This week I have been asked to go WAY out of my comfort zone.
Last week we had been contacted by the Newton Kansan (our local paper). They wanted to do a story about Cora’s Playground and wanted to interview us. If you know me you will understand that this is totally outside my box. I am a pretty private person and would rather go unnoticed than be in the spotlight. I know you are laughing…there is no going back now!
We agreed to do the interview and met with the reporter on Monday. She was very kind, but the interview was really hard for both Joel and me. Harder than we thought. She wanted to know all about Cora and I started crying the first time I opened my mouth. But, we made it through. We felt like it was an opportunity to share what God is doing in our lives. That’s why we did it.
The article was published in today’s paper. You can read it here. I don’t like having my picture on the front page of the paper AT ALL. But, it was awesome to read about Jesus in our local paper.
Today when I got home (I had just read the article), my phone started ringing. I looked at our caller idea and it was Channel 12 News out of Wichita. I thought there was no way that it could be a reporter. But I was scared that it was and didn’t answer the phone. As I listened to the message I couldn’t believe that someone would want to do a story about our little Cora. They did! They wanted to interview us today and air the story on tonight’s news.
I just cried because I didn’t know what to do. I just waited and thought. Twenty minutes later she called again. I knew I needed to answer the phone. She wanted to come to our house in two hours to talk to us. I told her I needed to talk to Joel and I would call her back.
I am not a good decision maker. I don’t like talking publicly, especially in front of a camera. Not to mention I didn’t think I could get through an interview without crying again. But, I knew this was another opportunity to share the love of Jesus…with LOTS of people.
I called Joel. I prayed that if we were supposed to do the interview that Joel would say we needed to do it. Of course he was hesitant, but he thought we needed to say yes. After all, it is not about us. We are here to glorify God. This might be our opportunity to do just that. We prayed that He would give us the words to say.
So here we are…
This is for all the locals. Our story will be on the 9 o’clock news (on Fox) and the 10 o’clock (Channel 12) news after the basketball games.
We are praying that God would be glorified through this story!
My soul is weary with sorrow; strengthen me according to your word.
I haven’t blogged this past week because this is how I feel…”weary with sorrow”. Wondering how long I will feel like my heart is crushed. Wondering if life will ever feel “normal” again. Wondering why God allows us to go through such painful things. Just sad.
You might remember me mentioning a boy named Tony. He lost his fight with cancer just a few days before Cora did while we were in PICU. On Friday I got a call with the news that Tony’s dad had been killed in a farming accident. Joel and I feel such heartache for this family. We can’t even imagine dealing with the loss of another loved one on top of losing Cora. Please pray for Tony’s mom, Olivia, and his four siblings who are facing such hard days.
I was thinking back to our days in the hospital. I remember writing on our blog that God’s Word had been so alive and relevant to what we were facing during those horrible days. It was.
That is still so true today. God’s Word is the only thing that is getting me through these days. People’s kind words and time with dear friends and family helps so much, but it can’t sustain me. My relationship with Christ and the HOPE that I have in Him–that is what is getting me through these hard, lonely days. I long to read the Word each day because it comforts me in a way that only HE can.
The LORD is close to the brokenhearted; he rescues those who are crushed in spirit.
I am so thankful that I serve a God who is so close to me and my family on this journey.
Joel and I went to a small Christian high school here in Kansas. Joel grew up here. I moved here when I was a sophomore. We were high school sweethearts.
This school has loved us so well through Cora’s time in the hospital and after she went to be with Jesus. Even the basketball teams have found a way to show their love.
Ivy (Joel’s sister) is a senior at Berean. Owen (my brother) also goes to school there and is a junior. They are both on the varsity basketball teams.
Both teams just won sub-state and are heading to state this week. I sent my friend Laura after the boys to try to grab a picture after the game. They all got their shoes in and then decided they wanted the trophy in the picture too. They said that this win was for Cora! That will make you teary eyed.
Thank you for remembering our little angel. Thank you for showing so much love and support to our families!
Go Warriors–TAKE STATE!
All eighty-eight packages are mailed.
Our little small town post office had a booming business today thanks to all of your orders.
I just added some new things to our store. Not much, but a little to tide you over until we get back to work.
We made it through Cora’s birthday. The weather was just beautiful. We celebrated Cora’s precious life, but our hearts ached to have her there with us.
It was so amazing to picture the many pink balloons that floated towards heaven that morning. Even Joel’s brother in China sent up a pink balloon. Thank you for remembering our sweet Cora and for lifting us up in prayer on Thursday.
The mama in me just had to do something for Cora’s birthday. We were too sad to have a party, but I just had to do something birthday-ish for my little girl. I thought we at least needed some cupcakes. I even tried out Megan’s homemade icing. It was yummy!
I thought Cora would like pink and green sprinkles on her cupcake. My sister thought she needed some stars too.
These ladies helped me decorate. I am so blessed to be surrounded by such an amazing family. Did you notice our flower pins? We wore them all day in honor of Cora. Thanks Julie and Beki!
I just cried as we ate our cupcakes. We were supposed to be watching Cora in her highchair eating her first cupcake and making a huge mess. We were supposed to be laughing and sharing in the joy of my sweet little girl’s first birthday.
Cora never even got to taste cake. But my mom reminded me that there were so many things Cora DID get to do. She and my dad even made a list of all the “firsts” Cora had with us. All the things we did together. We have so many precious, joyful memories. That is what I have to remember. Not what we didn’t get to do with Cora, but all the things we DID get to do together.
I would do anything to spend more time with my baby, but I am so thankful for the eleven months she was here. I am so thankful that God chose me to be here mama for those eleven months. Happy Birthday sweet Cora!