This past weekend Joel and I headed to Nashville, Tennessee for a Respite Retreat. This retreat is hosted by David and Nancy Guthrie for couples who have faced the death of a child. Nancy is the author of The One Year Book of Hope that I told you has been so helpful to us.

We joked on our way there about what we were going to say to people who asked us what we were doing in Tennessee. You know, the well meaning flight attendant who wants to know if you are on vacation or visiting family. What would be their reaction when we told them we weren’t actually in Nashville to visit the Country Music Hall of Fame?? Instead, we were coming for a weekend retreat for grieving parents. It would be just another of the many awkward moments we face these days. Thankfully, no one asked.

We picked up another couple from the airport and drove an hour outside of Nashville to this big, beautiful house. It is called The Hiding Place. Such a fitting name.
You (God) are my hiding place.
Psalm 32:7
There were eleven other couples, including Nancy and her husband, who joined us for this weekend. We each had our own little room in the house.

The majority of the weekend we spent in this living room. Sharing our stories, grieving together, learning how to move forward with the Lord’s strength, and just getting to know each other.

It was a hard weekend. A weekend filled with many tears. There is so much that I am still processing. But, we are SO glad we went. We needed this time to grieve together. We needed this time to lean on and learn from so many others who are walking in our shoes. We needed this time to be reminded that Jesus himself speaks into our sorrows. There are no easy answers, but we can rest in the fact that we are grieving with HOPE.
We came back emotionally exhausted. Not quite ready to face the busy week ahead. Yet, at the same time feeling like we had some new tools to help us keep moving forward. I have so much more that I will share with you soon.
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  • October 28, 2009 - 3:52 pm

    PamperingBeki - Oh Jess, what a blessing to get to go to that retreat!

    To me, it was ironic about what you said about the flight attendant. Back in my own flight attendant days, I was based out of Memphis and flew sooooo many families to and from St. Jude children’s hospital.

    I saw many of them regularly and got to know them a bit. It was always heartbreaking to see the families go home a final time without their kid if the child didn’t make it. But there were the cases too where the child would fly home with the biggest smile because they were cancer free.

    *You* are such a blessing to more people than you’ll ever know.
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  • October 28, 2009 - 3:55 pm

    runafteryou - What a beautiful idea for a retreat. As a grieving mother, I always feel kindered in some way to others who’ve shared this great burden. I hope the benefits of this retreat stay near your heart.ReplyCancel

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  • October 28, 2009 - 3:56 pm

    The Mershawn's - I think that’s awesome.
    So glad there are people out there willing to help others along the terrible long road of grief. And so glad that HOPE is still there.
    What a tremendous ministry. I’m so glad you guys were linked with them. Thanks for sharing. Still praying for your sweet family.ReplyCancel

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  • October 28, 2009 - 4:40 pm

    Brittany - Wow, what a weekend! I am so glad that you are looking at God’s grace in your healing process. I am so inspired by your faith and your willingness to work through your pain, while remembering Cora everyday.

    We live near Nashville, I am proud that there is a ministry to reach out to grieving parents. What a blessing.

    Thank you for sharing.

    Prayers,
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  • October 28, 2009 - 4:41 pm

    Lori Danelle - Wish I had known you were coming to town! We could have met up and I could have shown you around. Glad to hear your enjoyed yourself despite the heaviness of it all.ReplyCancel

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  • October 28, 2009 - 5:37 pm

    Trasie Bressler - God Bless you!ReplyCancel

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  • October 28, 2009 - 6:16 pm

    Heather - what a BEAUTIFUL house. it must have been an amazing experience. you and joel were no doubt a huge inspiration for those other couples.

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  • October 28, 2009 - 6:21 pm

    Marla Taviano - What an incredible ministry. I love hearing stories of how God’s people are using their heartache to reach out to others.

    Praying for you this week!ReplyCancel

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  • October 28, 2009 - 6:41 pm

    Marie - That is a beautiful thing.ReplyCancel

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  • October 28, 2009 - 7:31 pm

    Rachel - I am thrilled that you were able to have this time with others who are also in the same shoes. Granted, I know that you, Joel and the other parents would much have rathered that instead you gather with their children. However, I am grateful to Our Lord for the ministry that was done this past weekend and for friendships formed and bonds made, and therapeutic times. Continuing in prayer.ReplyCancel

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  • October 28, 2009 - 7:51 pm

    Al's World - I am so glad that you were able to get away and experience this together…praying for healing in your heart and soul!ReplyCancel

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  • October 28, 2009 - 7:52 pm

    Maria - I am so glad you were able to go. I pray for you oftenReplyCancel

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  • October 28, 2009 - 7:52 pm

    Whimsical Creations - What a beautiful place for a retreat.

    hugs!ReplyCancel

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  • October 28, 2009 - 8:11 pm

    Kate Starr - What a good God indeed, giving us respite and strength!! Indeed a blessing to retreat, despite the tears.ReplyCancel

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  • October 28, 2009 - 8:16 pm

    Robin Cotton - God is Good!! Praying !ReplyCancel

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  • October 28, 2009 - 8:31 pm

    Jane In The Jungle - So glad y’all were able to get to the retreat! Beautiful house and so appropriately named.

    Hope you were treated to our Southern hospitality. I’m in Chattanooga, Tn.ReplyCancel

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  • October 28, 2009 - 8:47 pm

    The Perfect Trio - We were in Nashville this weekend too! I wonder if we passed each other….probably not. I surely would have noticed you!

    I pray for you all the time!

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  • October 28, 2009 - 8:51 pm

    Harper Loyer - Thats great that you got to go and experience this with other families who actually know what you are going through on a more personal level. God Bless your family!!!! You are in my thoughts and prayers on a daily basis!!!!ReplyCancel

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  • October 28, 2009 - 8:57 pm

    Stephanie - What a wonderful retreat. I am glad that you were able to connect with other couples who have been through the same thing. Praying for your family!ReplyCancel

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  • October 28, 2009 - 9:00 pm

    Sarah - It looks like a beautiful peaceful place to share your loss, pain and tears with others who have been and are going through what you are.
    Always praying for you.ReplyCancel

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  • October 28, 2009 - 9:53 pm

    Christy Vogt - There is definitely nothing like having people to share and cry with who are walking through the same trials. So glad that God gave you this opportunity.ReplyCancel

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  • October 28, 2009 - 10:50 pm

    Barclay Kathryn - How awesome that there is something like this offered for families that are grieving.ReplyCancel

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  • October 29, 2009 - 5:43 am

    Melissa Moss - What a great blessing for you and your husband. I understand how hard it must have been to face you grief but how healing it must have been too. Even almost 5 years after the loss of my little girl Emma Noelle I still have not given myself a chance to truly grieve. I would have loved the opportunity to talk to others who have gone what I have gone through. So few understand what it is like to lose a child. Thank you for sharing your story because it does help those of us out here that feel so alone.

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  • October 29, 2009 - 8:20 am

    Nicole Robinson - I’ve posted a few comments over the last few months. I still feel like a stranger watching someone else’s life, but I am drawn to your story and your witness over and over. God is doing great things through your personal tragedy. God is touching so many through your walk. Thank you for continuing to share. Our God is mighty and perfect. His healing and His timing are so amazing.ReplyCancel

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  • October 29, 2009 - 8:24 am

    Lauren Kelly - Sounds like it was a very much needed weekend and retreat away!!!!!!ReplyCancel

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  • October 29, 2009 - 10:30 am

    Jen - sounds wonderful..and what a beautiful place.. perhaps we will look into something like this.. thank you for sharing!ReplyCancel

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  • October 29, 2009 - 10:39 am

    Anonymous - How awesome for you! I read Holding on to Hope by Nancie Gunthrie a few years ago and thought it was awesome! Keep looking upward to God! God Bless!ReplyCancel

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  • October 29, 2009 - 10:56 am

    Claudia - What a blessing to have this time with other couples … I know the grief is not a blessing in itself (I can only imagine) but all these instances where you can share and learn in God’s love is a blessing after all.ReplyCancel

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  • October 29, 2009 - 11:24 am

    Anonymous - Thank you for continuing to share your life with us out in blog world! I have followed your story all this year and pray for you all. I am very interested in what you gleaned from this retreat on grieving as I am going through a very hard time with a huge loss in my life. So if and when you share on this blog, I know it will be a huge blessing for many.
    Praying for you and your new baby!ReplyCancel

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  • October 29, 2009 - 11:59 am

    BEK - You are an amazing couple and I am so glad you are willing to share your story!ReplyCancel

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  • October 29, 2009 - 1:01 pm

    merlin - Because of your willingness to share, you are changing lives, helping leave God-impressions on other people. I see grace in your life, God’s grace. I ordered the Hope book after your post and then when I saw this one about the retreat I became impatient for my book to arrive. It makes my spirit soar to see how God’s love is woven from one to another and also to complete strangers in distant parts of the country. I sit back and think how Hope’s, Gabriel’s and Cora Paige’s lives together reached me….it is overwhelming. I can not begin to understand the ways and plans of God.ReplyCancel

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  • October 29, 2009 - 3:29 pm

    JenReece - Glad you enjoyed the retreat. I hope Nashville treated you well (that’s where I live!) God will take care of you!ReplyCancel

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  • October 29, 2009 - 3:52 pm

    Sincerely, Stephnie - I hoped the retreat will give you the “tools” you need to get through this. As always, you are inspiring.

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  • October 29, 2009 - 5:29 pm

    Anonymous - So glad you were able to have a weekend retreat! Isn’t The Hiding Place beautiful? I live in Clarksville just a few miles down the road from where you guys where this weekend. I also wanted to let you know that I received the two black letter burp cloths that I bought from you the other day. They are beautiful! Thanks! Praying for you guys!
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  • October 29, 2009 - 9:11 pm

    Susan - Oh what a blessing to read you made this retreat.

    I have not lost a child, but because my son is a cancer survivor my life is filled with friends who have lost children.

    I am also the sibling of a child my mom lost.

    I feel in love with Nancy. I’ve read several of her books, and have personally contacted her.

    God has truly used her testimony to help so many people.

    I had a friend who did that weekend a month or so ago. She loved it.

    Thanks for sharing this.

    Praying for you now~

    (so nice to meet you, I’ll be back!)ReplyCancel

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  • October 30, 2009 - 12:34 am

    Diana - What a blessing to have this retreat available to you and that the two of you could go! Such a lovely house, wow!

    I have never lost a child, but my mama died of cancer back in 1971 when I was 14. And now my beautiful stepmom just learned a week ago she has cancer.

    Many prayers for you that God’s love and grace continues to surround you and hold you both close!ReplyCancel

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  • October 30, 2009 - 2:08 am

    Sue - Well done to you both for facing up to this so bravely. Totally different, I know, but after losing my husband, I found solace in spending time with other widows. They just get you. They know that they don’t need to say anything (that they can’t say anything) to make you ‘feel better’. They’re in the same boat, just trying to get by from day to day.

    I’m really glad you and Joel had this time together and I’m sure that, while it must’ve been really tough, you’ve gained so much from it too.

    Big hugs, Sue xReplyCancel

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  • April 25, 2013 - 4:34 pm

    respite retreat reunion » The Macs - […] but played a huge role in the healing process for us. You can read a little more about that weekend here and […]ReplyCancel

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When Cora went to heaven we were given SO many books.
Lots of books on grief and grieving.
Many of them have been helpful to us now,
but at the time we were so overwhelmed we didn’t even know where to start.
We knew we needed something.
But, reading book after book about grieving just didn’t sound that great.

But when we received this book in the mail, something jumped out at us.
I think it was the word HOPE.
That is what we were so desperately needing.
HOPE in the midst of our despair.
A friend’s sister sent this book to us.
She and her husband had been in our shoes.
They knew exactly what it was like to face such great tragedy.
They too had lost their first child and were left to face an empty house.
And Nancy Guthrie, the author of this book, has been in our shoes too.
God is using her story to reach so many people.
Isn’t it amazing how God can use something so horrible for such glory?
I love that about the God we serve!

This book has been a lifeline for both of us.
It has guided us as we seek to understand true HOPE.
It has directed us to some amazing truths in the Word–
truths that we really needed to be reminded of.
And it has helped us remember that there is real HOPE,
even when our hearts are hurting so deeply.

I love this definition of HOPE that Nancy shares in her book:

HOPE

the expectation of a favorable future under God’s direction.

And Joel and I are actually going to have the opportunity to meet Nancy and her husband. We are so excited to learn more from them. I will tell you more about that soon…

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  • October 23, 2009 - 8:11 pm

    Jane In The Jungle - What a blessing for y’all to be able to meet them. And for them to be able to share with y’all.

    Praises!ReplyCancel

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  • October 23, 2009 - 8:36 pm

    Givinya De Elba - Wow. Sounds like a great book. And, not like you need baby name suggestions, but I’m suddenly thinking what a lovely name/middle name “Hope” would be … unless Baby Mac is of the blue variety of course!

    No, no, no way did I just blow in, a stranger from another continent, and give you a baby name suggestion! Never! That would have been rude!ReplyCancel

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  • October 23, 2009 - 8:43 pm

    Melissa - I love reading your blog for the unflinching testimony you offer. I’m not sure exactly how I found your blog, but I’m sure it is somehow related to the fact that my daughter is also named Cora. My heart grieves with you when I think about what it is like for you to come home to a house without Cora. Though I haven’t personally walked in your shoes, I have close friends and family members that have, and I so appreciate you telling your story! Blessings to you and this new little one soon to come!ReplyCancel

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  • October 23, 2009 - 9:07 pm

    That's Just Us - I read “Holding Onto Hope” while going through a very difficult time in my life as a momma. It helped me in so many ways. I read and re-read the book. I offer the title to many that are going through tough times. I really enjoy your blog and your faith.ReplyCancel

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  • October 23, 2009 - 9:19 pm

    Lexi - Hi, I love your stuff! The dresses are sooo cute! I am wondering where you got your cute “coras” labels done? I am looking for somewhere to do some for my shop! Thanks!
    http://www.sugarandspice4baby.blogspot.comReplyCancel

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  • October 23, 2009 - 10:08 pm

    PamperingBeki - Hope is so powerful!ReplyCancel

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  • October 23, 2009 - 10:29 pm

    Julie @ Joy's Hope - Hope is what I clung to when there was nothing else. We even toyed with the idea that if we had another daughter naming her Hope. Our friends beat us to that, and then we decided to name Halley after Hallelujah.
    I am so glad that you have found comfort in Nancy’s books and will be so blessed to meet her.ReplyCancel

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  • October 23, 2009 - 10:31 pm

    Christina - It is so wonderful to be able to lean on others…
    and you too are being used by Him!
    We have had some Sunday School lessons on hope recently, and it seems to me that although it isn’t talked about as much as faith and love, the three hinge on one another, and without one or the other none makes as much sense. I pray that you continue to hope in that favorable future. It is a promise!ReplyCancel

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  • October 23, 2009 - 11:37 pm

    misty - i wanted to share this video w/you but it will not let me post it~ if you go to youtube and search ‘sky angel cowboy’ it will bring up the video.ReplyCancel

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  • October 24, 2009 - 12:04 am

    dawn - i am reading that book now…love it. I lost my son 10 years ago and wish it was around then. My sister lost her daughter this past spring, and a stranger gave this book to her and it has been a lifeline. She encouraged me to get a copy too.

    so glad you have this book…and will look forward to hearing about your meeting with the guthries.ReplyCancel

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  • October 24, 2009 - 12:41 am

    Julie - Love you Jess and am praying for you and Joel this weekend!ReplyCancel

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  • October 24, 2009 - 8:14 am

    House of Collinsworth - My husband and I really need a good book like this to read together since losing Noah. I will have to pick this one up! Thank you for sharing about it.

    I agree with a previous comment…”Hope” would be a beautiful name if you have another girl.ReplyCancel

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  • October 24, 2009 - 8:29 am

    Anonymous - I heard the song “glory baby” by watermark and the lyrics are incredicible. It brought great healing to us.

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  • October 24, 2009 - 9:06 am

    Darby - Jess, Nancy and David were at our church in the spring. They are amazing and I’m so delighted that you and Joel will have an opportunity to meet them… I will pray that the Lord will bless you through them!ReplyCancel

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  • October 24, 2009 - 9:11 am

    shepherdsgrace - in 2007, I had a miscarriage and my dearly loved grandmother died…she was about to move in with us…

    I was at Wallyworld looking at ornaments and their was a brass word…hope…it is hanging on my office desk to this day…that day it smiled at me and the Lord kept reminding me to hope…hope…hope…

    He won’t disappoint us…

    thank you for sharing…
    blessings in your meeting, may He be present in many sweet and wonderful ways,
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  • October 24, 2009 - 9:23 am

    Anonymous - Can’t wait to “hear” more details…Thank you so much for continueing to share your journey with us..Hope you and baby Mac are feeling well ;)ReplyCancel

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  • October 24, 2009 - 9:44 am

    Trisha Larson - We also received book after book when Nate died. I wish that I would have been given this one. I may have to order it.

    When your child dies you lose hope and joy. It takes a while to find it again. It takes FAITH to believe that you will. I’m currently on that path. Holding tight to my faith and trusting it to bring me hope and joy. Praying that you find it too!

    Hugs,
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  • October 24, 2009 - 1:59 pm

    TRICIA @ The Zoo - What a beautiful blessing to receive such a gift. God places the people in our lives that we need at the times we need them. You seem to be especially blessed in this area of your lives, and my heart sings for you.

    With love and continued prayer,
    XO*TriciaReplyCancel

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  • October 24, 2009 - 3:53 pm

    kelli - that’s awesome jess. nancy came to speak at JBU when i was in school there. her story has always stuck with me. so neat to see God’s sovereignty in bringing the 2 of you together.ReplyCancel

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  • October 24, 2009 - 11:18 pm

    meg duerksen - WOW. that is so cool.
    and now you shared your book with so many others…who can share it with someone who needs it too. makes my heart just want to jump out! it’s so happy.

    annie has been LOVING her dress this week.
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  • October 25, 2009 - 8:04 pm

    Anonymous - I will have to look into that book. I live in Florida about 20 minutes from the mother whose daughter (Somer) was kidnapped and killed last week on her way home from school. I believe this book may be a very good gift for her. Thank you for sharing.

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  • October 25, 2009 - 10:24 pm

    Jenifer - It is amazing how he works …I prey for yall every nightReplyCancel

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  • October 26, 2009 - 12:41 pm

    betseykerr - ‘Hope’ is my favorite word…I have always felt… that without hope, we have nothing…hope gets us out of bed the next day, hope gives us faith in tomorrow…
    what a lovely title for this book.ReplyCancel

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  • October 26, 2009 - 8:06 pm

    Hightowerz - I think I may send this book to some friends that just lost their baby girl after only 3 days of life. Carried her to term and lost her unexpectedly. Good to know that this book was encouraging. Thanks for the insight!ReplyCancel

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  • October 27, 2009 - 9:22 am

    PamperingBeki - Praying for you today.ReplyCancel

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  • October 27, 2009 - 11:42 am

    Jessatsea - I couldn’t agree more with Givinya. Hope would be a beautiful name for your daughter. :)
    you have a beautiful soul that shines through every post.ReplyCancel

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  • October 27, 2009 - 1:13 pm

    Nancy - I just started reading your beautiful blog & it is amazing. God bless you!!ReplyCancel

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  • October 27, 2009 - 6:43 pm

    The Schilling's from Cimarron - Hi Guys,

    Jason was down your way last week and Fred said you were in Tennessee. I am assuming that is where you are meeting Nancy… Thank you for this post! A close Friend of mine passed away this summer and her parents are really having a hard time, so I am going to suggest they read this book! Can’t wait to hear all about it! Miss you always, and just know we love you and think of you all the time! wishing you happiness!
    love to you both!

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  • October 27, 2009 - 6:55 pm

    Bill and Mary - Because your blog has always been so inspirational to me, I’ve given you an award over on mine!

    http://browniebitez.blogspot.com

    ~Mary :)ReplyCancel

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  • October 28, 2009 - 3:17 pm

    Robin in Benton - Praying for you today and always. Grateful to the Lord for anything that gives you solace in anyway.ReplyCancel

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  • October 28, 2009 - 9:58 pm

    Rachel - I just have to say, this sounds awesome. In fact, I immediately ordered a copy online. I am always looking for books like this. Still haven’t found one I LOVE. We have lost two children, one 14 hours old, and one at 20 weeks gestation. I feel like I will always be in a state of grief—no matter how much time passes. The retreat you went on sounds wonderful.ReplyCancel

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  • October 30, 2009 - 9:04 pm

    Lori - I’m so glad to know about this book, and how you were blessed by it. Every one of your posts encourages and inspires me! Bless you!ReplyCancel

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  • October 31, 2009 - 2:56 pm

    Colleen - I have this book as well and when Ellie was going through all of her cancer treatments it helped me focus. I still keep it nearby and refer to it but during those dark hours when my mind got away from me and doubt crept in, this book helped get me back on track.

    Thank you for sharing it with everyone so they now know what a fabulous read it is.

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  • November 4, 2009 - 9:38 pm

    Starsnrose - I am so glad to hear you have discovered the book that meant so much to me as well. A wonderful christian friend sent it to me at my lowest point in my grief. The Lord used this book to reach the furthest recesses of my heart where the hurt was hiding. I would recommend it to anyone who has suffered loss of any kind.ReplyCancel

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…LOVES me!

This is what I hauled into the post office today.

All the Etsy orders are mailed. PHEW!
You girls are awesome!
Thanks for keeping Cora’s in business.
Now we have a bunch of empty hangers, so it is back to sewing.
And thanks to you, business is booming at our local post office!
My sweet sister came over last night and helped me package everything.
I couldn’t have done it without her.
Thanks Anne!



Five hours later, my floor was covered in Cora’s packages.
If you placed a Cora’s order it should be arriving soon.
If you missed what you were hoping to get, keep checking back.
We are working on more dresses already!
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  • October 21, 2009 - 4:41 pm

    Anonymous - Yippee, I can’t wait! I already have the leggings to match the Cora dress I purchased for my daughter! I hope those boxes weren’t too heavy for you to lift…praying for Baby Mac and your family!ReplyCancel

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  • October 21, 2009 - 4:49 pm

    the breedens - I love that bench in your first picture.ReplyCancel

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  • October 21, 2009 - 5:15 pm

    Gail - Wow–Jess, you are one busy lady! Can’t believe how much you get done. Your dresses are adorable! Love you!ReplyCancel

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  • October 21, 2009 - 5:37 pm

    Trasie Bressler - Well I missed out on this bunch of dresses but hopefully one is in the next bunch that you make…..I know it will be perfect and it will be perfect timing when I actually get one. They are all adorable and they are all made with so much love! Many Many Blessings!ReplyCancel

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  • October 21, 2009 - 5:37 pm

    Diana - New prayer: Dear Lord, PLEASE let me be able to buy a couple Cora dresses… please, please, please…

    Amen

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  • October 21, 2009 - 6:44 pm

    Christina - I am so excited. I ordered a shirt for my daughter Emily that would be in the bunch!

    YAY! I will come by and let you know when I put up a post with Emily in her new Cora top.ReplyCancel

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  • October 21, 2009 - 6:54 pm

    PamperingBeki - I LOVE that this is going so well for you!ReplyCancel

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  • October 21, 2009 - 6:56 pm

    Whimsical Creations - YAY for Cora’s dresses. Your dresses are so cute!ReplyCancel

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  • October 21, 2009 - 7:01 pm

    Melissa - Yay! I keep missing them, but hopefully next time I will be quick enough! Thanks for all your updates and encouraging posts. Praying for your family!ReplyCancel

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  • October 21, 2009 - 7:14 pm

    Judy - Even the labels are adorable!!!ReplyCancel

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  • October 21, 2009 - 8:44 pm

    Kelsey - I always miss them! I can’t wait to get my hands on a couple dresses next time!ReplyCancel

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  • October 21, 2009 - 8:52 pm

    Kristen - I’ll be checking my mailbox daily until it gets here! Can’t wait to see my Abby in her dress from Cora’s! :-)ReplyCancel

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  • October 21, 2009 - 9:49 pm

    gwswenson - Crossing my fingers for a 2T Cora dress next time around. Cannot wait to receive the shirt I ordered. Is it as fun as it looks -all the sewing, packaging, designing labels, etc? I dream of an etsy shop, just don’t have the talent like you do!! Excellent work, and I hope you DO enjoy it!!ReplyCancel

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  • October 21, 2009 - 10:08 pm

    Christina - I’m still hoping to get one! :) It’s amazing that you all are doing this. Every time I go to the site, there is either nothing or two items left.
    Take care, and blessings on you all.ReplyCancel

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  • October 21, 2009 - 10:56 pm

    Lexie Loo & Dylan Too - That is wonderful! Every time I look at your site, the dresses are gone, lol!ReplyCancel

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  • October 22, 2009 - 3:12 am

    Carla - Ohhhh, Im so looking forward to the restock, am really hoping to be lucky next time. Im due No2 in February and Im actually tempted to find out whether its a boy or a girl, just so I can order a dress from Cora’s :-). Im sure Cora is looking down at you all thinking “how amazing is my mommy”! Congratulations on all your hard work, its so lovely to think of all the people who are going to be made so happy this week when their dresses arrive. It all looks so pretty!! :-)ReplyCancel

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  • October 22, 2009 - 6:39 am

    SouthernGalsBoutique - your dresses are gorgeous!!! I’ll be watching for more to come up for sale in your Etsy!ReplyCancel

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    Lauren Kelly - That is just awesome, so glad business is booming!!!!!ReplyCancel

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  • October 22, 2009 - 8:46 am

    Toni :O) - Yay! I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE this post! It made my smile and I’m thrilled business is booming for you and keeping Sweet Sweet Cora’s memory alive!! I hope one day to be able to get two dresses for my coworker that is pregnant with twins…you sell out SO fast though…whew! Hugs and blessings to you all, so much to be proud of!ReplyCancel

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  • October 22, 2009 - 9:20 am

    CourtneyC - Those labels are too cute!!!ReplyCancel

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  • October 22, 2009 - 9:36 am

    Robin in Benton - One of these days you’ll be mailing one of those to me – please Lord! Have a blessed day!ReplyCancel

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  • October 22, 2009 - 9:49 am

    Lindsay - Jess. I know this is random, but I love the bench that you have in the “mud room” or whatever you call it. I would love to know where you found such a lovely antique-y bench. :)ReplyCancel

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  • October 22, 2009 - 9:50 am

    Lindsay - Jess, I love the bench that you have in your mud room. Where ever did you find such a great antique-y blue bench? Do tell.ReplyCancel

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  • October 22, 2009 - 11:42 am

    MomMom - Just wanted to let you know that your blog encourages me every time I read it. Please go to my blog to check out an award I left for you. Also, I keep going to Cora’s web site to try to buy something and always miss out. I’ll keep trying. Excited about Baby Mac. We’re expecting a new granddaugther Jan. 25th.ReplyCancel

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  • October 22, 2009 - 12:09 pm

    meg duerksen - that is awesome! what a happy site.ReplyCancel

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  • October 22, 2009 - 12:20 pm

    Cyndi - Can you make these in larger sizes? My 7 year old would look cute in one of these with a pair of jeans! Can you make them in like a 6x or 7?ReplyCancel

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  • October 22, 2009 - 1:42 pm

    Melanie - Can’t wait for the next batch to be ready! I miss it every time. They are so cute and I’m so excited for the arrival of Baby Mac! Thank you for the wonderful words that you write…I’m in awe of your strength! God is good!!!ReplyCancel

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  • October 22, 2009 - 2:57 pm

    misty - I DID miss what I wanted to get =( our computer was at the apple store getting repaired when you filled up! I am so happy that you’re making more because I need 5. I can’t wait! =) happy sewing!ReplyCancel

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    Erica - That is so exciting that it is going so well for you! So great!ReplyCancel

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    Stephanie - I’m waiting to catch one so I can buy one soon hopefully! Everytime I check they’re already gone…they sell like hotcakes!ReplyCancel

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    Jennifer Dawn - I’m crossing my fingers that I can be quick enough next time to snatch one of these cute dresses up.ReplyCancel

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  • October 23, 2009 - 9:14 am

    jeannebean - I’ve been following your blog for many months and I have wanted something from Cora’s store, but every time I looked, it was sold out. When I saw MckMama’s post, I went straight there and got an adorable dress for my daughter. Can’t wait for the package to arrive- fun to get a sneak peak behind the scenes. I will think of you and Cora and Baby Mac each time Natalie wears her dress. Thanks, and best wishes!!ReplyCancel

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  • October 23, 2009 - 10:07 am

    Megan (mommyesquire) - Can’t wait until my little girl’s dress arrives!ReplyCancel

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  • October 23, 2009 - 12:37 pm

    SadMommy3434 - I’ve been having a hard time viewing your items. I don’t know if it’s my computer but I am interest in getting a Cora Dress for my daughter. Feel free to email me at any time.ReplyCancel

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  • October 23, 2009 - 1:09 pm

    Micah - Oh, girl, I know what a relief it is to get those OUT of your house! Wish I was getting some fun Cora mail =(. Maybe next time…ReplyCancel

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  • October 24, 2009 - 6:43 am

    Mandi @ It's come to this - It absolutely amazes me to stop & think about what you set out to do & then went on to accomplish in such a short period of time!! How incredibly wonderful that Cora’s Playground was thought of, built, paid for & now played on in less than a year! Can’t wait to see pics of Baby Mac playing on big sister’s playground soon. God bless your family!!ReplyCancel

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  • October 24, 2009 - 3:28 pm

    Ethansmom08 - I was SO excited when I got my Cora package in the mail yesterday! Thank you SO much!

    Love and Prayers,
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    beforeoureyes - and she did a wonderful job! I so enjoyed recieving mine. It’s great! Thanks!ReplyCancel

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I love this.

I wonder about heaven so much more than I ever have before.
It is hard to even imagine what it will be like.
I know it is something I will never be able to grasp with my finite mind.
Heaven can only be grasped by faith.
But I do know that Cora is going to be waiting there for me.
To me, heaven is now the face of my little girl.
And it is going to be SO much more.
I love these words:
“But in my mind’s eye I can see a place,
Where Your glory fills every empty space”
How awesome that will be!
However, as it is written: “No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love him.”
1 Corinthians 2:9

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  • October 19, 2009 - 11:58 pm

    Falling Around - It will be a blessed reunion for sure. So many loved ones waiting.

    Praying for you and baby Mac.ReplyCancel

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  • October 20, 2009 - 12:27 am

    Sandys2girls - I read your blog and your story has taken my heart. I think of you reuniting with your sweet baby girl one day in heaven and my heart smiles.. What a day that will be!!
    There is a song that was sung at my 13 year old cousins funeral and it really spoke to me, its called “If you could see me now” by Don Moen. You should google it, I think it will speak to you.
    Prayin for you and new baby girl Mac!!ReplyCancel

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  • October 20, 2009 - 12:34 am

    Zingo Tots - Beautiful. I absolutely love one of the pictures of Cora that is in your header. It is a black and white and she is looking up with the sunlight on her face. It is almost as if she is looking up to Heaven. Saying prayers for your family daily. Rest up! Your next ten weeks will fly by!ReplyCancel

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  • October 20, 2009 - 2:15 am

    Diana - What a glorious reunion the Lord surely has in store for us with our loved ones who already there!

    {Myself, I will be looking forward to that Heaven time when I will be reunited with my mom who died of cancer when I was 14.}

    Blessings to you!ReplyCancel

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  • October 20, 2009 - 2:32 am

    Stephanie - You are so amazing and OH SO STRONG! I pray for you with each day…you are truly an inspiration and I only hope to be a sliver of your strength…Bless you and thank you for sharing your journey!!ReplyCancel

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  • October 20, 2009 - 7:06 am

    Kristi REDISKE - What an amazing song-so glad you posted it. I have put it on my facebook page now for others. Still keeping you all in my prayers.ReplyCancel

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    Anonymous - i dont comment often but i check in every day. that was just beautiful. thankyou. Still praying for you all. Love Amanda in Australia. xReplyCancel

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    Misty Rice - Only tears and goosebumps.ReplyCancel

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  • October 20, 2009 - 7:18 am

    Misty Rice - And as hard as it is for us…this is the kind of love God dying and so badly desires for us to have for HIM as we do our kids.

    He wants us to have such BIG and DEEP love and faith in HIM and Heaven with HIM, as we do our kids.

    He loves us that much.ReplyCancel

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  • October 20, 2009 - 7:39 am

    onebadrunner - I think of that day often. What an amazing day it will be.ReplyCancel

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    Robin in Benton - Your faith never ceases to be an inspiration.ReplyCancel

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    Beckypdj - It will be a glorious day when we see all of the people that have gone to Heaven before us. My son’s birthday is on Thursday, he is celebrating in Heaven.ReplyCancel

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  • October 20, 2009 - 8:27 am

    Anonymous - What a glorious and beautiful heaven we have waiting for us. It feels like that song was written just for you. What a great way to think of heaven, as a child lay on your chest breathing… all those simple things you long for waiting for you.ReplyCancel

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  • October 20, 2009 - 8:38 am

    TRICIA @ The Zoo - It’s hard to imagine a heaven more perfect than that sweet baby’s face.

    Blessings to your family. Abundant blessings.

    With love and prayers,
    XO*TriciaReplyCancel

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  • October 20, 2009 - 8:43 am

    Lauren Kelly - I absolutely love this song and it’s soooo fitting for your Cora :)ReplyCancel

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  • October 20, 2009 - 8:46 am

    Shana - Four words:
    Wow!
    Beautiful!
    Thank you!ReplyCancel

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  • October 20, 2009 - 8:53 am

    Marla Taviano - Oh, wow. I can’t wait to meet Maria and Cora!!ReplyCancel

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  • October 20, 2009 - 9:07 am

    Sophia - Thank you Lord for your blessings!
    S.C.C. speaks your promises to us with music and it is such an encouragement to us.
    Looking forward to the day we will meet you in glory, and all these angel babies…keep lookin down on your momma and poppa, Cora!!ReplyCancel

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  • October 20, 2009 - 9:27 am

    Tabitha And Family - I know it will be just where we all need to be..Home with our Father.ReplyCancel

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  • October 20, 2009 - 10:09 am

    Bri!!! - Oh my gosh, it was as if this song was written specifically for Cora. BEAUTIFUL. I’m in tears. Much love to you, your family, and the little one growing inside of you!ReplyCancel

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  • October 20, 2009 - 11:52 am

    Christina - That is really an amazing & beautious way of looking at things.

    I love it!ReplyCancel

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  • October 20, 2009 - 12:42 pm

    HD - There is a book titled “90 Minutes In Heaven” written by a pastor named Don Piper. Wow! What a book. His description of Heaven is absolutely amazing. Definitely an uplifting book.
    Your story continues to touch my heart. You and your family are in my prayers daily.ReplyCancel

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  • October 20, 2009 - 1:44 pm

    L ~ S - I don’t know if you know Adventures in Odyssey…today I was listening to one called Mortal Coil and it talked about heaven and what a beautiful place of reuniting it will be. I think that is something very special to look forward to!ReplyCancel

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  • October 20, 2009 - 2:12 pm

    PamperingBeki - These are words that you and SCC understand all too well, that most people will never grasp the true meaning of.

    Praying for you daily. And Baby Mac too.ReplyCancel

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  • October 20, 2009 - 2:37 pm

    The Mershawn's - That should come with a warning to have a tissue box in hand. Thanks for sharing that. My heart aches for & them. But the comfort of knowing they’re there with Him…wishing you could be there too. Wow. We’re still praying.ReplyCancel

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  • October 20, 2009 - 3:13 pm

    merlin - Yes, and heaven will also be the face of baby mac when you meet face to face very shortly.ReplyCancel

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  • October 20, 2009 - 5:05 pm

    Andrea - I love that song too. I heard him sing it at Women of Faith and thought of you. Praying for your family.ReplyCancel

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  • October 20, 2009 - 6:26 pm

    Taking Heart - What a sweet, sweet day it will be.ReplyCancel

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  • October 20, 2009 - 9:24 pm

    Carla - I have read your blog for some time now….just when Cora became sick…and I have followed your posting’s and am sooo amazed and strengthened by your faith…I have prayed for you, shed tears over your grief. Thank you for sharing! Thank you for your faith! God bless you and your new baby!!!!ReplyCancel

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  • October 20, 2009 - 10:10 pm

    Julie - This update brought back the tears, which in turn reminded me of the days when I sat, staring at my computer screen reading of the fight Cora braved and how ultimately Jesus took her home, not on our time line, but His. I feel sad. I know your message was filled with hope… reuniting with Cora in Heaven is exciting! But I’m still sad and I think Jesus is okay with that.ReplyCancel

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  • October 20, 2009 - 10:42 pm

    Christina - Amen and amen…what a thing to long for!ReplyCancel

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  • October 20, 2009 - 11:22 pm

    This is me.. - Since my dad passed, I too think of heaven in a more profound way. This must be something that is common in the grief process. Thank you for sharing your heart with us. I pray that your heart heals a little bit more with every passing day.

    Sincerely,
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  • October 21, 2009 - 6:49 am

    Marsha - What a beautiful song … what a blessed day that will be when Cora meets you and leads you to Jesus. Praying for you and the new miracle too!

    Love and prayers,

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  • October 21, 2009 - 11:11 am

    Mandi @ It's come to this - My husband’s brother went to heaven at the age of 18. At his service one of the preachers told our family that “our treasure in heaven is now much greater than it was before” .. it’s true. Heaven in & of itself is perfect, but now for my husband to also know he’ll be greeted by his brother again … it’s even better!ReplyCancel

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  • October 21, 2009 - 11:34 am

    PamperingBeki - Praying for you today.ReplyCancel

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  • October 21, 2009 - 3:53 pm

    Anonymous - You know, I’ve been reading a friends blog about their little girl who died on Monday from cancer. Their story makes me think of yours. I thought you might be interested in looking at their journal on Caring Bridge. They put a lot of feelings into words beautifully.

    http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/donnaquirkehornikReplyCancel

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  • October 21, 2009 - 4:54 pm

    Melissa Moss - Thank you so much for sharing this song. I have never heard it before and it was just what I needed. It has almost been 5 years since my sweet Emma went to Heaven and I miss her more and more each day. This song causes my heart to ache but also reminds me of the day I will once again hold her in my arms.

    You are in my thoughts and prayers.

    Melissa Moss
    melissamoss79@live.comReplyCancel

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  • October 21, 2009 - 6:45 pm

    dawn - I saw SCC at women of faith and he performed this song. It was beautiful. I often call my son Aidan who died at age 4 months my treasure in heaven, because part of my heart is in heaven now. When I think of heaven, I think of Aidan in the same instant.ReplyCancel

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  • October 21, 2009 - 6:55 pm

    TammyIsBlessed - One thing we know for sure – heaven will be a place of so many special reunions. I know that my dad is enjoying being a grandfather to my two babies there right now and I can’t wait till the day I can meet them for the first time.

    One book I think you would love is Heaven by Randy Alcorn. It’s pretty long though, so you could also go with Heaven for Kids. It’s good too, and much easier reading. I highly recommend both of them!ReplyCancel

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Baby Mac is 28 weeks.

That meant it was time for our second sono.
On Monday we headed to Wichita for another trip to the specialist.
We were so nervous.
That drive to Wichita, almost in total silence, seemed all too familiar.
The same trip we took to the hospital over eight months ago.
Except this time Cora wasn’t in the back seat.
It is times like these where Cora’s absence seems to be screaming at me.
The memories, fears, and pain come rushing back.
Although the waiting and anticipation of that appointment was scary and uncomfortable, I think sometimes I need those times of quiet.
Time to just think and pray.
Time to remember that God has brought us this far
and He is not going to abandon us now.
Time to rely on Him and His strength to get me through another hard thing.
Time to remember that I need to continue to trust.
We walked back into the specialist’s office,
having to face Cora’s hospital again right across the street.
I tried not to even look.
It is amazing how just being there–not even in the hospital–causes so many pictures, memories, and emotions to start flashing through my mind.
I hate that!
We had the sonogram first.
Baby Mac was moving around again like crazy.
I think we have a wiggly one {and maybe ornery one like daddy} on the way.
The technician talked to us through the whole thing,
and from our perspective it seemed like everything was looking good.
They were going to specifically look at the baby’s adrenal glands at this appointment.
That is where Cora’s tumor started.
When the doctor walked into the room she flashed a big smile and said,
“Aren’t those the most beautiful adrenal glands you have ever seen?”
I think I was still too nervous to respond much,
but it was so wonderful to hear her excitement.
She reassured us that everything was looking great.
Baby Mac looked perfect, adrenal glands and all.
She even gave us a hug when we left.
We are so blessed to have such kind people taking care of us.
And so we are past one more hurdle.
It is hard to believe in a little over 10 weeks
we will be meeting this new little one.
And we even got away with another picture.
Want to see?

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  • October 16, 2009 - 10:54 pm

    Lundstrom Family - I am so happy to hear that everything looks good! You guys are in my prayers always! Can’t wait to find out if you are having a boy or a girl.ReplyCancel

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    Ashley Ann - That’s one beautiful sono picture!ReplyCancel

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  • October 16, 2009 - 11:20 pm

    Maureen - So happy for you guys… you hold a special place in my heart and I think of you often :-) Excited to meet your little one!

    Blogging in WA,
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  • October 16, 2009 - 11:37 pm

    Elle's Mom - Oh, love the photo! What a little beauty, he or she!ReplyCancel

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    Anonymous - Prayers–and happiness for you and your families!ReplyCancel

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  • October 16, 2009 - 11:55 pm

    Misty Rice - All choked up….holding back the tears.

    Go GOD!!!ReplyCancel

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  • October 17, 2009 - 12:03 am

    Erica - precious baby mac! what a blessing!!ReplyCancel

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  • October 17, 2009 - 12:21 am

    Diana - Praise the Lord for such awesome blessings! You are surrounded by soooooo much love from so many folks! Keeping you in our prayers!

    Joyfully in Christ,
    Diana :)ReplyCancel

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  • October 17, 2009 - 12:21 am

    PamperingBeki - God bless you Jess.

    There is Hope in Him!!ReplyCancel

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  • October 17, 2009 - 12:48 am

    Christina - A little over 10 weeks!! When you say it like that, it seems so close, doesn’t it? That’s a good thing, I think, and I’m so happy that things look so good. Praise God for your healthy baby! Praise Him for your life together, all of your family, and your trust in Him.ReplyCancel

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  • October 17, 2009 - 1:16 am

    Yankee Mama - I am so happy and ready to bawl my eyes out at the same time! I just love your sweet spirit Faith in the Lord.ReplyCancel

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  • October 17, 2009 - 1:24 am

    jess - so happy that everything is going well for you! you deserve it. :)ReplyCancel

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  • October 17, 2009 - 1:28 am

    Heather - he or she is too cute already! getting so excited for you, jess :)
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  • October 17, 2009 - 2:04 am

    ♥Amber Filkins♥ - Oh dear Jess. My heart just aches for you. And I know a lot of those feelings all to well that you mentioned in your post. I just got done writing a post about losing our {2nd} baby in a year, and my D&C today.

    I had so many quiet, silent moments. Moving through all of the motions and emotions, silently.

    But through all of the silence, and unpleasantness, there was NO denying God’s presence, His promises, His hand holding us up under the unbearable pain.

    What a beautiful, healthy little baby you have on the way!

    Hugs & prayers, my dear.ReplyCancel

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  • October 17, 2009 - 2:36 am

    forever folding laundry - Beautiful. Just like big sister Cora.
    So glad all is well. Enjoy these next 12 weeks!

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  • October 17, 2009 - 7:24 am

    Kelly - Continuing to pray for your family! Baby Mac looks gorgeous and healthy and strong! I cant wait to meet him/her!ReplyCancel

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  • October 17, 2009 - 7:33 am

    Jennifer - I continue to pray for you, Joel, and your precious unborn baby. He or she looks so beautiful. Jesus loves you all so very much.ReplyCancel

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  • October 17, 2009 - 7:38 am

    Natasha - Absolutely beautiful!
    I’ve been reading your blog for a few months now and it makes me cry every time, my family’s heart goes out to you and you are in my prayers. I can’t wait to see you holding this little one!ReplyCancel

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  • October 17, 2009 - 7:56 am

    Shannon - Beautiful!ReplyCancel

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  • October 17, 2009 - 7:59 am

    Marla Taviano - Can you even fathom how much rejoicing there will be across the country (the world!) when Baby Mac is in your arms for the first time??

    Yet I know you’ll miss Cora SO much at that moment.

    Praying for overflowing peace and joy to fill your hearts!!ReplyCancel

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  • October 17, 2009 - 8:26 am

    Polka Dot Moon - Can’t wait to see Baby Mac in your arms! You’re always in my thoughts and prayers!!
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    Lori - Congratulations!! Thanks for sharing this journey with all of us. :)ReplyCancel

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    Amy - Can’t wait to meet him or her! :)ReplyCancel

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    Anna - So happy for the good news…what a wonderful, wonderful picture!!ReplyCancel

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  • October 17, 2009 - 9:59 am

    Shannon - What a beautiful baby! And I’m so glad to hear that those adrenal glands are perfect, too!

    Good luck with everything, and we will continue to pray for the three of you!ReplyCancel

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  • October 17, 2009 - 10:06 am

    Molly - Wonderful news! I am praying for you.ReplyCancel

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  • October 17, 2009 - 10:17 am

    Julie - Oh, Jess! What great news. Thank you for sharing. I prayed so hard for you on Monday and am glad you got such beautiful news. Can’t wait to meet Baby Mac. Love you!ReplyCancel

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  • October 17, 2009 - 11:23 am

    Melissa - I’m so happy for you guys. I haven’t commented, but wanted to today. I know what u mean about just driving down the same roads or even looking at or going to the hospital. When my grandmother died it was very sudden from an allergic reaction that caused all her skin to come off. It was devastating to us. After that long week in the hospital I felt like I could not breathe if I smelled the hospital soap somewhere or had to actually go in a hospital. We work w college students at our church and one night we were scheduled to take coloring books, etc to the children’s hospital. I knew I had to go. I was trying to hold it together bc the students were so nervous and excited. The nurses asked if we would go see a sweet girl who had a head injury from falling at a church camp. She could no longer talk or walk, but was having to learn all over again. I was so scared to open her door. We all went in and met her family. The students were hanging back…it was different to try and talk to the girl, so most talked to her parents. The second I walked in her eyes locked on mine…I could feel her hurt and how scared she was. She reached out for my hand and I took it. Because I had been so close to my grandmother and had to witness such horrible pain and still hold her hand and talk to her,I felt comfortable. God’s peace just washed over me. I talked to this little girl and held her hand forever. When we had to go she cried. I was crying, too. I had gone from scared to death to being able to love and minister in a new way. Because you’ve been there it changes you. Just wanted to share because I know god has and will continue to use you for his glory. Even when you feel like it might not ever be a possibility. Praying for you!ReplyCancel

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  • October 17, 2009 - 1:23 pm

    Keilani - I am so glad to hear everthing is ok! The pain you feel breaks my heart, but the comfort you receive from God also comforts me. I cannot tell you how much your family has taught me about love, kindness, and the power of God. Thank you.ReplyCancel

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  • October 17, 2009 - 1:49 pm

    Urban Pioneer - Congratulations on the new baby, he/she is looking great!
    I don’t know you, but I just wanted to say how proud I am of you and tell you that you are such an inspiration to me and are truly a testament to God’s love :)ReplyCancel

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  • October 17, 2009 - 2:02 pm

    Whimsical Creations - Just precious! I am so happy to hear everything looks good.ReplyCancel

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  • October 17, 2009 - 2:24 pm

    merlin - 28 weeks is such a happy milestone bringing a fresh sense of peace and hope. And then to have the confirmation with the sonogram that your sweet babe is looking perfect. I pray this all puts a bit of calm in your soul. A lot of folks are praying for your baby and the two of you. Blessings to you and all you love.ReplyCancel

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  • October 17, 2009 - 3:12 pm

    TRICIA @ The Zoo - My heart is so full of joy for your family. I hate that there must be such sadness mixed with all of this joy, but as you said; God is with you and he won’t abandon you now.
    The funny things you never expect to be excited to hear at a sonogram, right?! What a beautiful blessing.

    XO*TriciaReplyCancel

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  • October 17, 2009 - 3:52 pm

    Mandi @ It's come to this - So happy for such a good report … and another picture too! Continuing to pray for your family!!ReplyCancel

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  • October 17, 2009 - 4:34 pm

    amy - oh, jess! i’m so happy to hear your news…i bet you are relieved. :)

    hugs to you…
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    Carla - So happy to read this xReplyCancel

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  • October 17, 2009 - 6:35 pm

    dawn - Congrats on the good news…

    Your light continues to shine brightly…ReplyCancel

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  • October 17, 2009 - 8:15 pm

    Anonymous - Precious! So excited for you two!

    Always in my thoughts and prayers…

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  • October 17, 2009 - 8:16 pm

    Anonymous - SO incredibly happy for you! Your family is always in my prayers!
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  • October 17, 2009 - 8:24 pm

    Christine - What a blessing! I love the sono pic! So looking forward to meeting precious Baby Mac!ReplyCancel

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    Farris Family - Good Bless Your Sweet Family!ReplyCancel

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  • October 17, 2009 - 9:47 pm

    The Moffats - Jess & Joel – I was so happy to read this post! I have been wanting to call & check in all week. Dropped my phone in a tub full of Pinesol while cleaning(keep those comments to yourself, Joel) & was out of touch since last Friday. Just got your text when my new phone arrived & was sooo glad to see the good news. Love & hugs.ReplyCancel

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  • October 17, 2009 - 9:47 pm

    Elizabeth - Your Faith inspires me!ReplyCancel

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  • October 17, 2009 - 9:51 pm

    texasinafrica - That is a beautiful little one! Glad to hear that things are going well, and praying for a deep, deep sense of peace for mom and dad.ReplyCancel

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  • October 17, 2009 - 11:52 pm

    Brooke - That sounds like Dr. Ohara? I had my appointment with her on Monday too…she’s such a blessing during such a tender and tense time. I am so happy for you both and will continue to pray for baby’s health.
    …this is Brooke Krause by the way :)ReplyCancel

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  • October 18, 2009 - 8:46 am

    hoosier68 - Thanks be to God!ReplyCancel

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  • October 18, 2009 - 9:21 am

    Al's World - Precious baby…and remember “for I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future” Jer. 29:11. Praying for you..we are at 21 weeks and have our detailed ultrasound in two weeks..I am nervous about it as well.ReplyCancel

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  • October 18, 2009 - 10:35 am

    Anonymous - So happy to hear that wonderful news. Praying for you!ReplyCancel

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  • October 18, 2009 - 11:27 am

    Kathy - I am so amazed at the strength and courage you and Joel have. Your blog has been a witness to me…..of having faith through every walk in life. Thanks so much for sharing your journey and sharing your sono of your new precious gift. God is so good.ReplyCancel

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  • October 18, 2009 - 6:17 pm

    Nan - Praise God!ReplyCancel

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  • October 18, 2009 - 9:12 pm

    tripntwinmom - CONGRATULATIONS and praise God on your healthy little Mac…. :)

    Your family is in my thoughts and prayers as always…ReplyCancel

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  • October 18, 2009 - 10:07 pm

    Kristi - Oh, what a sweet baby! I am so glad you received another good report.ReplyCancel

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  • October 19, 2009 - 12:22 am

    Misty - i love reading your blog. again, i am inspired, empowered and strengthened.ReplyCancel

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  • October 19, 2009 - 7:09 am

    Givinya De Elba - Oh my heart was in my mouth as I read. My little sister’s tumour started in the same place – maybe that’s what neuroblastoma is all about?

    I remember that back in 1980, the doctors told my parents it wasn’t hereditary, and that I and my (future) siblings were not at any higher risk of the same thing. Is that still the current view?

    But you still worry don’t you? I have asked my doctor to check the tummies of all 3 of my babies, just to feel and see if there’s anything there that shouldn’t be there. (Just because my sister’s tumour was so large, and I’m guessing it could be felt.)

    What a beautiful picture.

    I wish I could bring your Cora back for you.ReplyCancel

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  • October 19, 2009 - 7:32 am

    leel - One more step forward. What a milestone. Yay for adrenal grand beauty and wonderful healthcare professionals who show emotions! It makes all the difference. Thanks for continuing to share it with us all! I am so happy for you, and your families.

    My prediction, a boy. I’m just saying… (my guessing record is EXcellent, btw!)

    Peace and love,
    leelReplyCancel

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  • October 19, 2009 - 8:45 am

    Robin in Benton - So happy for you! Praise God for those beautiful adrenal glands! Praying without ceasing for youReplyCancel

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  • October 19, 2009 - 9:03 am

    Miss Em - Simply Wonderful! God IS Great!!! I am so excited for both of you and keep you in my prayers.ReplyCancel

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  • October 19, 2009 - 11:42 am

    Lauren Kelly - So precious and soooo glad everything is looking good :)ReplyCancel

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  • October 19, 2009 - 2:27 pm

    Anonymous - Thought you might be interested in this link.
    http://www.zevsfund.org/ReplyCancel

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  • October 19, 2009 - 5:10 pm

    Sarah - Awesome news!ReplyCancel

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  • October 19, 2009 - 11:10 pm

    Lexie Loo & Dylan Too - I’m so happy to hear that the baby is doing well! He/She is beautiful!ReplyCancel

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  • October 20, 2009 - 12:55 am

    Princess Martha - Great news! Very happy for you :-)ReplyCancel

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  • October 20, 2009 - 8:49 am

    Judy - Praise God for another great doctor’s report!! I can’t wait to see that sweet baby’s face :)ReplyCancel

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  • October 20, 2009 - 9:05 am

    Sherri - YEAH for Jess and Joel! Congrats on another amazing blessing. What a great doctor taking care of you and sweet baby Mac. Of course we do know God is the Master of all Dr’s which is also pretty amazing. There is NO doubt He is by your side. Good to hear everything checked out great today. Hopefully these 10 weeks or so will go by quickly so you can have FULL arms again….I am sure Cora is looking down ahead and SUPER happy she IS a BIG sister :)ReplyCancel

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  • October 20, 2009 - 9:47 am

    Wendy McDonagh-Valentine - God bless you and that beautiful new baby!! Thank you for sharing that wonderful new picture with us. : )

    ~ Wendy
    http://Crickleberrycottage.blogspot.com/ReplyCancel

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  • October 20, 2009 - 11:55 am

    Karina - You have a beautiful baby there. I can’t wait to see him/her in your arms!!!ReplyCancel

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  • October 22, 2009 - 9:24 am

    onlymehere - I’m so happy to hear your wonderful news. I wish I knew what I was looking at in the photo. I think I see a hand though! CindyReplyCancel

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