wonderful it will be”. Temporary. And just think, Jesus gets to see Cora’s smiling face always…how wonderful for Him.
    Prayers.ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 2:05 pm

    Anonymous - I would have had an ultrasound right around now, too, but I miscarried the baby that was due about the same time as your new little one. As I often think of my baby in heaven with your Cora, I’ll be praying that your new little one is healthy and has a long and healthy life here with you on earth until we can all be together in heaven some day.
    God bless you and your amazing testimony for Jesus Christ.ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 2:08 pm

    Marlene W. - I just want to let you know I haven’t stopped praying for you! I continually feel so heartbroken for these experiences that happen with the constant reminders of Cora. Just know that you are being thought of and upheld in prayer! You guys are so special!ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 2:11 pm

    Abner & Jennie - Saw this new Selah song ‘Unredeemed’ on Kelly’s Korner and made me think of you. Still praying for you guys. Enjoy this song, it’s beautiful.
    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GfGbcjCVDOs

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  • August 18, 2009 - 2:28 pm

    Five. - I know that I have no idea what you are going through because each experience is so personal and different, but I just wanted you to know that you aren’t alone. I also live in the same “world” you live in where grief and joy hold hands and play together on the playground.

    My son Samuel died at 6 weeks old from a devastating form of bacterial meningitis. We went on to have our third child earlier this year. I can relate so closely to what you have described in this post.

    Your faith is amazing and is such a gift to have with you for all the days ahead.

    If you ever wanted to chat I’m just a blog away….
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  • August 18, 2009 - 2:46 pm

    Jenifer - Love The New Layout ….Cora is so pretty my preys our with you and your family to make this a little eaiser …Hoping and preying for peace for you and your hubbyReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 3:08 pm

    Townsend Crew - Man… how can your brains comprehend all of that emotion in one day? I am amazed at your strength once again! Thank you for continuing on this journey with all of us. Our prayers continue for you and Joel and BabyMac.
    I was just thinking, maybe you can quickly follow-up the decisions you made for Cora’s marker with a beautiful plaque to go on Cora’s playground… You know, her playground will be a place of joy and laughter for so many because of Cora… Maybe soon you’ll be able to pour positive words, and Cora’s name, and picture on the entry to this fun and meaningful playground. Maybe that will represent a happier site for her name and picture.
    Your faith encourages me to continue on my faith journey. Thank you.ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 3:58 pm

    Courtney - I love the new look! I am so sorry that you had to do all of this today. I completely feel your pain. It is a hard step to make but you will be happy when whatever you decide is there and a tribute to Cora. Keep leaning on the Lord and know that Cora is always a HUGE part of your family.
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  • August 18, 2009 - 4:02 pm

    mom2wendy - You can make your own design for you baby’s resting place. I decided that I wanted a picture of Jesus holding a lamb as I felt Mark was a precious lamb to Jesus. They did it without any problem. We chose a granite marker which is the kind that could be made with a custom engraving.

    Dear Jess, you are on a roller coaster of many feelings and emotions. I hold firm to the promise that someday, each in our own time, this ends and life settles. Please Jess, acknowledge this is a slow process. This is the territory of child loss. You are just fine. You are OK. You are where you should be right now. You will be so happy at the birth of little MAC, but you will still miss Cora. Everything that is worth doing well, takes time. You mothered Cora well, accepting and adjusting to her loss will take time and maybe…lots of it. God bless you, sweet little Mama. No one want to see you suffer, but during the grief process, this is what happens. You are suffering the loss of your Cora. Sweet Jess, this is normal. You are normal. (hugs))ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 4:21 pm

    Squirpy Momma - I love the new look too!!! That WAS quite the ride for one day! Prayers for you guys. I thought I’d try and post a link to my blog post with a pic of our baby’s grave marker. You are not alone and the Lord will carry you through every ounce of your grief, he’s promised and he never fails!

    http://squirpysassers.blogspot.com/2009/07/i-want-to-just-give-little-warning-here.html

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  • August 18, 2009 - 4:34 pm

    mommaof4wife2r - a few things…first, i’m so glad you all had the joy of seeing new baby mac together…and that you were received by loving and faithful doctors. second, i’m in awe of you guys…i am mad that you had to get a gravestone…i hate that.ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 4:43 pm

    Anonymous - I never comment but I read your blog daily, since I discovered it about two months ago. Many of my friends and I keep you all in our prayers and really love you so much. You are so precious and BRAVE! Oh mygosh. Anyways…I really just wanted to say, WOW I totally LOVE your new design! It’s great! I was shocked when I opened your page! Beautiful! Great job…praying for the Macs.ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 5:25 pm

    Andrea - So glad to hear about the good news on baby #2 and the care God is surrounding you with.

    I so want to provide some word of encouragement on this equally tough day, but everything seems so inadequate. The only thing that God brings to mind is about the memorial stones He had the Israelites put up when they crossed over the river (the name escapes me right now) just before the battle of Jericho. Maybe check out that passage in Scripture and see if God brings you an encouraging word through those passages?

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  • August 18, 2009 - 5:30 pm

    Whimsical Creations - What a day is right! I am sorry you have to go through this. hugs!

    BTW- I LOVE the new layout!!ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 6:04 pm

    Marla - I am so sorry that you had such a rough day. I have been following your blog for sometime and have been praying for you and your family daily. I feel like I can relate to you and how you are feeling because I too have a little girl in heaven. I admire your strength and courage! I wish that I would have been able to carry myself in the same manner as you are now. Hugs from another Kansas mommy :)!ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 6:45 pm

    Anonymous - You’re always in my prayers- for comfort and healing for you and Joel, for a healthy, happy pregnancy and baby, for continued strength and love to support you.
    God bless you.ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 7:13 pm

    Falling Around - Oh, Jess…

    My love, heart, and prayers go out to you.

    The new design is wonderful. Cora is so beautiful.ReplyCancel

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    Paula Aspacher - God likes when you vent!!! Vent away and get mad, He can take it!ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 7:52 pm

    Misty Rice - I am sad that you too had to have such a rollercoaster day. Not fun. Its rips my heart every time. I am glad to hear that all is well with the new baby and I love the new looks of your blog also. Danielle ROCKS at blog makeovers, she had done all of mine.

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  • August 18, 2009 - 8:31 pm

    Rebecca - Oh, Jess. My heart just breaks for you and Joel. I am lifting you up in prayer, praying for you to have something to smile about at this exact moment on this day. Even if it is just a silly little commercial on TV that makes you laugh.
    I love the new layout. I find myself stopping by more often, just to see Cora’s sweet face at the top.
    Praying for you EVERYDAY!!
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  • August 18, 2009 - 8:59 pm

    Les Y - When we had to pick out our daughter’s headstone it just seemed so unnatural. It took us a year, but now her “grass” has a beautiful marker which is nicer to visit than the temporary plastic marker. I am so happy to that baby #2 got such a great report. The new layout is beyond gorgeous. Cora is such a beauty! Best wishes.ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 9:08 pm

    Lauren - Oh goodness. Yes, highs and lows. I know those “details” are so hard to take care of — nothing feels right since you were never prepared to be traveling this road. But the Lord will give you the perfect thought to make sense of this miserable “detail.”
    I remember the man helping us pick out the stone. He would point to Mickey Mouse or soccer balls and ask what we thought of it. Goodness. Those things have absolutely zero significance for me. It simply was all about Jesus. Nothing else mattered. Jesus would carry us through. And he is. Saying many prayers for you all!ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 9:22 pm

    Angie - It is such a rollercoaster ride isnt it?! And you are right, it is how your life is, dealing with our “new reality”. It is not enjoyable by anymeans. We have not picked out Emma’s gravestone either, it does seem so final. So I am not at that point yet.

    I am so happy to read that baby Mac #2 is healthy and all is looking well.

    I am so glad for our faith in God, that we will see our baby girls again in heaven someday soon.

    Praying for you tonight and in the days ahead.

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  • August 18, 2009 - 9:29 pm

    Cristy - (((Hugs)) today Jess, to you and Joel both. I am sorry.ReplyCancel

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    PamperingBeki - Praying for you tonight.ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 10:35 pm

    Trinity - My heart goes out to you on this. My family just buried my grandfather on 8/5. He was like a father to me.

    I am thankful that little Cora’s name is engraved in Heaven.
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  • August 18, 2009 - 10:54 pm

    Jamie - This may sound weird, and I’m sorry if it does . . . but I love your family. I have been following your blog since right after Cora became ill (one of my facebook friends asked for prayer for Cora on her profile). I am so happy for this new life coming to your family, but I also cry along with you every time I read something sad. I won’t pretend I know what you’re going through. No one could unless they went through it. Please just know that I wish strength and lots of hugs on both of you.ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 10:56 pm

    bagfashionista - I don’t know what else to say other than God bless you and your family, and little Cora who’s up in Heaven.

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  • August 19, 2009 - 6:00 am

    Holly - Definitley not easy picking out a headstone for your child. Children weren’t meant to have those. Thinking of you.ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 7:21 am

    Tina - I really LOVE your new layout! It is just awesome. I am so glad Baby Mac is doing well and I am so sorry that you had to make that step. I can’t imagine how difficult it was. I am glad you did it – but I wish you didn’t have to and I know you do, too.

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  • August 19, 2009 - 7:29 am

    Amy - I LOVE the new layout, Jess! Beautiful!

    And what a perfect verse you ended this post with… what a wonderful Promise from our Savior.

    And Cora Paige’s life DOES have meaning… great meaning that we probably cannot even comprehend right now. Her life has touched many, and your faith and example have brought many closer to Christ.

    I think about you, Joel, and Cora every single day. I lift you up in prayer all the time.ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 8:44 am

    Andrea - I’m so happy that everything looks great with BabyMac. I can’t imagine and won’t try to act like I know what you’re going through, but I still pray for you. I rejoice with the new life you’re carrying, yet pray for your strength and peace as you walk this hard road. ((hugs))ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 9:32 am

    heather - Thank you again for the reminder that our treasure is with the Lord, that this is not all there is, we have eternal promises waiting for fulfillment. Your daughter is beautiful.ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 9:42 am

    Michelle - Love the new view! So cute! We went to Canada two years ago and I think didn’t pretty much the same trip you just did minus seeing your relatives. It was nice to relive it again through your pictures – it is so beautiful up there. I wish my babies had been surprises – my husband desperately wanted to know so I agreed, hoping the kids would have their legs crossed. They both wanted to show the world their were little boys – typical huh? I’m sorry for all you’re going through. Everytime it seems I’m on a rollercoaster I think of a line from the movie parenthood where the grandma is explaining that to have ups you have to have downs to make it exciting or you can just ride the merry go round, but it’s boring and doesn’t do anything and you’re stuck going in circles.ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 11:34 am

    Miss Em - You have me crying again, LOL. Actually it is 3 yrs today since we lost our son and I seem to be on that rollercoaster ride today myself. I don’t share my feelings well with others and you seem to capture exactly what I feel a lot of the time. I was very angry this weekend for the same reasons, my son was not with us on vacation and I am not watching him tear into a birthday cake today but visiting his “tree”. He was buried under a tree and I can not call the site what it is…grave. It seems so, cold and sad. I attempted to express myself on my blog today but I know it was not done gracefully. Anyway, thank you for sharing with us. I am so happy that baby Mac is healthy. As always you are all in my prayers. Much love, EmilyReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 12:40 pm

    Toni :O) - Love your new blog layout…so cool to see all those cute pictures of sweet Cora. I’m sorry you had such a difficult day. Continuing to pray for you…glad to hear all is continuing to go well with Baby Mac.ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 1:33 pm

    Anonymous - I can’t seem to read your blog without shedding tears. I can sit here and tell you I feel your pain after reading it, but the truth is I don’t know entirely what you are feeling not having lost a child. You’re right in having faith and knowing that Jesus is carrying you and Joel through this. But please remember that Jesus’ mother know EXACTLY what you are going through having lost her only child in such an awful way. But after the gloom and dispair she suffered through arose our Saviour Jesus Christ! I pray that Mother Mary can help you through this hard time as well. God Bless You!ReplyCancel

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  • August 19, 2009 - 3:03 pm

    sarahross - It’s all part of the journey.
    My prayers continue…ReplyCancel

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    The little things - sending you a giant hug & a million prayers!ReplyCancel

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  • August 20, 2009 - 5:50 am

    susana - Such a beautiful little girl and she remains a part of all of the lives .
    Reading this made me cry …such a beautiful baby…we are remembering you in prayer…thanks for sharing…
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  • August 20, 2009 - 7:45 pm

    Crystal - I just wanted to thank you. My husband is in the hospital recovering from brain surgery. It was difficult to get through, but I kept remembering how strong and steadfast you are in your faith. I was and am trying to be like you. Thank you so much for your inspiring words. I know you struggle, but you have helped me more than you will ever know. Thank you!ReplyCancel

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  • August 20, 2009 - 10:12 pm

    texasinafrica - “Cast all your cares upon him, for he cares for you.”

    We continue to pray through all the ups and downs.ReplyCancel

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  • August 21, 2009 - 12:25 am

    Lindsay - I don’t even remember how I found your blog, but you inspire me! I’m 30 years old and my first husband was tragically killed. I’ve married again and have 3 little boys, but I the grief almost destroyed me as I did not run to my Heavenly Father as you have. May God bless you, heal you and lead you as you walk this road. Thank you for sharing your life with us.ReplyCancel

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  • August 21, 2009 - 12:56 am

    Renee - I can only imagine the parties she is having in Heaven that someday you will get to hear all about.She really is such a doll. Prayers for you from Australia!!!
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  • August 21, 2009 - 12:20 pm

    Susie - You don’t know me but I’ve been following your blog for quite some time. Months ago, I bought a blanket made by Meg for Cora’s etsy shop and when it arrived in the mail, it included a picture of Cora. I just wanted you to know that I keep that picture displayed in my room. Such a sweet little baby – she most certainly has meaning.ReplyCancel

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  • August 22, 2009 - 11:39 am

    Heather C - That playground is fantabulous!

    Continuing to pray for you all. It must be such a rollercoaster ride of emotions. May the Lord cover you with His feathers that you might find refuge under His wings… and His faithfulness will be your shield and rampart. :)ReplyCancel

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  • August 22, 2009 - 3:08 pm

    Natalia - To Cora’s dear mom and dad

    I haven’t posted before, but have followed Cora’s blog for a while since she was ill. We had a little boy who died from a birth accident. So I wanted to share something about gravestones you might not have been aware of as it’s not common. We had one hand-carved. We could design it ourselves, no “clip art”. I don’t know how hard it would be to find a carver in the US. I did search once and found a few but I lost the information. We were in England where there are a lot more of them. Here’s what I mean (my blog post today about it has a picture and what we did) http://blogcabininthewest.blogspot.com/

    Thinking of you at this hard time.
    Sincerely
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  • August 22, 2009 - 8:26 pm

    laney - …not a grave stone…a love stone…for that is where you keep her…in your hearts…blessings ane prayers for you and baby mac to be…ReplyCancel

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  • August 23, 2009 - 8:32 am

    The Mershawn's - It does stink…a lot. And more than I know.
    Still praying for all of you.ReplyCancel

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  • August 23, 2009 - 3:10 pm

    The Busscher Family... - I feel God has lead me to comment today, I have been following your blog since Cora’s passing and my heart has been ripped apart as I travel that with you. I say with you as my husband and I lost our little 18 month old girl Grace, last August…also our firstborn and I could just sit for hours and cry and talk with you I think as I relive so many of the emotions I feel and felt. Anyway, I just wanted to comment about the headstone, I STRUGGLED so hard with doing that….first of all we shouldn’t be doing it not at our age, second of all just facing the reality of having to pick a headstone is SOO HARD. We waited a good six months and now Grace’s stone is in place and I feel very at peace with the design. Just for an idea you may look at it on our blog http://busscherfamily.blogspot.com/2009/03/wordless.html.

    We too are expecting once again and cannot wait to have that JOY back in our lives, ours also is a suprise and due in 8 days!! God is good, and though I’ll never understand his ways here on earth, I praise him for continuing to be our GOD and for walking thru each day with us both the horrible and the wonderful. Take care and know you are in our prayers! -KathyReplyCancel

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  • August 24, 2009 - 1:16 am

    Anonymous - I am another blogger that doesn’t know you in person, but that has been following your story since you found out Cora was sick in January. Every time I read your blog I am in tears, yet at the same time I see how you are glorifying God and I am simply astounded. You have had so much taken away, at the same time I feel like God is going to give you SO much for being faithful! Cora will always hold a special place in my heart. Her pictures remind me of my own daughter at that age. When I heard that you sang Blessed be the Name of our Lord at her memorial I was blown away. My relationship with God has taken on a whole new meaning since following you and Joel in a time of such darkness. There is no doubt in my mind that there will be a glorious celebration in heaven the day that you are reunited! God bless you both and Baby Mac.
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  • August 31, 2009 - 8:29 pm

    Anonymous - I am a stranger who is drawn to Cora’s story and therefore the story of your life. Forgive me for treading where I have no right, but I have this thought about Cora’s marker/stone. Thinking about this new baby and how Cora will have such a special place in this child’s life…..take a moment and reflect on this as a place not just for you both, but for Cora’s siblings to celebrate and honor her.

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  • August 31, 2009 - 10:45 pm

    Casey - Love the new layout!

    My best friend Danae lost her daughter 2 weeks before her due date so a funeral was held and little Allyson was burried in our small hometown’s cemetary. That was 5 years ago, almost 6, and just this past spring they found the strength to get a headstone for her grave. It wasn’t that they didn’t care, it tore them up to know that there was just a temporary marker with a label on it, but to get a marker made it final, made it real. I pray you find peace, and are able to stand firm on your faith during the storms that come and go. Praying for Baby Mac, and I just know Cora is looking down and can’t wait to meet him/her either.ReplyCancel

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  • September 22, 2009 - 8:26 am

    Ruth H. - I just came across your blog, after stumbling upon Meg’s “Whatever”. Your postings have really touched my heart. My little daughter, Lily, died a year ago, just a month after her first birthday. She was born with multiple serious birth defects, and we were blessed to have her with us as long as we did. Even though we have experienced so much love and support, sometimes it feels strangely isolating to be the only “young mom” who has buried her child. Thanks for sharing your feelings and thoughts. And congratulations on the wonderful playground in Cora’s honor. I’m sure Cora is proud to be part of such an amazing family.ReplyCancel

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Driving through the Canadian Rockies and seeing the falls and lakes was definitely my favorite part of the trip. The scenery is amazing. The lakes are beautiful colors–blue, green, turquoise–and so clear. The pictures really don’t do it justice. You will just have to go see for yourself!
Moraine Lake…






Emerald Lake…



Takakaw Falls…


Lake Louise…


The Chateau at Lake Louise…

As you see all these beautiful places you just can’t help but be amazed by our Creator.
Do you not know? 
Have you not heard? 
The LORD is the everlasting God, 
the Creator of the ends of the earth. 
He will not grow tired or weary, 
and his understanding no one can fathom.
He gives strength to the weary 
and increases the power of the weak.
Isaiah 40:28-29
Your love, O LORD, reaches to the heavens,
your faithfulness to the skies.
Your righteousness is like the mighty mountains,
your justice like the great deep.
O LORD, you preserve both man and beast.
How priceless is your unfailing love!
Both high and low among men
find refuge in the shadow of your wings.
Psalm 36:5-7
I am so thankful that the God who created all of these beautiful places is the same God who is walking beside me through this storm. 
He is the same God who I can take refuge in and find strength to make it through another day. 
He is the same God who loves me unconditionally. 
And He is the same God who is completing his good and perfect plan in my life–even when I don’t understand. 
What a mighty God we serve!

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  • August 16, 2009 - 4:23 pm

    meg duerksen - did you that picture of the canoes?! it is awesome…it looks straight out of a j.crew catalog! i love it.
    they are all beautiful but that one is very cool.

    those poppies are amazing!ReplyCancel

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  • August 16, 2009 - 5:07 pm

    PamperingBeki - Jess, this is beautiful! This might be my favorite post you’ve written.

    LOVE the canoe picture!

    You look great.

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  • August 16, 2009 - 5:35 pm

    Elle's Mom - What a beautiful post and such amazing photos. You two look adorable.ReplyCancel

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  • August 16, 2009 - 6:12 pm

    Anonymous - Isn’t it just gorgeous? And CLEAN! I am from the next province over and I love being from there. The canoe picture is fantastic. That would be great over a fireplace. Beautiful colours.

    My dad used to work at the Chateau Lake Louise when he was younger.

    Enjoy the beauty that it is and visit more often.

    You look great, BTW..ReplyCancel

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  • August 16, 2009 - 6:38 pm

    Stewart Family - Wow…those are all amazing pictures!! Absolutely stunning! What a wonderful creator we serve!ReplyCancel

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  • August 16, 2009 - 8:39 pm

    Jane In The Jungle - Amen sister!!!
    And that water is beautiful on Emerald Lake!!ReplyCancel

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  • August 16, 2009 - 8:47 pm

    Ambur - So True! What a mighty and awesome God we serve!ReplyCancel

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  • August 16, 2009 - 8:56 pm

    Anonymous - Beautiful..the pictures, the words and you and Joel…
    thanks for sharing your life..

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  • August 16, 2009 - 9:55 pm

    wicker0407 - Thanks so much for sharing the beautiful photos I have been to Vancouver but never seen any of these gorgeous parts you visited. Love seeing these pictures. Hope you are feeling well, your family continues to be in my thoughts and prayers.
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  • August 16, 2009 - 9:59 pm

    Musings of a Homeschooling Mom - Beautiful words and beautiful pictures. Thank you for sharing them! You look great!ReplyCancel

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  • August 16, 2009 - 10:36 pm

    TRICIA @boutellefamilyzoo - Wow! Those photos are UNBELIEVABLE! What an amazingly gorgeous place! God’s glory is all around us. I think you may have just found the center of it. So beautiful!
    You look gorgeous, Jess.

    Love and prayers,
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  • August 16, 2009 - 11:07 pm

    Marla Taviano - Soooo beautiful, Jess!! Blue, green and turquoise are my FAVORITE colors of God’s!!ReplyCancel

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  • August 16, 2009 - 11:11 pm

    The Moffats - These have been my favorite pics so far of your trip- and the first time I have really been able to see your belly :) Loving and missing you guys.ReplyCancel

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  • August 16, 2009 - 11:20 pm

    Amanda - BEAUTIFUL pictures Jess…or Joel (I know he’s the one who likes to take the scenery pics). What an amazing trip…I have loved seeing all of your pictures!ReplyCancel

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  • August 16, 2009 - 11:44 pm

    Lexie Loo & Dylan Too - The pictures are absolutely amazing. What a beautiful place!ReplyCancel

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  • August 17, 2009 - 12:20 am

    Falling Around - Stunning. Absolutely gorgeous.ReplyCancel

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  • August 17, 2009 - 4:08 am

    Candice - Your pictures are amazing! And you are looking fabulous mama. hugs and prayers.ReplyCancel

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  • August 17, 2009 - 6:04 am

    Our Curly Girls - Most beautiful pics ever! Great job!!

    Glad you are enjoying your time away. You both are on my mind…

    HUGS!ReplyCancel

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  • August 17, 2009 - 7:20 am

    rob - Praise God for your faith! Praying for you all from Stillwater, MN.

    Love, KatieReplyCancel

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  • August 17, 2009 - 7:40 am

    Mum2twopreciousgifts - Beautiful pictures, beautiful words, beautiful scripture. Thank you for sharing. Good night from Australia.ReplyCancel

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  • August 17, 2009 - 8:05 am

    Shosh - Wow. Amazing pictures, amazing messageReplyCancel

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  • August 17, 2009 - 8:28 am

    Queen B. - Oh my gosh, just BEAUTIFUL !!ReplyCancel

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  • August 17, 2009 - 8:29 am

    Erica - your pictures are fabulous! the picture with the different colored canoes all along the dock is by far my favorite, great shot!!! and i’d have to say lake louise looks like my favorite like… so beautiful! what a great and uplifting post :)ReplyCancel

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  • August 17, 2009 - 8:42 am

    Anonymous - Jessie, I’ve been following your blog since Cora went to heaven. And I just wanted you to know that you have given me great courage to face the scary things in life. I look at people like you, who live a living nightmare, and yet still praise God, and I know that no matter what happens in my life, God is the one thing I cannot live without, and that this world is a broken place and someday we’ll get to be in a place where there is no more pain or weeping.
    Thanks for the encouragement.ReplyCancel

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  • August 17, 2009 - 8:44 am

    Lauren Kelly - Seriously, how can you not look at that scenery and not believe in the very God that created it! So gorgeous. Great post!!ReplyCancel

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  • August 17, 2009 - 8:53 am

    Robin in Benton - WOW – it is beautiful there. Know where I want to go on our next big vacation! You both look happy and relaxed – and I see the baby bump is growing!ReplyCancel

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  • August 17, 2009 - 9:13 am

    Karina - What gorgeous pictures, and I agree, that canoe one is GREAT!

    I so wish I could embrace the notion that a God created all this beauty. I envy you that belief.

    You look great, BTW!ReplyCancel

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  • August 17, 2009 - 10:03 am

    Sarah - Beautiful pictures!!ReplyCancel

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  • August 17, 2009 - 10:07 am

    Anonymous - Beautiful pictures!

    I’m grateful you feel our God walking with you. I don’t understand, and often wish I did, why things happen the way they do. I pray everyday that you continue to walk this great path of FAITH!!! Love to you, Joel, Angel Cora, and new sweet baby.ReplyCancel

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  • August 17, 2009 - 12:12 pm

    Danielle - That place is absolutely breathtaking! Amazing…ReplyCancel

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  • August 17, 2009 - 1:58 pm

    mommyof2 - Thank you for this great post. We do serve a Mighty God and His plan is perfect. Thanks for the insight thru scripture. Love the pictures as always!ReplyCancel

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  • August 17, 2009 - 2:59 pm

    Amber - Wow! Beautiful scenery! Cute belly too. Thanks for such an inspiring post. I needed it today.ReplyCancel

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  • August 17, 2009 - 7:43 pm

    Have Cracker Will Travel - LOVE your new blog look – and seeing Cora’s beautiful at the top of the page = BEAUTIFUL!!ReplyCancel

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  • August 17, 2009 - 7:46 pm

    Paula Aspacher - thanks for making cora the focus of your blog… she is the focus of your thoughts and darling.. you don’t know me, but i think it was a great idea.. her little brother or sister will love her through what you show them and tell them!! she will never be forgotten!ReplyCancel

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  • August 17, 2009 - 8:43 pm

    mrosev14 - Love the new look out! Those pictures are phenomenal, it looks like you had such a wonderful vacation.ReplyCancel

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  • August 17, 2009 - 8:48 pm

    Anonymous - LOVE THE NEW LOOK OF THE BLOG…although it makes my heart hurt so much…tears just stream down my face..YOU are an amazing, inspiring woman..Thank you..

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  • August 17, 2009 - 8:48 pm

    hoosier68 - Love your new format. Cora’s photos are treasures to behold. You continue to be in my daily thoughts and prayers.ReplyCancel

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  • August 17, 2009 - 9:04 pm

    Andrea - I am so inspired each time I read your blog. Love the new layout.ReplyCancel

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  • August 17, 2009 - 9:38 pm

    Angie - I love your new blog! And the pictures of your sweet Cora just brought me to tears. Know that prayers are still said for you.

    What beautiful pictures you have – sounds like a great trip!

    Our God is such an AMAZING creator!ReplyCancel

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  • August 17, 2009 - 9:45 pm

    Walquist - jess i LOVE your new blog background! the makeover is just stunning! glad you two could make the trip and get away. i heard you saw spence & rhon, hopefully they gave you a hug from us. We think and pray for you guys often!ReplyCancel

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  • August 17, 2009 - 9:51 pm

    Monica - I love the new layout of your blog! These photos you’ve been posting of your vacation are amazing!ReplyCancel

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  • August 17, 2009 - 10:11 pm

    jenjensden - I have walked very closely with a friend going through a horrible storm, and I have watched from afar as others have gone through storms as well. The thing that strikes me about my friends and about you is that through all the pain they clung to their Father, and through that trial they became more like him rather than becoming bitter. It didn’t take away the sadness of their storms, but we’ve said over and over that we can’t imagine these storms without our God who loves us and is walking right beside us. Your words are such a wonderful reminder of that. May God bless your faithfulness.ReplyCancel

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  • August 17, 2009 - 10:19 pm

    Shana - What beautiful pictures.ReplyCancel

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  • August 17, 2009 - 10:41 pm

    Nadia - I love the new layout! Such pretty pictures of Cora…

    Thinking about and praying for you in IL.ReplyCancel

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  • August 17, 2009 - 11:01 pm

    PamperingBeki - Whoa, LOVE the new look of the blog! Love the pictures of Cora at the top.ReplyCancel

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  • August 17, 2009 - 11:12 pm

    The Schilling's from Cimarron - Hey guys how are you? I love the new look of your blog and loved seeing the pictures of Cora again. It sounds like you had an awesome trip…. You have been on my mind a lot lately, thinking about the year we have had and things I have learned and cherished along the way…. You were at the top of my list! Still think and pray for you daily! We miss seeing you and can’t wait to see the playground in person! I am back to work today and had a really hard time leaving my kids. I am trying to stay positive…..
    Hope things are well with you and your families… Jess you look adorable in the pictures with your little belly! :) Take care and hope to see you soon!

    Love you,

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  • August 17, 2009 - 11:18 pm

    The Mangus Family - beautiful pictures… such a moving post. thank you for sharing.ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 12:49 am

    Christina - That picture of the boats, so colorful and beautiful, it’s wonderful! And the pictures of you two are lovely. It is amazing to see you in the midst of all that the Lord created, knowing He created you as well and is watching over you, and leading you. Thanks for sharing your awesome photos!ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 7:18 am

    Mrs. H - Thank you for sharing the photos. Beautiful journey through Canada. My daughter (1st grader) has to do a VERY brief report on Canada. I will have to come back here and show her your pics (possibly contacting you about using a few w/ credit given to you?)
    I have been following your journey through grief, praising God with you for the new life He’s placed within you, but also understand the “highs and lows” that come along the way. May God continue to guide you on that journey (as He is me as well).
    Thank you again for sharing the beautiful pictures. I am a HUGE fan of photographing God’s amazing creation!ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 12:21 pm

    Baylee and Blair's page - Unbelievable pictures! Those lakes are amazing. I don’t think I’ve ever seen a lake that is so blue! It looks more like the ocean! SO Clean looking!

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  • August 19, 2009 - 8:26 am

    michelle - Jess~ thank you for sharing God’s word…today I had a friend who was in need of encouragement…and I couldn’t find “the verse” I wanted, so I came to your blog and there it was!!! Thank you.ReplyCancel

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  • August 20, 2009 - 5:52 am

    susana - What a beautiful post and such amazing photos!!!!!!!
    water is beautiful on Emerald Lake!!
    fantastic..
    thanks for sharing your wonderful life..
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  • August 20, 2009 - 1:13 pm

    Nan - We go to Lake Louise often but the one time we went to Moraine Lake, in June, it SNOWED! Canada is nuts! LOL (I can say that cause I live here!) :^D

    It’s fun seeing these familiar places from your perspective.ReplyCancel

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  • August 21, 2009 - 1:01 am

    Renee - The picture with the different colored canoes all along the dock is by far my favorite, great shot!!So beautiful!
    You look gorgeous…thanks for sharing such a beautiful post..
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  • August 23, 2009 - 8:45 am

    Anonymous - I LOVE the canoe pic. You need to put that in some kind of contest or make a poster of it!

    I’m really interested in this whole area you went to and would love to hear/know more about it for a possible vacation spot. How beautiful those photos were!!! Please send me more info on distance, time to travel there, where at is it all located. You can email me at southnurses@hotmail.com. THanks so much!
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  • August 23, 2009 - 9:34 am

    writing4612 - The pictures are amazing! That Chateau at Lake Louise is breathtaking.ReplyCancel

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  • August 24, 2009 - 8:37 pm

    Nana - Thanks for the pictures of Lake Louise. We were there in the winter when it was frozen and rode a sleigh on the ice along the edge of the trees. I could not visualize that little inlet or stream or whatever it is in your last picture. It is nice to see it not frozen.

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We left early the next morning.


It was a beautiful drive–or so I was told.

I was really struggling to stay awake in the car. I was so tired.  Joel kept asking me how I could sleep when we were traveling on Canada’s most scenic highway. Somehow I managed to. Truthfully, I was a pretty lousy driving partner. Sorry Joel!
But, by the time we got there I was rested and ready to do some exploring. 
Ice exploring.
Our destination was the Columbia Icefield. We wanted to see a glacier up close. Thanks to this huge ice explorer (bus) we did just that.
This was the scariest part of the tour. 
You might not be able to tell from the picture but we were driving straight down. It felt like we were falling off a cliff–very slowly.
See all the people holding on to the backs of their seat? I wasn’t so sure about my safety. Joel thought it was great.
And then we drove right on the glacial ice and up to the glacier.
It was pretty amazing.
And beautiful.

There were blue cones marking off the area that we weren’t supposed to go past. 
The tour guide said it was dangerous. There were holes that you could fall into (they had a special name, but I can’t remember). 
Apparently these people didn’t hear the warning–or didn’t care. And I am not sure what the crazy Hawaiian man was doing. He was even wearing a lei.
The run-off from the glacier was freezing and the water was SO blue.
Lots of people were collecting the glacial water in their water bottles.  Joel decided to test it out. I wouldn’t taste it–I wasn’t so sure. I told Joel he was going to get sick. 
When we got back on our bus and the tour guide informed us that drinking glacial water is supposed to be very good for you and keep you healthy. Once again I was too cautious and Joel was right. We’ll see how that keeping you healthy part works out for him.
And after all that exploring I was exhausted. Good thing we had a long drive ahead so that I could take a nap. I had to rest up so that I had enough energy to eat my Cows ice cream that night!
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  • August 14, 2009 - 10:29 pm

    Cristy - That looks like a blast! So glad you guys had a good time!ReplyCancel

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    Princess Martha - Looks like scary fun!ReplyCancel

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    Tonya - Your photos are amazing. Looks like an awesome time!ReplyCancel

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  • August 15, 2009 - 6:40 am

    Darby - Jess, You seriously are making me want to get up and leave Alabama right now at 6:39 on a Saturday morning and go to CANADA!! It looks beautiful! And I giggled about you sleeping… sounds like every pregnant woman I know!!! Can’t wait to hear more!ReplyCancel

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  • August 15, 2009 - 6:43 am

    Marla Taviano - How exciting, Jess!! We went to a zoo last year that had a polar bear exhibit with one of those ice vehicles. You could go inside and pretend you were driving–and see real polar bears outside your window. :)ReplyCancel

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  • August 15, 2009 - 7:15 am

    Jenn - You are brave. That looks pretty scary to me. Beautiful though, great pictures! What an amazing vacation.ReplyCancel

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  • August 15, 2009 - 7:36 am

    Mum2twopreciousgifts - So lovely to read about your Canadian holiday. I have visited twice – 1993 and 1996 and we hope to visit again sometime. But it is a veeeeeeeeeeeeery long plane ride from Australia to Hawaii and then onto Vancouver – particularly with Miss 6 (who has an attention span of minutes on a good day) and Master 2 (no attention span whatsoever) in tow.

    Prayers coming your way for peace, happiness and a healthy Baby Mac.

    Good night from Down Under.

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  • August 15, 2009 - 7:52 am

    A - Wow, it looks like you are having such a great vacation!!!ReplyCancel

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  • August 15, 2009 - 8:33 am

    Shannon - Absolutely gorgeous! I, too, now want to go to Canada on vacation!ReplyCancel

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  • August 15, 2009 - 9:07 am

    Heather - Wow! Beautiful pictures! Looks like I should add Canada to my list of vacay places! Oh yeah we don’t go on vacation!! lol! Hope you are enjoying your time together :D
    Hugs and prayers,
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  • August 15, 2009 - 9:07 am

    Trasie Bressler - OH that place is beautiful! Glad you got some good rest in!!!ReplyCancel

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  • August 15, 2009 - 9:28 am

    PamperingBeki - Holy cow, that would’ve freaked me out too! That straight downhill thing? Yeah, no thanks.

    You know as soon as Joel gets a cold or sniffle, you have ammo now. You can just tell him he needed more of that glacier water.

    Not even Canadian scenery can come between a pregnant woman and her sleep.ReplyCancel

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  • August 15, 2009 - 9:49 am

    Anonymous - Beautiful Makes you want to head out for a road trip :)Thanks for sharing your vacation pics with us and for continuing to take us on your journey…
    Glad to see baby Mac and Mom are looking good :)Are you going to find out the sex of the baby?

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  • August 15, 2009 - 9:55 am

    Polka Dot Moon - Hills and ice are a scary combination!!

    But what am amazing and beautiful place, so worth the drive! You’re a trooper being pregnant and exploring a glacier :)
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  • August 15, 2009 - 9:55 am

    Lexie Loo & Dylan Too - Beautiful pics…it looks like you had a fun trip!ReplyCancel

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  • August 15, 2009 - 10:00 am

    Sara - Ok, I’m with you on that one, I would be scared. Something about ice and water. That is SO cool though! What an experience!ReplyCancel

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  • August 15, 2009 - 12:55 pm

    Erica - that is beautiful! looks like so much fun!!!ReplyCancel

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  • August 15, 2009 - 2:03 pm

    Fab Fabrics - oh wow! What an adventure!ReplyCancel

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  • August 15, 2009 - 2:15 pm

    Country Roads - Looks like a beautiful place to visit!! So glad you two had a good get-away!!ReplyCancel

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  • August 15, 2009 - 3:29 pm

    Sarah - Love the pictures. I’m sure it was even better in person. You and your hubby are so cute together!ReplyCancel

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  • August 15, 2009 - 6:08 pm

    Falling Around - Oh my goodness, how fun! I’m with you though, I probably wouldn’t have drank the water either.ReplyCancel

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  • August 15, 2009 - 7:35 pm

    Whimsical Creations - WOW, looks like an amazing time!ReplyCancel

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  • August 15, 2009 - 10:37 pm

    Kim - I have followed your blog since you loss of Cora and am so happy for you and the new baby on the way.
    We went to Banff back in 1994 for our honeymoon and stayed at the Banff springs hotel(the big one that looks like a castle). It was lovely. We went to Lake Louise and hiked to a teahouse on top of a hill there. We also did the glacier trip as well and it all looks the same! Enjoyed your pictures of downtown Banff too. I couldn’t get over how the elk just walked all over town. Thanks for the walk down memory lane for me!ReplyCancel

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  • August 16, 2009 - 8:28 pm

    Kimberly - Amazing pics and I bet amazing memories you won’t forget!ReplyCancel

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  • August 16, 2009 - 8:41 pm

    Jane In The Jungle - Oh My Gosh!! I would have freaked going straight down!! But what a “cool” adventure!ReplyCancel

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  • August 17, 2009 - 2:22 pm

    ryanandlindsay - Dang! That is some beautiful scenery! Perhaps Ryan and I should schedule a trip. Thanks for sharing!ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 11:34 am

    Brewster Vacations Canada - Incredible photos – brilliant colours! Glad you enjoyed your visit!ReplyCancel

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  • August 18, 2009 - 2:51 pm

    Jenifer - looks like fun and lol to Joel for drinking the water let us know how that goes lolReplyCancel

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  • August 20, 2009 - 5:54 am

    susana - It looks beautiful!!!!What an amazing vacation….That is so cool though! its a experience!!!!!
    Your photos are amazing….thanks
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  • August 21, 2009 - 12:59 am

    Renee - Beautiful though, great pictures!!!!
    Hope you are enjoying your time together …Prayers coming your way for peace, happiness and a healthy..
    thanks for sharing…
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