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Where has time gone?
My little Levi will be six weeks old tomorrow.
I thought I should post this before two months creeps up on me.
He is already doing things like smiling and sleeping 6-8 hours at night.
Way to go Levi!

We love you so much Levi. Although we are still missing your sister everyday, you have brought so much love and laughter to our house again. You are such an incredible blessing to us. Here are some things I want to remember about your first month:

You grew out of your newborn diapers the first week you were home. Β You are now in size 1.

You also grew out of your newborn clothes. You are a growing boy! You are wearing 0-3 month clothes and I don’t know how long you will last in those.
You are starting to like your baths. No more screaming!
I love when you stare at me with those big, deep blue eyes.Β 
You are a spit up baby. Definitely not as bad as your sister, but my piles of laundry are multiplying.
You are starting to give us little half smiles. I think you will be smiling in no time.
You are still sleeping in your bassinet in our room. You wake up every 3-4 hours at night, but you are a good sleeper.
You have the hiccups ALL the time, just like when you were in mama’s tummy.
You are a true boy. Very noisy. You are definitely not a quiet baby and you are always grunting. I think you like to make your presence known.

At one month you are weighing in at 11 pounds 4 ounces. Obviously you are a good eater. You weren’t a big fan of getting stripped down to be weighed. You let the nurse know by peeing all over her. Β Oops!

I love you sweet baby boy.

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  • Kat - He is so precious!!!ReplyCancel

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  • Tiffany - I’ve never commented on your before but your family is such an amazing family. Cora and My son Samuel are the exact same age down to their birth date. I found your blog last year and have followed your journey. You’ve given me so much strength. Your story is amazing and I’m so glad the Lord has blessed you with Levi.ReplyCancel

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  • Lindy - What a handsome little man! I love the picture of him sleeping on your shoulder. I have a new grandson coming to visit next week. He is 2 months and I can’t wait to squeeze him. Bless you all!ReplyCancel

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  • Debbie S. - So sweet!!ReplyCancel

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  • Devon - aw, he is adorable…

    my little premie girl is 4.5 months old and weighs 11 pounds! she seems huge to me but i guess not…lol!

    i always think of your cora cuz my twin boys share her birthday…they live in heaven with cora now too.ReplyCancel

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  • The Parker's - He is adorable. He also looks like a little boy in the face. I know it sounds funny, but you know how you can’t tell w/ some babies? No question w/ Levi! I also hear ya about how little boys are so noisy! My daughter was so quiet, but my little guy is constantly making noise. Congratulations again!!ReplyCancel

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  • Sarah - He is so precious, Jess!ReplyCancel

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  • Julie - Such a beautiful baby boy!ReplyCancel

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  • Anonymous - He is so cute, I’m so happy for you guys you deserve this and a lot more, may God always bless him.

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  • The Sweigart Family - He looks a little like Esther in the one in the blue jacket. So sweet. I can’t believe how big he’s getting!ReplyCancel

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  • Nikki B - He is so incredibly gorgeous!ReplyCancel

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  • Robin - Your line about him bringing laughter into your home brought tears to my eyes. I have been praying for your family, and there is just something about a baby that is so joyful. I am glad he is there bringing you some much needed joy.ReplyCancel

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  • onlymehere - He is such an adorable bundle of blessings for you! I wish there had been blogging when my kids were little. What a wonderful memory album you have of these special moments with your children. Keep it up!ReplyCancel

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  • SouthernGalsBoutique - He is soooo cute!!! Makes me miss the baby stage! πŸ™‚ReplyCancel

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  • merlin - OK, my baby years are past, I have to bide my time for grandkids in the very far, distant future, BUT when I look at these photos of Levi, every cell in my body screams: I want him, I want that baby. Forgive me, please.

    I even dragged my husband to the computer, and he agrees, Levi is a baby like no other.

    But no, I can’t have Levi and there won’t be more babies. It is OK though, I can enjoy Levi through your blog, be happy for you, pray for him, and have a sweet spot for him in my heart.

    These photos make me feel JOY!
    Thank you.ReplyCancel

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  • gwswenson - Love, love, love, love, love your darling Levi!! What a sweetheart!! Thank you for the update, Jess. Always thinking of your lovely family.ReplyCancel

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  • Anonymous - Happy Valentine’s Day — and what a great post to kick off the weekend, Congratulations again on your son. You are always in my prayers.ReplyCancel

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  • It's just Mommer - What a sweet boy!ReplyCancel

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  • jen christians - Oh Jess,
    He is absolutely beautiful… I could look at those pictures all day. Precious. he makes me long to hold a newborn again. There is certainly nothing like a sweet baby, and I think God made your little man extra sweet.ReplyCancel

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  • meg duerksen - he’s so cute!
    i still have to get your present to you! since i missed the party. it was great chatting with you in the freezer section last week. πŸ™‚

    see you soon i hope!ReplyCancel

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  • Nan - What a cutie patootie!ReplyCancel

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  • Alex and Jill - He is such a beautiful baby!!ReplyCancel

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  • Beki - TheRustedChain - Jess, he is YUMMY!!

    (And you look so much like your mom in that picture.)ReplyCancel

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  • Kelly - Levi is absolutely precious, and I can’t believe it’s already been 6 weeks since you had him! My daughter had the hiccups a lot too when she was a baby. You might have heard of this but Little Tummies makes something called Gripe Water. You can get it in the childrens section at the pharmacy (near the gas drops). It’s amazing, and takes hiccups away in an instant. Just thought I would pass a recommendation along.ReplyCancel

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  • susy - God Bless you all!ReplyCancel

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  • Stef - he’s so cute, looks so cuddly and positively dreamy. Makes me want another boy….ReplyCancel

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  • Michelle - Wow six weeks… seems like only three. Scary when time not only flies for mommy but all the other people too. The pictures are so precious, thank you for sharing them.ReplyCancel

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  • Yankee Mama - He is such a gorgeous baby!!!!!!!!!!! Makes me want another!ReplyCancel

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  • Cori - What a beautiful little guy! You take wonderful pictures of him.ReplyCancel

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  • Diana - Mr. Levi is a truly handsome little man… so special and sweet! Love every one of those photos… look at his beautiful eyes! And he’s sure a-growing fast already!

    Praying bountiful good blessings on you guys!

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  • Danielle - He is so absolutely gorgeous I can’t stand it! πŸ™‚ReplyCancel

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  • twolittletots - can’t believe he is a month old…so cute!ReplyCancel

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  • Whimsical Creations - He is just precious!!ReplyCancel

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  • Emily - I’m a first time commenter as well but had to say that having a boy is SO fun! I have a boy myself and where I live I feel like I’m the ONLY one with a son so I’m thankful that you have little Levi so I can hear some boy stories πŸ˜‰ He’s precious!!!
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  • Anonymous - What a precious baby boy.
    You are a beautiful family, inside and out!! πŸ™‚

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  • Marianne - Been reading your blog for awhile, but not sure if I ever commented. You and your husband are inspiring! And by the way, you make beautiful children!ReplyCancel

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  • Wenbren Explains It All - what a wonderful gift the lord has given you!!I’m so excited that you guys had a baby, sooooo happy to find out, I’m just a stranger, but I have followed you guys for a while, just thought I should say how I’m feeling:)ReplyCancel

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  • Courtney - He is so SWEET!!ReplyCancel

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  • Lauren Kelly - He is so handsome. Going to be a hearbreaker!!!! πŸ™‚ReplyCancel

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  • Baylee and Blair's page - He is just the sweetest baby!!! SO cute and so big!

    Hugs – TiffanyReplyCancel

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  • Stacie - he is so beautiful!ReplyCancel

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  • Tressa - He is so precious! I LOVE the pic of you and him together! AMAZING! I am so glad he is a healthy growing boy!
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  • Anonymous - One other thing Levi is doing at one month?? Still being the cutest baby I have ever seen.
    h.o.l.y. c.o.w. is he cute!ReplyCancel

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  • Anonymous - He is beautiful! Even though I only “know” you from your blog and only saw Cora in pictures I definitely think little Levi has the same eyes as Cora in the 2nd from the last picture. You and Joel are such an inspiration. You embody Jesus’ grace and strength.ReplyCancel

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  • Christina - He is such a beautiful baby boy. What a face. He looks mature! I love the pictures with each of you…keep taking those! My husband and I were just noticing that we don’t have pictures of us with the kids. So, don’t stop doing that! πŸ™‚ReplyCancel

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  • Rambling Girl - Gift from God! Such a beautiful baby and his big sister, Cora is watching over Levi.

    I had a premmie and went trough a scare when she was born but happy she is a helathy five year girl today.ReplyCancel

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  • Geets - May God richly bless you and your beautiful son.ReplyCancel

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  • tara - he is just luscious and looks so so snuggly too! i know you guys are enjoying every tiny second with your new little man! bless your adorable family!ReplyCancel

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  • Tara - absolutely precious!ReplyCancel

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  • mommaof4wife2r - oh my word…he is precious! precious!ReplyCancel

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I think the giveaways keep getting better and better.
And Calla is growing, growing, growing.
Thank you for joining me in praying for the Johnsons.

Giveaway #3
This is what you will win:

Cora’s Dress – 3 months (long sleeve)

Flannel Baby Blanket

Nursing Cover & Burpie

Layered Bow & Crocheted Hat

Baby Girl & Baby Boy Blankets
Madivia Designs

Flower Onesie – 9-12 months

Camouflage Bow

Pink & Black Bow Set

Earrings

Bracelet
(This is my cousin’s new shop. She has great jewelry!)

Ruffle Bib

Felt Flower Headband

Thank you to the many people who have donated items for Cora’s for Calla.
My mailbox has been overflowing!

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Never look ahead to the changes and challenges of this life in fear. Β Instead, as they arise look at them with the full assurance that God, whose you are, will deliver you out of them. Β Hasn’t He kept you safe up to now? So hold His loving hand tightly and He will lead you safely through all things. And when you cannot stand, He will carry you in His arms.

Do not look ahead to what may happen tomorrow. The same everlasting Father who cares for you today will take care of you tomorrow and every day. Either He will shield you from suffering or He will give you His unwavering strength that you may bear it. Be at peace, then, and set aside all anxious thoughts and worries.

Francis de Sales

One year.
It is hard to believe my baby has been gone for that long.
On one hand it seems like it has been forever since I last got to hold her. I hate that feeling. But on another hand it seems like just yesterday we learned of her cancer and started fighting for her life. Either way, my heart aches today in a way that I can’t even describe to you.
It has been a year of sorrow. A year that I would have never chosen to walk through. A year that I could not have even begun to imagine. A year that I really didn’t think I could even live through. But in the deep darkness, the Lord gave us, and continues to give us, His unwavering strength to bear each day. And on those days when I didn’t think I could stand, He was always faithful to carry me. The same was true even today, a day I have been dreading for weeks.
So, here we are on Cora’s heavenly anniversary. Praising God that she is in His arms and that we can live in HOPE of seeing her again. But, at the same time missing Cora like crazy.
What do you do on a day like today?
Honestly, we don’t even know. Nothing seems quite right.

We decided to be low key today. Unfortunately Joel had to work part of the day, but the rest of the day we just spent together as a family. We gave our little Levi lots of extra hugs. He is such a blessing and was a wonderful distraction for us today.

Last night I made some yummy cupcakes cupcakes. This is becoming a trend for me. Cupcakes must make me feel a little better when I am sad. Sweets always make things better, right? I ate three today just in case.

I made lots of cupcakes. We decided that as we remembered our sweet Cora today, we wanted to take time to thank the many people who took such good care of her while she was sick. While we were in the hospital with Cora we met so many amazing people. During an incredibly horrific time in our lives, they made us feel so loved and taken care of. They loved Cora so well.
After Cora died we didn’t get a chance to tell them thank you. We thought today would be the perfect day to do just that.

I packaged up the cupcakes and attached beaded hearts with thank you tags. Joel and I took a few to Newton today. It was “something” we could do as we remembered Cora today. The rest were delivered to the hospital by a friend. We weren’t feeling up to walking back into the hospital today.Β 
We hung out around the house this afternoon. And we went out to eat this evening. That was our day. Nothing special. It may look different next year. But, as I write this we have almost made it through Cora’s first heavenly anniversary.Β 
Just like every other day this past year, we have felt so loved today. We can’t believe how many people remembered the significance of this day. We have had so many cards, e-mails, and phone calls from people just to remind us that we are loved and prayed for. You all have been such an encouragement to us today. Thank you from the bottom of our hearts!
Thank you for continuing this journey with us. We are thankful for how far the Lord has brought us this year–a year we didn’t know if we could survive–and anticipating what He has in store for our family in the year to come!


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  • Anonymous - Happy Birthday, Cora! I know your mommy and daddy must miss you something terrible, but I’m sure your sweet baby brother is giving them lots of sweet smiles and snuggles for you.

    What an incredible family! God bless!ReplyCancel

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  • Momma H - You ARE loved and prayed for – by people you don’t even know, or know very little. Your journey has impacted so many lives, and I see you as a living example of the passage you started this blog with.
    We all thank God for you and for sweet Cora’s life, short though it was. Praise the Lord that she is with Him and you can look forward and not just back. Back is too painful and it is past. Forward – to heaven – when we finally get there – will be so beautiful and bright. Thank God for His hope and love to carry you through!ReplyCancel

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  • Anonymous - we’ve been praying for you all today (you and your families)…i wish i could say something that would lighten your hearts load so i will just pray that Jesus will be the lifter of you hearts and heads as you put your heads on your pillows tonight…-meghanReplyCancel

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  • Launa - On our knees for you all tonight!ReplyCancel

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  • Mindy M. Harris - my little wilder, 18 months had to be in the hospital to have a bone scan, and such a minor procedure completely crumbled my heart. the love of a parent towards his child is inconceivable, indescribable. i’m sure Jesus would speak the same of us.
    thank you for your words, for bringing truth to the pages of the internet. cora has much to be proud of.
    lots of love from your friend “once removed” ha!ReplyCancel

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  • Rachel E. - What an incredibly selfless thing to do today. Praying for you and Joel tonight.ReplyCancel

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  • Anonymous - I can honestly say, there hasn’t been a day that has passed that you/Joel or Cora haven’t been thought about or prayed for by my family. My 23 month old daughter has a doll I’ve named Cora. She reminds me to pray for you and hold my daughter (and son) a little tighter. May God continue to be glorified through you and Joel.ReplyCancel

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  • Megan - I’ve thought of and prayed for your family often over the course of the last year, and I will continue.ReplyCancel

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  • Heather - Oh how my heart aches for you. I still remember that day when I sat down to read the latest update on Cora and my heart literally stopped and a short wail escaped my mouth. I just couldn’t believe it. My heart broke for you, it still does. And this coming from someone who has never met you or Cora. I can’t even begin to imagine being in your shoes. I continue to pray for you guys and I pray our Lord will wrap you in His arms and bath you in His everlasting love. Love and prayers to you and Joel <3
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  • Kristi - I just want you to know that even though we have never met, I think about Cora and you all EVERYDAY! Your in my prayers. God bless your precious little Levi. πŸ™‚
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  • Kristin - What a beautiful way to celebrate the life of your sweet girl. There IS something about cupcakes that makes me smile. May you continue to find strength in God and one another.ReplyCancel

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  • mel @ the larson lingo - Thinking of you & Praying for you as you remember your sweet Cora. May God continue to show His love to you & your family.
    p.s. Love the cupcake idea, that is so thoughtful & kind of you.ReplyCancel

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  • Sue - Well, as I sit here and type this message from so many miles away, it’s 8:49 on Tuesday morning on 9 February and Cora’s anniversary day will be over. I’m sure that as you wake up today to face this new day, you’ll feel lighter and brighter. Kids are such a blessing and Levi is one special little guy!!ReplyCancel

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  • Kylie and crew. - Praying for you….what a sweet treasure you have stored up in heaven…although not the path you would have chosen, she is there and will be when you get to heaven. Thanks for continuing to share and be open. You both have a mighty call on your life (not because of your loss but because of your hearts).ReplyCancel

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  • Stef - I prayed for you over and over again today. We celebrated my son’s 5th birthday on the 6th and as we sang Happy Birthday to him, my heart broke for you.

    Your joy and trust in the Lord is infectious and I am so thankful to know you via your blog πŸ™‚
    May this new year be one of much healing, peace and pressing on.ReplyCancel

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  • Lara - I have been reading your blog for a little while. You inspire me. That short verse by Francis de Sales spoke to me. You encourage me with your strength. Thank you. I will never understand loosing a child, but I do know this, your family is amazing. Thank you for sharing Cora’s story. I am blessed knowing there are such good people out there who can turn to God in their most troubled times. May God Bless you in your heartache. I want you to know that I KNOW you will see Cora again…my faith has taught me that. Thank you again for sharing your faith.ReplyCancel

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  • JJC - just wanted you to know that i still think about you almost every day even though we’ve never met. thank you so much for sharing cora with us and for being honest about your grief. it reminds me to have just a little more patience and to live a little more in the moment with my little one who is just 3 days older than your sweet cora.ReplyCancel

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  • cara - I just read this and couldn’t not comment…and I’ll say a prayer for your lovely family tonight. What a hard day to go through, even knowing Cora is so happy, but just missing her so much…You all have touched me, and I do check in on your blog. You are so creative Jess!! I love creating things, mostly out of fabric (really, I like buying fabric πŸ™‚ ), and making things look pretty. Your pictures are wonderful, and the things you make do inspire me, thank you! Your baby boy is just precious, I am so glad you have him! I have 4 young kids, and for some reason, when I see pictures of your Cora, she reminds me of my youngest…Anyway…just know people are praying all over for you all…(I’m up here in Alaska..)ReplyCancel

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  • dg darling - I cried today just as I did a year ago when Sweet Cora passed away. I had never met your family but oh how you changed my life! My own baby girl is close in age and as I’ve watched her grow over the past year I have thought of Cora, and prayed for you, often. I have held her tighter and enjoyed her more and thanked you in my heart for giving me perspective. Thank you for sharing your journey then, and now. May your healing continue and may you always know that Cora will NEVER be forgotten!ReplyCancel

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  • Melody - Praying for you guys tonight. ((hugs))ReplyCancel

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  • Carla - Oh Jess, I watched the blog so closely yesterday, willing an update as reassurance you were ok. Of course, how could you be ok but even though I don’t know you, it was awful thinking of how hard yesterday must have been for you. My little girl and I said a special goodnight to Cora last night after she was in my thoughts all day, as were you all. Your words reflect such strength and warmth and peace, so devoid of bitterness I can hardly comprehend it. Wishing you continued strength and the knowledge that there are so many of us out there carrying a tiny part of Cora in our hearts and loving her yesterday, today and every day xxx. PS, the cupcakes look wow, you are so gifted at making pretty things (and I’m including Cora and Levi in that :-))ReplyCancel

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  • tifRn - Oh, you Macs. you are just the best family. you give me such hope and inspiration when i am lost or feeling like i am floundering. thank you so much for allowing us at wesley to share your story and to take part in your journey. cora was-is-a beautiful girl and i enjoyed taking care of her. i remember being in with you when she was diagnosed and leaving to get you tissues, and just crying in our utility room before i brought them in. i thought of you today when i saw those pink cupcakes, and i am putting the pink heart on my mirror in the my car to remind me to keep my own heart open and my eyes on God’s road for me. God bless you all.ReplyCancel

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  • Mum2twopreciousgifts - Dear Jess

    You’ve made me cry. On a day of such significance for you and Joel, you’ve done something for others through your beautiful cupcakes. You are extraordinary.

    I feel Blessed to have ‘met’ your family through your blog. I feel Blessed to have prayed and continue to pray for you all during your journey. I feel Blessed to have cried happy tears for you when Levi arrived. I feel Blessed that you inspire me to be a better Mum when I’m running out of patience and I’m asking God why he chose to give us a child with disabilities. And you remind me to accept God’s plan, disabilities and all, and to smile, rejoice and be grateful for my Blessings.

    Thank you for sharing Cora. Her life has forever changed me – for the better.

    With a big hug from our little family in Australia.ReplyCancel

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  • Princess Martha - What a wonderful idea to send cupcakes to the hospital. The way they were packaged up was lovely. You did well. I hope today went as well as it could have for you. I am sure Levi loved all the extra cuddles. xxReplyCancel

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  • Sara - Samuel’s angel day is always hard for me. I think that you did a really nice thing by taking a “thank you” treat to the amazing doctors and nurses who cared for sweet Cora.
    Hold tight to Levi. His sweet face will help get you through the rough days.
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  • The Noble Steeds - Your strength and faith is so inspiring. Thank you for choosing to handle your grief the way you have. You have been such a great example of a true disciple of Christ.ReplyCancel

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  • Anonymous - Although you don’t know me, I too spent most of my day yesterday praying for you guys. It’s hard not to remember the date since it’s my cousins birthday too. Because of this it will be easy to remember Cora’s Heavenly Birthday in the years to come. I also had an idea I wanted to share with you that some dear friends of ours came up with. They lost their son 35 minutes after birth. Now every March 6th they have a “family day” in celebration of Zeke’s life. Jessica said it’s a day she looks forward to now in a special way.

    Love and Prayers from Olathe, KS!ReplyCancel

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  • Mandi - You’ve been on my heart a lot during the weeks leading up to Cora’s heavenly anniversary. I’ve been praying for you and Joel and asking the Lord to continue giving you his unexplainable peace.

    We are about to lose our first child but in a different way. My husband and I are foster-to-adopt parents. Last Sunday (1/31) a newborn baby boy was placed in our arms and we were excited about the possibility of adopting another sweet baby boy. As the week went along we found out a relative has stepped forward and wants to parent our little guy. We’ve been told he will be leaving sometime in the next few days.

    Our hearts are broken and we don’t understand. Instead of being in the arms of Jesus I’ll know he’s in the arms of someone else that I don’t know…I won’t know if he’s being loved the way he deserves and this is hard. This is going to be another journey with a whole new test of my faith but I know God is good and faithful and will carry me through.ReplyCancel

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  • Anonymous - You and Joel continue to amaze me. Your love for others and the strength you’ve shown during this past year is tremendous. I think of Cora all the time and wish I could have met her although I feel like she is a part of my life because of your blog.
    Levi is a true blessing and God certainly had a plan!
    Sending many hugs and sweet thoughts your way from WI.ReplyCancel

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  • Jennifer Gilbert Settle - Happy Birthday pretty girl!! I am not sure that I know any words to comfort your hurting heart other than that I will continue to pray for your family…that that you would feel wrapped tightly in His loving arms!!ReplyCancel

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  • Toni :O) - I’m thankful to be part of your journey, I think of you all every.single.day…but oh how I wish I could have eaten one of those yummy looking cupcakes…wow, those are some really lucky people to get to enjoy those. Here’s hoping every day that passes eases your pain a bit and fortunately you have sweet Levi to lift your spirits and squeeze tightly. Big hugs to you all and may continued love and prayers surround you.ReplyCancel

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  • Brandi - I have been praying for you since found your blog. A year, wow! What a beautiful little angel you have!!! What a sweet gesture for you and Joel to do on Cora’s 1 year anniversary. The cupcakes look yummy!!!!!!! Praying for you!!ReplyCancel

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  • Tammie - I have been praying for you too; Thank you for sharing your journey of faith, pain, tears, and hope. In Christ, TammieReplyCancel

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  • Anonymous - Because of you, your honesty and deep faith, I have grown closer to Him. The verses and scriptures you have shared here really caused me to reflect on my on beliefs– and witnessing you and your family walk through this difficult year has made me a different person– a better person. Maybe a little bit of Cora lives inside all of us who know her only through her Mom’s pictures and words posted on a blog. You love her and honor her so very well— and I am so happy Levi has joined your family too.ReplyCancel

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  • Julie - Remebering Cora…ALWAYS!ReplyCancel

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  • hoosier68 - Thank you for sharing with us. Your unwavering faith and courage are amazing. I think of and pray for you and yours each day.ReplyCancel

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  • Alli Unruh - You and Joel have been on my heart the past two days, and I’ve been praying for you.ReplyCancel

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  • Heidi - I am sorry you have had to go through this. Your little girl was/is so blessed to have/had you both as parents. May here little soul be blessed.ReplyCancel

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  • Susan - The angel day is such a hard day. Thank you for having the courage to write about it and to treat it the way you felt was right. We tend to ignore the angel day around here. I tell people I miss him just the same as the day before and the day after and I don’t feel like giving the day any weight. I felt pressure, the first year, to DO Something. I had seen other angel parents do balloons and other special activies while we just wnted to ignore it. Then I realized the day was about us and just like all the other grieving, we had to do what felt right to us.

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  • purejoy - happy heavenly anniversary, i know it seems off to say “happy,” but happy is the hope we have in Jesus. cora you are missed by so many, and we cry tears of sadness and of joy. so thankful that your little brother is there to fill their empty arm, and he’s so blessed to have a big sister looking over him in heaven.

    sweet blessings to you, dear mac family.ReplyCancel

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  • Ruthie - Praying for your whole family. Thank you for sharing your journey with us. You inspire me. You remind me of God’s goodness and presence even amidst trial and heartache.

    Ruthie – a blog reader from OhioReplyCancel

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  • A - I was thinking of you on her heavenly anniversary (hug). I am so glad you got some great family time, and those cupcakes look BEAUTIFUL! Maybe you should add a cupcake division of Cora’s πŸ™‚

    I pray that you will feel God close in the coming days!!ReplyCancel

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  • Melinda - I’ve never met your or Joel, but I can honestly say that you are in my thoughts and prayers every single day. As a mom I can’t imagine experiencing what you have, and my heart aches for you.

    What a wonderful way to celebrate little Cora. I’m sure Cora was quite tickled by the beautiful cupcakes that you made in her memory.

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  • MCH PHOTOGRAPHY - Awh, my thoughts are with you & your family!! What journey you’ve been thruReplyCancel

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  • The Drama Mama - It sounds like you guys had the perfect heavenly day! You guys are always in my thoughts and prayers! Sending lots of prayers, love & HUGS your way!ReplyCancel

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  • JESSICA - Your words always bring a tear to my eye, but your hopefulness and positive outlook bring joy to my heart. Levi is blessed to have you as parents.
    Those cupcakes look DE!LICIOUS!! The people who received them must have been grinning from ear to ear. πŸ™‚ReplyCancel

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  • meg duerksen - love love love.
    love you both.
    love cora.
    love levi.
    you are loved by me.
    and my family.

    the cupcakes with the hearts?! that is the best jess! seriously great idea. cupcakes DO bring joy…you are RIGHT!ReplyCancel

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  • Anonymous - What an awesome adorable way to spend your day. It only shows us all even more how amazing you are by spending such a difficult day thanking those that were there for Cora when she was sick. You are amazing. You are definitely loved and prayed for by MANY people. Now and forever. You are such an inspiration…Cora and Levi are two very lucky kids:)ReplyCancel

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  • dawn - It sounds like you spent your day as best you could.

    Our four month old son Aidan went to be with the Lord almost 11 years ago, and so we’ve done this day you describe ten times now. In some ways it get’s easier and in some ways it doesn’t. It sometimes sneaks up on me and my somber mood the week approaching surprises me until I look at the calendar. it’s like my body knows. weird.

    We don’t do much special on Aidan’s heavenly anniversary except hold each other tighter. But on his birthday each year we honor him with a family night. We go out to dinner and do something special with our other two kids. Aidan’s birthday is our own holiday–a day to remember a special boy, a day to remember the way God has sustained us, and a day to celebrate our family.

    But I agree with you–nothing seems quite right. so glad you have Levi to hug on this day.ReplyCancel

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  • Megan - I was thinking of you and praying for you yesterday – knowing that it would be especially hard.ReplyCancel

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  • Andy and Cari - 1 Thessalonians 4:15-18
    According to the Lord’s own word, we tell you that we who are still alive, who are left till the coming of the Lord, will certainly not precede those who have fallen asleep. For the Lord himself will come down from heaven, with a loud command, with the voice of the archangel and with the trumpet call of God, and the dead in Christ will rise first. After that, we who are still alive and are left will be caught up together with them in the clouds to meet the Lord in the air. And so we will be with the Lord forever. Therefore encourage each other with these words.

    Did you catch the word TOGETHER?

    Peace, love and comfort to you today.
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  • All Doll(ed) Up - Beautiful post, Jess. I am so thankful for the way you have let God carry you two and continue to let him be the source of your hope. It is so encouraging and challenging to SO many of us. We love you guys.ReplyCancel

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  • Miranda - We have thought of you almost daily for the past year and have held you in our hearts every second. It’s understanding that you wouldn’t know how to celebrate this day, but you have chosen to do it in a wonderful way.
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  • Stephanie - I ahve read your story for about 9 months or so, and please know that I pray for your family every time. I am praying know that God will bless you, your husband and sweet baby boy beyond any imagination! You are so loved and happy anniversary to your precious daughter in Heaven!ReplyCancel

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  • C&Gs Mommy - I have prayed for you over the past year and thought of you all day yesterday. I think you are such an amazing woman and an amazing family. You are an inspiration to me as a mother and as a person. You have no idea how your strength and faith has made me a better mom to my 2 daughters (age 2 and age 2 months) Thank you for sharing so deeply with us.
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  • Al's World - You are all an inspiration, and a testimony to God’s faithfulness. You are loved, and prayed for. Again, I am so glad you had precious Levi to hold and snuggle on a day like this. God bless you all!ReplyCancel

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  • Emily - Your words encourage all of us to lean on Christ, for he is our rock and salvation. Your sweet Cora was such a beautiful child and I know she is in heaven swinging and playing with Jesus today. Thank you for sharing your story. You touch our lives beyond what you can imagine. And your little Levi is precious! With love from Arkansas!ReplyCancel

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  • Angela - You and your family are an inspiration! You make me think twice about life and how important family is. Happy Heaven Day sweet little Cora!ReplyCancel

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  • Robin in Benton - I was thinking of you and praying for you yesterday as you celebrated this anniversary of a day that was too painful to be imagined and at the same time joyous as we know that Cora is held safely in God’s hands and is watching over all of you from heaven until you get there to see her again. You continue to inspire and encourage others with your faith. God Bless You.ReplyCancel

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  • Anonymous - I can not get your family out of my thoughts and prayers. You may not feel like you are strong but you are incredibly strong. Our son was born very ill – for 6 months, doctors tested and tested for various cancers. While God continues to give us love and strength, I will never be the same again – and there was never any cancer! My son is now five and lives with a blood disorder – but he is VIBRANT & HEALTHY. I love how you place your focus on giving to others. You are reminding me to keep my focus on today and not in the past and to trust God’s plan. Take care of yourself, be kind to yourself, allow gentle grieving, and know you are an inspiration and a blessing to me. God bless you and your entire family.ReplyCancel

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  • Miss Em - Extra prayers to you last night and extra kisses for my daughter in honor of Cora. You are loved. The cupcakes are such a wonderful idea. I am so glad that so many people contacted you to remember Cora. It does help even if they don’t know what to say.ReplyCancel

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  • Ellen Grant - I have never commented before, but I started following your journey this day last year. I had a 2 year old daughter and I was pregnant with my second at the time. Your faith and walk through grief stuck a very deep chord in me. All I can say is, thank you for being so authentic and open and vulnerable. I have learned so much about grief, death and rebirth… how fragile life is and how our days are numbered and each is to be treasured. I miss Cora, too, and I have no connection with you at all, except through stumbling across your blog…All I have is a mother’s heart–that’s the only way I can relate at all. I am crying tears with you. (I hope it’s ok that I comment. I just wanted you to know that you are being thought of and prayed for in Nashville!)ReplyCancel

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  • Molly - I am still so very sorry for your loss. I can’t imagine what it must feel like to lose such a precious gift. But your faith amazes and astounds me and also gives me hope for this life and the next.

    I hope you know that your story has touched so many. I thought of Cora the other day when I saw a newborn with the same name. I wondered to myself, does this baby know how special her name is? Probably not. But I will definitely never forget your story. I will never forget Cora and think of her often.ReplyCancel

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  • leel - i thought of you both multiple times yesterday. a year, already? time flies and stands still at the same time once again for you, i imagine. thoughts and hugs to you.ReplyCancel

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  • SGreen - In some ways I can’t believe it has already been a year. I think about your family often and I wanted to thank you for being such a wonderful example of living in God’s faith and love.ReplyCancel

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  • Janine - I was thinking of your family all day yesterday. Your faith through all of this is inspiring. Cora’s life has touched so many people around the country and probably around the world. God Bless.ReplyCancel

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  • The Carroll's - Wow! I saw the title of this post and can’t believe it has been a year since Cora went to be with Jesus either. It was just a few days earlier that I learned of your blog and started following your story. I still have her sweet picture on my fridge that I received with one of the items I ordered from Etsy. It’s a reminder to me to pray for your family and to praise God for each day I have with my kiddo’s. My daughter is only a few months younger than Cora would be and we just had our son less than a month before your welcomed sweet Levi so I feel very connected to the season of life you are in. Thank you for continuing to share your heart and story with us. My faith has grown because of yours. Continuing to pray.
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  • Marla Taviano - Love you guys. Cora’s sweet story has touched my heart in a way I can’t explain. Praying for you!!ReplyCancel

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  • Erica - i thought of you so much this week. saying a prayer of strength for you even today. i cannot believe it’s been a year, i remember sitting and crying (with you i’m sure) reading about cora. may God continue to pour his hope, peace, strength, & blessings over your family. you are loved by family, friends, & strangers.ReplyCancel

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  • Townsend Crew - …when I didn’t even think I could stand…

    Jess, your words are so powerful!
    As is your faith.
    What an incredible woman you are -somehow standing today. God is so proud of his creation!

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  • Melissa Joy - What words are there to express to you right now?
    I don’t know.
    But I am praying for you.
    Crying with you.
    Grieving with you.
    Praising with you.
    Clinging to the hope of Heaven with you.ReplyCancel

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  • shepherdsgrace - It is beautiful that the Lord led you to thank those who cared for Cora…in your sorrow…you gave thanks…that is a beautiful gift…

    thank you for sharing your hearts with us and His sufficiency in your brokenness…

    when I grieve over an anniversary I don’t normally articulate it, I just sit in it…because I know it will pass….but the pain is still there…but with time, it seems to be decreasing…

    I had a miscarriage 2 years ago this week, and there are 2 little boys at church that are the age our baby would have been…

    I look at them and smile, knowing my Father does all things well…and I rest in that knowledge…ReplyCancel

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  • The Perfect Trio - You are still very much so a part of my daily thoughts and prayers!!! For someone that I don’t even know you mean so much to me.

    Blessings,
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  • Anonymous - The Francis de Sales quote was exactly what I needed to hear today. Thank you!ReplyCancel

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  • Beki - TheRustedChain - Thinking of you. Loving you. Praying for you.

    Every single day.

    You may not know it, but you’re incredible.
    God bless you Jess.ReplyCancel

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  • Abby Johns - I remember how I felt a year after my mother passed away from cancer. I felt like the pain would never subside, like I would feel that way for the rest of my life. I leaned so hard on God, I prayed for him to take the pain from my heart. The second year was a mixture of feelings from the first year and being able to go some stretches of time without feeling completely lost. I am happy to say that now, more than 4 years after her passing, I feel healed, I feel that I can look back on my time with her thankfully without completely breaking down.

    I pray for this healing for you and your family. I prayed for Cora when she was sick, I cried when she passed and I am thankful that you have continued to share your story because it is a reminder to live in the present with my little one.ReplyCancel

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  • Yankee Mama - You have such a sweet heart. Praying still.

    Blessings to your little family.

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  • Anonymous - You continue to be in my thoughts and prayers. You are an incredible family and I look forward to your posts coming to the blog almost daily. Just wanted you to know I admire you so much and you are just an incredible mother. Your family is so lucky to have you and I am sure Cora is so honored to have you, Joel , and Levi as well.
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  • Anonymous - I am so sorry for your loss. I am praying for you today and everyday. Today makes 4 years since I lost my daughter at 3 months old. You inspire me and helped me find my way back to the Lord. Thank you for sharing your story.ReplyCancel

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  • Nan - You two are a picture of God’s grace… Thank you for your godly response (and that includes the raw emotions, admissions of anger and anguish and wrestling with God.). You are such a great example of Christian joy…. That joy is not a plastered on smile when hellish circumstances are upon us but it is simply in laying it all down at His feet and entrusting yourselves to His providence and care. Peace be yours this day…ReplyCancel

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  • Brigid - Thinking of Cora and all of you today on her angel day. I continue to think and pray for you and your family everyday and read on as you travel this journey. I don’t know what it is about cupcakes, but we have done the same thing in memory of our little girl πŸ™‚ReplyCancel

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  • Lindsay - You continue to inspire me with your faith. To watch you give so selflessly in thanks to others on a day that is unbelievably difficult for you leaves me in tears. Praying for you now and everyday.ReplyCancel

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  • Anonymous - Sending love and hugs your way and we are also remembering your sweet girl. Even though we’ve never met your family was heavy on my heart yesterday.
    God bless the Macs πŸ™‚
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  • Christina Egner - What a sweet gesture & beautiful way to remember your sweet Cora today.

    Wouldn’t it be a great tribute to your little girl to add her new little brother to your blog banner?

    {just thinking out loud}

    Love & Blessings from Pooh’s Corner.ReplyCancel

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  • Anonymous - I’ve prayed for you so many times throughout this difficult year. I knew yesterday would be terribly hard for you and Joel. Your beautiful postings often glow with God’s love, grace and presence. Sweet Cora has touched so many lives…many who you’ll never meet here on earth.

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  • Kristin Stegent - I can’t imagine how incredibly hard yesterday and the days leading up to it must have been. I ache for you guys. I cannot even stand the thought of the pain you must feel some days. You guys are precious! Cora is a beauty who will long be remembered, thought of and talked about. I wish so badly she was here with you, Joel and her baby brother though!ReplyCancel

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  • HannahM - Thinking and praying for you, yesterday & celebrating Cora’s sweet life.ReplyCancel

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  • The Schilling's from Cimarron - Hello…….. I didn’t blog on Monday for the fact that it was a very hard day for us too. Thinking back on the times together and the overwhelming emotions we shared together. We still think of you all the time and miss baby Cora, even though we didn’t get to share in the fun times of her life. Hope to meet Levi soon and just know we are still wishing you lots of love and happiness everyday! take care and we miss you lots!

    love you,

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  • Juliann - praying for you today, as you begin a new year. praying for peace, comfort and covering (Psalm 91).

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  • Kristen - What a beautiful passage at the beginning of your post, hopefully that kind of thinking has helped you a little bit during this time that I imagine must be about the hardest thing to go through. Your continued strength and thoughtfulness (the cupcakes!) are certainly inspiring.ReplyCancel

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  • Amanda - We miss Cora TONS – and we always will.

    Love you guys lots!

    I could use one of those happy cupcakes right about now.ReplyCancel

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  • Amy - Hoping you had a peaceful day yesterday. Those are hard days.ReplyCancel

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  • Tricia - Your honesty and faith continue to inspire and encourage me.
    My heart aches for your pain today.
    What a lovely way to celebrate Cora and her very special doctors and nurses! The cupcakes were, I’m sure bittersweet to those kind folks, but what a beautiful way to show your love and appreciation.

    I am saying all the wrong things today, I’m afraid.

    Please just know that you all continue to be in my heart, and that Cora has touched the lives of every member of my family. Every one.

    With love and prayers,
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  • Christine - You were on mind so much yesterday and we prayed for you as we do so often. Your sweet Cora and your family have impacted so many lives and brought such inspiration and stronger faith to so many. My daughter turned a year old on the day that Cora met Jesus last year. So yesterday as she turned two, I also thought of dear Cora in Heaven looking down at her new baby brother and loving parents. We continue to pray for you and your family although we have never met. Sending you lots of hugs and blessings!!ReplyCancel

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  • Kelly - Sometimes I feel like I dont know what to say. What will be comforting to you? I just want you to know that I love your family, I love your strength and I love your faith in God. I dont think I ever knew you could really love someone without having ever met them before. You are so blessed and Cora is blessed to have you as her mommy.ReplyCancel

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  • Marianna - What a sweet thing to do on Cora’s first heaven anniversary. When you wrote you baked cupcakes and I scrolled down, I thought “WOW, you did make lots of cupcakes!”. I have no doubt they brought joy to many people’s lives today.
    A nice way to show the love of Christ. Praying for an extra measure of peace today.
    Your blog writings are a blessing to me.ReplyCancel

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  • mrstolli - I was thinking of you and praying for you just yesterday beacause I knew this day was coming soon. I’ve been praying for you for quite some time. I may never meet you and your dear family on this side of heaven, but I feel like I know you so well. I pray for you all the time and find myself shedding many tears for you. I can’t imagine what you’ve gone through, but I know that God has a plan even when we don’t understand. You are in my prayers!ReplyCancel

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  • Courtney - HAPPY HEAVENLY BIRTHDAY CORA! My heart aches for you today I know all to well the pain. Praying for you always.
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  • Patti - I had just started following your blog via a prayer request through another blog when Cora was diagnosed. I remember checking in on the blog, praying for healing and I saw the post that said she had gone to be with Jesus. I was at work and got up from my cubicle and went and SOBBED in the bathroom. Her story changed the way I appreciated my own 4 month old at the time. Thank you for keeping up your blog, it is inspirational. Cora was an amazing child.ReplyCancel

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  • Kathy Hardison - May comfort be found in knowing that people are thinking of you today and I am praying that God will carry you through this day and the days ahead. I am sure Cora is in the arms of Jesus tonight being given a tight hug.ReplyCancel

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  • THE ZELLERS - Knowing Cora through your blog has changed my life as a mother. Thank you for sharing your family with us– little Levi is such a DOLL! We are thinking of and praying for you today.

    xo

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  • 50 Chubby Toes - I’m at a loss for words ~ as tears are streaming down my face, my eyes are turned towards heaven, asking our Father to give you and your husband the comfort & love you need right now. Oh how I know He’ll answer. Blessings, EMichelleReplyCancel

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  • k and c's mom - Oh, sweet family, I know this road has been a rough one for you…You all stay close in my thoughts and prayers. And I thank you for the encouragement you have given me in my own journey through grief. You have no idea how much your words have helped me.
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  • Alexa - beautiful Cora has been with Him for a whole year.. I’m sure she’s dancing with the king! β™₯ You are so brave! Thinking of you and sweet Cora today and every day!ReplyCancel

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  • Ginger - I thought of you all day… I pray that God continues to use little Cora’s life. I wish she could meet Levi… he is so blessed. I’m so sorry that you have this kind of anniversary… you will continue to be in our prayers.ReplyCancel

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  • nate - hi jess and joel. i love you guys so much. we prayed for you today at our staff meeting. i miss you and cora, too.

    lots of love from florida,
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  • nate - did i mention that i’m proud of you? cuz i am. you’re showing us how to hope in the resurrection of Jesus.

    He is risen. Thank God.

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  • Tristen@blissfulchaos - I have stumbled upon your blog about 5 months ago and have been amazed by your family. In spite of such a devastating experience, you seem to find the strength to help others at any chance you get. You are truly admirable. Your story has deeply touched me. I continue to read back to before this blog was a tribute to your daughter, but just a regular blog to pride about your daughter. As I read all your posts, I feel your pain and my heart hurts for you and your family. I also followed your journey with your second pregnancy and when the news came that you had little Levi, I feel like I know him! I’m so happy for you that you have God, an amazing family, and a new bundle of joy to help heal your sadness.ReplyCancel

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  • The Idaho Olsens - Thinking of your family on this day…please know that you are loved.ReplyCancel

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  • Christina - What a sweet thing you did. And as hard and awful and unimaginable as this year and day have been, I smiled when I read,”I ate three just in case.” I hope that’s all right that I said that. I think that when we can enjoy life in spite of the sorrow then God is manifested. You all show that quite well. Like many others I have this feeling of wishing I could make something better. But only He can, and will continue to do so. In His hope…ReplyCancel

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  • Jennifer - Big hugs to you on this extra difficult day. My sister died 27 yrs ago and my mom and I still always go out for lunch on her birthday and the day she died and talk about our memories of her. I was only 3 at the time so it’s nice to hear about her and know that while I might not have a sister to call up on the phone, I *do* have a sister, a real one, she just lives up in heaven. Little Levi’s got that too. A real sister in heaven, one that will always be a part of your family. Hang in there. (((hugs)))ReplyCancel

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  • Melissa.M.Loss - I remember reading that she was gone and though I do not know you all personal I was so shocked and sad I cried for you all so so much and Wish that no one ever had to feel this type of pain. I sit here today and cry knowing how hard it is to miss some one so so much and then have a beautiful little miracle to love at the same time. I was awaiting Levis arrival for so long then moved the day before he was born so I did not find out until last week that he was here and a boy! I am so happy for your blessing and so so sad for your loss. I hope that with each passing day you can keep coping the best you can. Thank you for sharing your life with us all it really is so helpful to see others faith and love in such a hard time. Levi is soooooooooooo Handsome and I know his big sister would have loved to hold him.ReplyCancel

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  • Lauren Kelly - What a sweet way to remember Cora by making and delivering cupcakes. And glad Levi was there to bring you a sweet distraction! Love ya’ll!ReplyCancel

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  • Anonymous - Your family is never far from my thoughts, and always in my prayers … especially on this heavenly anniversary.

    How blessed you are to share life with sweet Levi. He is an absolute doll. I’m sure he gives you many reasons to smile each day!

    “Yesterday is history.
    Tomorrow is a mystery.
    Today is a gift …
    That’s why it’s called the present.”

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  • gina - I have never met you. I am not sure I even commented her before – maybe once. But I have learned your story and prayed for your story through messages and love on other blogs. So today, know that you are loved and thought about from people you can never even imagine know your story. Know Cora’s. God Bless Baby Cora , forever.ReplyCancel

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  • run26.2mom - The cupcakes look yummy. Another amazing act of your true genuine spirit and heart, remembering others on such an emotional day. We remember you this time of year and continue to pray for you and your beautiful family.
    Peace.
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  • Emma and Company - I thought and prayed for you all on Monday. I thought of Cora as well, thank God you will be able to see her again!ReplyCancel

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  • Lexie Loo & Dylan Too - You have been in my thoughts and prayers this week. This had to be an unbelievable difficult day for you. I think the cupcakes were a beautiful way to celebrate Cora’s life.ReplyCancel

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  • Valerie Koop - I pray (and cry) for your family often.

    We have never met, but the day you posted about Cora and the cancer … it rocked me to the core. I realize now it was because my husband has stage 4 cancer and when I learned of Cora it was yet to be diagnosed. The biblical verses you posted spoke to me; that this was a journey we were on, too.

    I read your blog daily because I find that God speaks so loudly through it. On days when I struggle with faith I read many of the passages you have written and it soothes me so much.

    May the Lord continue to comfort and hold you.

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  • Rich and Carolyn Dewey - We continue to pray for you. May the God of all Comfort wrap His arms around you and give you PEACE! Thanks for sharing your open, hurting hearts with all of us. You continue to give to us in ways known only to the Lord himself!

    Thinking of all four of you!

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  • Just the Two of US - You are a strong woman and I will continue to pray for you and your family!ReplyCancel

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  • laura - Jess for overa year I have read your Blog you truely inspire me. Your an awesome Mommy & Wife you always have creative ideas,Levi must be a great baby to allow you the time to make so many cupcake for the people that took care of Cora. Your family will always be in my thought & prayers.
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  • Audrey - Have been thinking about your family non-stop these past few days, knowing it was getting close. Life is full of little blessings, Cora was just one of so many!ReplyCancel

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  • Kristi REDISKE - What a great thing you have done to remember your Cora and the people who were able to help so much. I think this is such a great Christian witness also-you inspire me to do more for others. I would like to know where you get those cupcake holders and how you make your tags-so very cute! You are very talented, giving-its obvious what your spiritual gifts are. Still praying for you all.ReplyCancel

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  • Heather - Been thinking of you this whole week. You are so creative Jess! I love the bows on the cupcakes..WONDERFUL IDEA!! Praying God continues to comfort your hearts.

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  • Stephanie - What a beautiful way to remember a very beautiful child. I was a reader of your story just as it began to unfold last year. I have remembered you all in prayer and hurt with you throughout the year as well. May God continue to bless you with courage, strength, a lifetime of memories, and most of all, HOPE.ReplyCancel

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  • Jenifer's Journey - Happy Birthday Cora! Many of preys to your mommy and daddy to get threw this terrible daysReplyCancel

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  • Tall Pipi - I came across your blog for the first time on your baby’s heavenly anniversary. Thank you for sharing her story and your continuing journey. It is such a blessing to read and be reminded of what faith really looks like. In NZ we are way ahead of you in hours, but my prayers for you on this day stood the test of time. I’m glad your day just ‘was’. I look forward to reading more of your journey. Thank you for making the most of what the Lord has given you.ReplyCancel

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  • purplemoose - I don’t think there is a “right” thing to do on this type of day. I think you are amazing to think of others and to thank them. God bless you and your family.ReplyCancel

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  • Anonymous - He never promised the cross would not get heavy
    And the hill would not be hard to climb
    He never offered victory without fighting
    But He said help would always come in time
    Just remember when you’re standing in the valley
    Of decision and the adversary says give in
    Just hold on, our Lord will show up
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  • Amanda Nicole - Thank you so much for the cupcakes and hearts! The cupcakes were rumored to be the best we had ever had!!! Seriously you made those!?! I need the recipe! They were fantastic! And they came in handy on a very rough couple of days in the PICU. Thank you so much. Your beautiful Cora and family have not been forgotten up in PICU. We think and talk of you all often especially those of us who have kept up with your blog and have loved seeing you grow and bring lil Levi into the world. He’s a handsome lil guy!ReplyCancel

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  • GAMZu - What a long time to be missing your girlie. I’m sorry about your pain. πŸ™

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  • Candi - I’m so sorry for your loss. I remember reading your story last year, and I just found your blog once again. Your family is in my prayers. On a positive note, congratulations on your handsome little guy!ReplyCancel

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The winner of Giveaway #2 is…



Kristen Buckwalter!
Congratulations Kristen.
I will be e-mailing you soon so that we can get your package in the mail.

Thank you again for giving so generously.
We have raised $1300.00 for Calla and her family.

My mailbox has been overflowing with packages this week.
There are so many new and beautiful things
that we will be giving away in the weeks to come.

Happy weekend!

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  • Christina Egner - Calla’s family is so blessed to have you in their lives.ReplyCancel

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  • Mr. and Mrs. B - YAY! Looking forward to it πŸ™‚ReplyCancel

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  • Lori Wiltse - Sweet Jess,
    Just wanted you to know I was thinking of you. I’ve been dreading Monday for you all week. Hugs from Andover to u and Joel, LoriReplyCancel

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  • Angie - Thinking of you today and praying.

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  • Townsend Crew - I found you last January – as your life entered a dark tunnel and you invited me to join with you in prayer and support. I have checked on you and prayed for you every day since. I have learned so much from this walk with Cora. Through your unbelievable witness of faith, dedication to your marriage, and your display of HOPE, my faith has been strengthened. Thank you for sharing your journey with us – the unknown prayer warriors. What a beautiful tribute to Cora’s short and purposeful life here on Earth. May you have some peace today, knowing that Cora’s short life served a great purpose! We give thanks for her today!
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  • Beki - TheRustedChain - Thinking of you, crying for you, praying for you today.

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  • Anonymous - Thinking of you and praying for you today.ReplyCancel

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  • Andrea - Praying for you today. You’ll be heavy on my mind and heart. ((hugs))ReplyCancel

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  • Steph - Thinking of you and praying for you today.

    Those who have been ransomed by the Lord will return. They will enter Jerusalem singing, crowned with everlasting joy. Sorrow and mourning will disappear, and they will be filled with joy and gladness.” Isaiah 51:11ReplyCancel

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  • Misty Rice - Think of you guys and Cora today. I can’t believe its been a year. Its hart to not let your mind wonder about “what would she have been like today” “how long would her hair be” “what words would she be saying” ….. oh the aching feeling of missing her so much.

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  • Jane In The Jungle - Thinking of you all today…Praise God that hope is eternal.ReplyCancel

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  • Karina - Thinking of you today as well.ReplyCancel

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  • Anonymous - “HUGS” Thinking, praying with tears for you today.ReplyCancel

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  • Anonymous - Jess – Your story is inspiration to many, including me. Thanks for letting me peek into your family for the last year or so. It’s been a transitional period during my life, and I’ve learned alot from you. Thank you. Thinking of you and your family today and always.ReplyCancel

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  • Kimberley - Thinking of you and sending some extra prayers on this difficult anniversary.ReplyCancel

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  • Anonymous - Joel and Jess-
    Praying for you today and always. I can’t even begin to imagine the roller coaster of emotions you have been on in the last year. Thank you for sharing this incredibly difficult journey with us. Through your blogging you have touched so many with Cora’s story. I know through your journey I have walked closer with the Lord. You have shown me that no matter the circumstance to always give thanks and I am forever grateful for that! Sending you hugs today and will never forget your sweet Cora and the impact she has made on many!ReplyCancel

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  • Toni :O) - Thinking of you all today….Big hugs and continued prayers to you all and hope Levi eases your pain and grief a bit.ReplyCancel

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  • Graceful Moments - Lifting you up in prayer today. What an inspiration your family has been to so many people. God bless you! My heart aches for the hole that remains in your hearts for your precious little one.ReplyCancel

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  • Amy - Thinking of you today.ReplyCancel

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  • Suzy Q - Praying for you today!ReplyCancel

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  • Gail - Praying for you today, Joel and Jess. Love you–Robbie and GailReplyCancel

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  • Erica - You’re on our hearts today. May Father walk you through another hard day. Lots of love! Marvin & EricaReplyCancel

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  • kaylin rose and mara anne - i am thinking of you and joel today…my heart goes out to the both of you. praying for you.ReplyCancel

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  • Anonymous - I have been following you silently since April. My son was born March 15, 2008. I found your blog looking for March ’08 babies. I am so sorry for your loss. I think about your family every day. Stay strong. God bless.ReplyCancel

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  • Micah - Thinking of you today and always, and *praying* that God will give you an extra measure of peace, joy, and hope to make it through the day.ReplyCancel

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  • Caroline - Praying for you today. I am sure Cora is dancing in Heaven and watching over baby Levi.

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  • The Schaab Family - You don’t know me, but I am thinking of you today, and praying for you and your husband. How your story has changed me, to soak up every moment, and leave everything to God. Thank you, and God Bless!ReplyCancel

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  • merlin - Extra prayers today on this day.
    Cora is remembered.ReplyCancel

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  • mommaof4wife2r - many prayers for you…so honored that you have shared yourselves on this blog. my high school girlies in small group on sunday were talking about how reading and keeping up on your blog has strengthened them. thank you!ReplyCancel

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  • MaryBeth in PA - Holding you close in prayer today. Your sweet little Cora will forever have a very special place in my heart.ReplyCancel

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  • susy - I can’t believe it has been 1 year since Cora went to be with Jesus. She has touched so many lives even those who didn’t know her personally. God Bless you Cora and your family here also.ReplyCancel

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  • Auntie Mip - LOving The Mac’s today as Cora is remembered! May we all live a little better because of Cora’s 341days and thefaith which her parents exemplify…even in grief.

    God Bless The Mac’s!!!ReplyCancel

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  • Lisa - Joel and Jess (and little Levi:)
    Thinking of you today and praying for you today. Hugs to to all of you!
    Lisa Hart
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  • Anonymous - Thinking of you today, as in everyday..with a heavy heart and lots of tears. Your precious Cora has touched so many..Thank you for continueing to share with us. Love the picture(actually love all the pictures)but saw a new one on Mandy Moments blog.Love it…so precious and heartbreaking. Lots lots and lots of prayers coming your way!

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  • The Bohrer's - Joel and Jess, I don’t really know what to say, just felt led to leave a comment today. Just know that I am praying for you and your families especially today. Our little Levi was born less than a week after Cora and I think about you so many times when I look at him. HeidiReplyCancel

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  • Shuggamom - Praying that GOD will comfort you with His peace,surround you with His love and you will feel His presence.

    Kiss sweet Levi for us!!!

    Love,

    Stacey
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  • Anonymous - You are in my thoughts and prayers today. Your authenticity and hope despite such heartache has encouraged me as I grieve the loss of my 22 year-old brother. Praying that you are overwhelmed with the peace that passes understanding as you remember your precious little girl today.ReplyCancel

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  • John and Elisa Seaba - Thinking of you guys today!!ReplyCancel

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  • Anonymous - just wanted you to know i said a prayer for you and Joel today-that you both would feel grace in abundance!!! I have to tell u how you’ve inspired me…God was using your faith and testimony and i was drawn to this blog and your words months before i would say good-bye to a little son this past September. Little did i know i know before i had experienced death of a child how i would come back even more for encouragement. After hearing u talk of the book “Hope” i got 1 for myself and it was so much what i needed. Thanx!!

    God bless you and your family and i celebrate Heaven becuz of Cora and my little Malachi and MANY MANY others who are worshiping and having the grandest of times there.It must be AMAZING!
    Hugs to you today-i’m sure it’s difficult!!!
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  • Alaina - Jess & Joel~
    Praying for you today….ReplyCancel

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  • Makin' Me Crazy - Thinking about you and your family today.

    God Bless~

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  • Anonymous - Thinking that today must be so difficult and hoping that a message of support from a stranger who cares makes even the smallest of differences. Your faith, honesty and strength are admirable. Sent with wishes for peace and hope to you and your husband. xReplyCancel

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  • Anonymous - Thinking of you today, and praying for you. Shedding some tears, too, even though I’ve never met you or sweet Cora. Your precious daughter has touched my life, and I’m thankful to follow your blog, read about your faith, and catch glimpses of your sweet new son. {hugs} DonnaReplyCancel

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  • Beth - Praying for you always, but for today especially.
    May Jesus be evident in every moment of this day. May you find joy in your son while missing his big sister.
    Blessings to you, Jess, Joel & Levi!ReplyCancel

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  • Roma - I just wanted to let you know I am thinking of you today. Another family I know lost their son to cancer exactly 5 years to the day that Cora joined him in Jesus’ arms. Many thoughts and prayers to all of you today and always.ReplyCancel

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  • Anonymous - Thinking and praying for you today!ReplyCancel

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  • Cathy - There are no words… thinking and praying for you today.ReplyCancel

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  • Anonymous - Joel and Jess-I am praying for you today. Your unfailing faith in our Lord has truly been an inspiration to me and many other people. Cora’s story touched my heart and your faithfulness has been a wonderful reminder of how to be good and faithful servants. God Bless you and your family.ReplyCancel

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  • Anonymous - Praying that God will wrap his arms around you today and give you comfort, strength, and peace.ReplyCancel

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  • Anonymous - Thinking of you on this difficult day, and knowing that Cora is smiling down at her baby brother. Hugs and prayers!ReplyCancel

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  • Holli Taylor - Hmmm…what a question Julie posed on her blog. How has Cora’s story touched or changed our lives? I can tell you that I hold my baby a little tighter, love my God a little more and pray for even half the strength and faith that you both have in our Lord. I know this day can’t be easy, but in another way it is just yet another day here on earth without sweet Cora.

    Thanks for sharig your story and your lives with the world. How amazing that Cora touched so many during(and especially after) her time here on earth. How sweet heaven’s lullabys must be…praying tonight that you find much peace in the thought that Cora is resting is Jesus’ arms.ReplyCancel

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  • Jill - praying for you today.ReplyCancel

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  • The Gleasons - Jess and Joel,

    You are in my thoughts more than ever today. Sweet Cora has touched my life so much. I don’t think a day goes by when I don’t think of her or my love for my own children. I have come to love your little family so much and have so much admiration for you. God bless you all.

    Much love,
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  • rentz - Joel and Jess,
    Been praying extra today.ReplyCancel

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  • merlin - The day is winding down, still thinking about and praying for you. Today I’ve thought this is a sad day, but just now thought, it is a day to celebate Cora. I hope there were moments of joy along with the disbelief and tears.ReplyCancel

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Giveaway #2
Here is what you will win:
Cora Dress – 3 months
Bug Swaddle Blanket & Burpie Set
Striped Swaddle Blanket
Cupcake Onesie – 3 months
Toddler Dress
Boys Tie T-shirt – XS (4/5)
Flower Felt Clippies
Bow Clippies
Western Bibs
6.5″ x 9.5″ Custom Designed Boutique Message Board (stand included)
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I keep forgetting to mention that Sara at Sarah and Abraham designed the Calla blinkie button.

Isn’t it great?!
All of her stuff is beautiful.
She even has some adorable custom Valentines right now.
If you have time, go check out her store.
Thank you Sara!



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