Crafting isn’t making that hole in my heart go away, but it sure helps. It is good to have something to do. It is good to spend time with my mom. It is good to be crafty. We are working hard to get all of our projects done and our etsy shop open.
Can you believe it? Cora is famous. Joel was reading through our comments and noticed a comment that said there was an article about Cora on Etsy. We headed over to Etsy and there it was. Our picture and everything. Crazy! Thank you Beki for writing such a kind article about our family. Thank you Julie for thinking of this great way to support Cora’s Playground through Etsy. Thank you to the MANY people who are giving of their time and talents towards this project. You guys are awesome! Words cannot express how humbled we are to see so many people rally around us in this way. Thank you!
We went back to church today. It was the first time we had been back since Cora had been in the hospital. I thought I would be ok. Saturday had been a pretty good day. I was wrong. Emotions overwhelmed me as we walked in. I think I cried through half of the service. That’s ok, I know. It is just hard to go back to “normal” things when you don’t feel normal at all. I was thankful for all the hugs and smiles. It was good to be surrounded by friends.
One more thing. My mom and I wanted to join in the Etsy fun. We have been crafting our brains out this weekend. It has been good therapy. Hopefully our shop will be up and running in a day or two. More on that tomorrow…
After many people suggesting that we get away after Cora’s celebration service, we decided to follow their advice. We headed to Colorado to have some time alone and try to process how our lives have changed so quickly.
It was good to get away, but so hard at the same time. It was good to be together. It was good to be able to talk and cry together. It was good to be in the beautiful mountains. It was good to be able to go skiing and snowmobiling and be able to laugh a little.
But, it was so hard too. It was hard to have time to really think through the past four weeks. It was hard to be on a “vacation” without our Cora. It was hard to be at the cabin where we had taken Cora on her first family vacation just this past summer. It was hard to think about all the fun we had together and know that she is now gone. So many memories.
I don’t even like posting pictures anymore. I want Cora to be in them. But, here we are. This day we went snowmobiling and it snowed the entire time we were out. It was beautiful. We didn’t get any pictures when we went skiing, but the day we went was sunny and just perfect weather. The mountains were beautiful and I couldn’t help but to think about how GREAT and LOVING our God is as I looked at his beautiful creation. Joel got to laugh at me wiping out several times. The next day we both laughed a lot because we could barely walk. We are a little out of shape.
“Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. I say to myself, “The Lord is my portion; therefore I will wait for him.” Lamentations 3:22-24
I have never felt more consumed in my whole life. I am so thankful for our compassionate God and so thankful that His compassions are new EVERY morning. This is definitely a day-by-day process. Thanks for loving us and encouraging us along the way.
Wow! We are so overwhelmed by the love that is being shown to us. Friends, family and even strangers are supporting us in ways we would have never imagined. It is incredible how our little Cora, whom we miss SO much, is leaving such a legacy.
Our emotions are mixed. We have such a HUGE hole in our lives without Cora. We miss her so much! We can hardly believe what has happened in the last three weeks. We cry A LOT. Wishing we could just hold Cora one last time. At the same time we are awe strucken by how God is using her little life. Cora’s story is causing others to want to have a deeper relationship with their families and walk closer with the Lord. We are humbled that God is allowing us to be a part of this. So thankful for God’s mercies, but hurting so deeply too.
I probably won’t blog for several days as we try to adjust to our new “normal”. Please continue to pray for us. We need your prayers more than ever as we journey through this hard time. We are thrilled that everyone is excited about The Cora Playground. Thank you to those who are donating their time, money and talents to this cause. We will share more with you as the project gets underway…
“My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.” Psalm 139:15-16