It has been two months since our little Cora went to meet Jesus. 

How could two months have gone by already? It seems like we just left the hospital. The things that happened in the hospital replay in my mind like it was just yesterday. 
But, it seems like forever since I got to hold my baby. Forever since we were laughing and playing together. It is hard to even describe. Time is moving forward and yet the ache in our hearts is so intense and new.  Somedays seem a little better, but some days it seems like the pain is getting worse.
I listened to the Watermark song that was sung at Cora’s celebration service several times today. The words are so true to how I am feeling.  I miss Cora in EVERY way.
Miss you everyday
Miss you in every way
But we know there’s a day when we will hold you
We will hold you
You’ll kiss our tears away
When we’re home to stay
Can’t wait for the day when we will see you
We will see you 
But baby let sweet Jesus hold you
’til mom and dad can hold you…
You’ll just have heaven before we do
You’ll just have heaven before we do
And today I am longing for that day when my tears will be wiped away.
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  • April 8, 2009 - 11:14 pm

    Heather - Joel and Jess,

    I was just thinking about you guys and praying for you. I was reading through this blog and your post just came up! I am lifting you up right now to Jesus.

    I am so sorry.

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  • April 8, 2009 - 11:28 pm

    The Moffats - Thought about you ALL day…wish I was there to give you a big hug. Love you.ReplyCancel

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  • April 8, 2009 - 11:31 pm

    MidnightMom - I prayed for you last night as I went to sleep, and was wondering how things are going. I was glad to read of your weekend together; one more step towards healing and towards a different kind of future.

    From one Mom to another, I wish words could ease your pain; I wish I had a way to take away the ache you have in your heart.

    I will hold you up in prayer tonight, and tomorrow. God be with you as you walk this road.
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  • April 8, 2009 - 11:31 pm

    Phoenix's Mom - I can’t say I know what you are going through, but please know that we pray for you both.ReplyCancel

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  • April 8, 2009 - 11:32 pm

    Marla Taviano - My heart aches, aches, aches for you. I love that song–can’t wait to meet Cora in heaven!

    Loving and praying for you!!ReplyCancel

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  • April 8, 2009 - 11:33 pm

    Adam and Vel - I stumbled upon your blog when your baby was diagnosed with cancer. I have followed it since. I have a baby Cora’s age, so it struck me hard when she got sick. I don’t know you, but my heart aches for you and your family. I cannot imagine how terribly sad you are and how you must miss Cora. I find myself reading old posts and am in disbelief how quickly things happened and how 2 months have now passed. I just want you to know that a stranger (sister in Christ) is praying in McAllen, TX. I pray that the Lord will dry your tears and heal your broken heart as only He can. I read a blog you wrote where you said you hoped you would handle a tough situation with grace and you have. I admire your strength and witness in such a time as this.ReplyCancel

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  • April 8, 2009 - 11:37 pm

    Anonymous - I’ve been thinking about you guys all day. I pray that one day you will smile more and cry less. It has to be so hard. Not a day goes by that I don’t think about your family and sweet Cora. She has forever changed me as a mother and as a christian woman. God bless you.

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  • April 8, 2009 - 11:44 pm

    Amy - Here is another SIC (sister in Christ) praying for you both. I have no words. I can only say that with the way that so many in our country have turned their back to our Lord, it is beautiful to see you clinging to Him.

    May God bless you both.

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  • April 8, 2009 - 11:44 pm

    Kim, Aaron, Jake and Jack - My heart still breaks every time I read one of your posts. I am sure I will never know you here on earth, but I can’t wait for the day I get to meet you and your sweet Cora with Jesus one day. Blessings on you and Joel.
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  • April 8, 2009 - 11:45 pm

    purejoy - oh, i think about you all the time. two months. my heart aches for you. and i wish there was something that would make it better.
    you all are grieving with such strength and openness and dignity. honoring God with each step.
    and i love that watermark song and i remember when they first sang it. it broke my heart then and it’s breaking all over again. thank you so much for faithfully sharing.
    i am certainly praying for you.
    and i would still like a cora’s playground button for my blog. do you have the link/code?
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  • April 8, 2009 - 11:52 pm

    Christina - Oh, how I long for that day for you…I don’t have anything else to say. I continue to think of and pray for you both. From your previous post, your smiling faces bring me to tears…and this does too. I wrote this a while back but didn’t share it. I hope it’s okay to do so now…
    http://www.fivewalkers.com/?p=1546
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  • April 8, 2009 - 11:54 pm

    Erica - i can’t believe it’s been 2 months. my heart still aches for you as it did 2 months ago today. my prayers are with you that you will be strengthened with the strength only Christ can give. you are such an inspiration. little cora was so blessed to have you as her momma!ReplyCancel

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  • April 8, 2009 - 11:58 pm

    Jessica - Ohhh…bless your hearts.
    I cannot imagine your pain. You are thought of every day.

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  • April 9, 2009 - 12:00 am

    Kimberly - praying from Texas.ReplyCancel

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  • April 9, 2009 - 12:19 am

    kate - I am so inspired by your faith. I am encouraged by your hope in the Lord and your steadiness in the comfort that only He can provide.
    I am so sorry for your pain and loss.
    I pray the Lord is always by your side as you walk through this incredibly difficult time and that you continue to feel His peace. Many hugs to you and your husband.ReplyCancel

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  • April 9, 2009 - 12:39 am

    Anonymous - Praying for you, I read this the other day and I cry, but is so beautiful.Guess what mommy & daddy,
    Heaven is great.
    Just like you said,
    There’s not much longer to wait.

    Guess what mommy & daddy,
    I have a guardian angel who comes at night.
    I told him I wanted to go,
    But the times not right.

    Guess what mommy & daddy,
    My angel came this morning.
    While you were still in bed,
    He came with a warning.

    Guess what mommy & daddy,
    When I left with June.
    So you could rest some more,
    I knew my time was soon.

    Guess what mommy & daddy,
    When you were finally out of sight,
    I told my angel,
    The time is just right.

    Guess what mommy & daddy,
    When you still didn’t know I was gone,
    My angel put his hand in mine,
    And I was no longer stiff or sick,I felt so happy & fine.

    Guess what mommy & daddy,
    When the hospital called,I saw you crying from above.
    I saw daddy & how scared he was,
    And I knew how much I was loved.

    Guess what mommy & daddy,
    On the way to the hospital I heard you pray,
    Don’t let them bring me back,
    I know you don’t want God to take me away.

    Guess what mommy & daddy,
    I saw you walk into the ER,and ask is he gone.
    I saw the look on your face when the nurse said yes!
    It looked like you’d never go on.

    Guess what mommy & daddy,
    I seen you holding me tight.
    I kissed you good-bye with my love,
    And tried to tell you I was alright.

    Guess what mommy & daddy,
    There’s no more pain,
    You can go on with your life,
    And not feel so drained.

    Guess what mommy & daddy,
    I’ll watch you all your days through.
    And be like your guardian angel,
    Just because, I LOVE YOU!!

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  • April 9, 2009 - 12:42 am

    Lexie Loo & Dylan Too - Thinking about you. You and your family are still in my prayers.ReplyCancel

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  • April 9, 2009 - 2:45 am

    Lori - May the Lord wrap His arms around you and hold you tight. Thinking of you and praying for you!!!!!!ReplyCancel

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  • April 9, 2009 - 5:48 am

    Chris - My heart aches for you . Thinking about you several times a day .
    Cora has change me forever and I didn’t know her.
    Someday you will be together again.ReplyCancel

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  • April 9, 2009 - 5:54 am

    Misty Rice-Baniewicz - Sometimes I hate leaving comments, because I often find myself with no words and then when I try I feel I come off rambling….

    But my heart always wants to comment, if you read them all or not… but I have to let it be known to you and your family, that although your pain is still very new and very very painful, and the world is just flying on by. I have not forgotten.

    In fact yesterday it didn’t come to mind that it was Two Months already…but there was a long pause period out of no where in which I felt the urge to stop what I was doing and just stare and hold, smile and play with Morgan. It really came out of nowhere. And every time I do that, the first name that comes to mind is Cora. Then a list of others like Isaac, Sage etc. As I look at Morgan I realize how the pain I feel knowing this is what others moms are hurting and missing from right this very moment.

    It hurts.

    I love that song and its so true…as I sit with tears rolling down my face early in the morning and still dark outside… I pray, pray, pray that God continues to hold you and protect you only the way HE can.

    You may feel alone in all of this but there are so many that lift you up in prayers and shed tears with you… although our pain cant even compare to your pain, our heartache and tears are very real for you and your family and your loss of that beautiful little sweet girl Cora Paige.

    Cora Paige!
    Cora Paige!

    We love you and miss you, Cora Paige.

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  • April 9, 2009 - 6:30 am

    hoosier68 - Holding you & yours in my daily thoughts and prayers.ReplyCancel

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  • April 9, 2009 - 6:46 am

    Miranda @ Traveling Treasures - You are in my thoughts, prayers and heart. Thinking of you and sweet Cora always. Hugs to you.ReplyCancel

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  • April 9, 2009 - 7:24 am

    Courtney Kay - Praying for you… I love that songReplyCancel

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  • April 9, 2009 - 7:34 am

    Anonymous - My heart hurts so much for you! I too cannot believe that it has been 2 months..Let yourself shed your tears and miss your sweet baby girl. I imagine time will heal but I am sure that you always miss your Cora.

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  • April 9, 2009 - 7:35 am

    Stephanie Lane - Amazing song…..Joel and Jessica, I’ve never met you, but you are so often on my mind and in my prayers. I know that my heart aches for you; how much greater is the love the Father lavishes upon you!

    Praying for you.
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  • April 9, 2009 - 7:43 am

    Tina - Jess -

    I am still praying and thinking of you. I bought a little burp cloth from Etsy before Cora’s birthday and I haven’t been able to put it up quite yet. It is going to go in my “hope” dresser drawer in what would have been my baby’s room when I feel like putting it in. I think of Cora & our baby every time I see it.

    Your blog friend -

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  • April 9, 2009 - 7:47 am

    Megan (mommyesquire) - I think about Cora and your family all of the time. I am continuing to lift you in prayer.ReplyCancel

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  • April 9, 2009 - 7:55 am

    Julia - Just wanted to let you know that there’s someone else that doesn’t know you but thinks of you and prays for you.ReplyCancel

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  • April 9, 2009 - 8:03 am

    Toni :O) - Continuing to pray for you from Michigan. I’m still waiting on my Etsy bag that helped to support Cora’s playground. I can’t wait to have that daily reminder of your beautiful little cherub. I know words aren’t always enough, but I wish I could somehow ease your enormous amount of pain. We all are continuing to lift you up in prayer.ReplyCancel

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  • April 9, 2009 - 8:05 am

    Anonymous - Praying for you.
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  • April 9, 2009 - 8:06 am

    Robin in Benton - No words just tears and prayers for you

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  • April 9, 2009 - 8:19 am

    Micah - May God bless you and give you peace this very day.ReplyCancel

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  • April 9, 2009 - 8:32 am

    Whimsical Creations - I think about you and your family often. I wish I could take the pain away. No one should have to experience the loss of a child! My heart aches for you.

    I am so sorry!
    *hugs*
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  • April 9, 2009 - 8:35 am

    Audrey - Jess, my very being aches for you. I hope that you can find some comfort in the new life that was promised this Easter and everyday, even for your little girl.ReplyCancel

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  • April 9, 2009 - 8:49 am

    mommyof2sons - My heart aches for you. I can’t even imagine your pain. I am praying for you!ReplyCancel

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  • April 9, 2009 - 8:51 am

    amanda wintersteen - I found your post today through another blog and my heart broke when I read it. It is really hard to lose a baby. I lost mine at 5 months old almost a year ago due to a failed kidney. She was my life and I know how you must be feeling. Your family is in my thoughts and prayers and I wish you peace to make it through. I know I’m a stranger but my name is Amanda and if you just need to vent or talk I will listen. My email is amanda200888@aol.com God Bless you!ReplyCancel

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  • April 9, 2009 - 9:05 am

    mandi - Continuing to pray for you!ReplyCancel

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  • April 9, 2009 - 9:27 am

    Heather's Home (aka Chez Hez) - There are no words I can say to take away what you are going through, just know that we are here for you and we’re praying for you and Joel. <3

    ~ HeatherReplyCancel

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  • April 9, 2009 - 9:32 am

    Anna - Bless your heart…((hugs)) to you as you miss your sweet Cora! Jesus, hold Joel and Jess in the palm of your hands…give them peace.ReplyCancel

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  • April 9, 2009 - 9:36 am

    Kelsey - I am now crying after reading the lyrics from the song…so sorry aobut what you are going through, I couldn’t imagine. Your faith is an inspiration!ReplyCancel

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  • April 9, 2009 - 9:43 am

    Beth Ann - I think of you and your family often – my heart aches for you. I have no words, only tears. I could never be strong enough to continue on.

    Praying for you in Iowa.ReplyCancel

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  • April 9, 2009 - 9:46 am

    Emilie - Praying for you both… its hard to believe its been 2 months. Just wanted you to know that you are in my heart and in my prayers.ReplyCancel

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  • April 9, 2009 - 9:53 am

    Ethansmom08 - I was praying for you last night for quite a while and will continue to do so. I wish I had something more comforting to say, but I can’t think of anything that could even begin to ease your pain. All I know to do is pray, I think about your family and Cora everyday and always will.

    Love,
    Sara

    That song makes me cry everytime I hear it, so beautiful and filled with hope.ReplyCancel

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  • April 9, 2009 - 10:08 am

    TRICIA boutellefamilyzoo@yahoo.com - Prayers and love are continuing to be sent your way.
    Strength is wonderful, but tears and sadness are okay too.
    You both are an inspiration to so many of us.
    God is doing amazing things through your willing spirits.

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  • April 9, 2009 - 10:31 am

    Kelly - I know that song was written after a lot of heartbreak for the Nockels but I think it sings the words of so many mommies hearts just perfectly. Thank you for sharing it!
    I’m praying for you still.ReplyCancel

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  • April 9, 2009 - 10:36 am

    Jessatsea - I don’t really know what to say except that your story has truly touched my heart and I wish that (not even knowing you) I could wrap my arms around you and take some of your pain away.

    I am praying for you and for Joel and just hope that God can give you some peace in time to face the new reality that you live with.

    I ache for you and I cry for you.
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  • April 9, 2009 - 10:42 am

    The Carroll's - Still prayingReplyCancel

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  • April 9, 2009 - 10:48 am

    Melissa - I can’t believe it’s been two months already.

    I’m so incredibly sorry for your loss and the pain that you are feeling.

    I’m praying for you as the tears are streaming down my face.ReplyCancel

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  • April 9, 2009 - 10:52 am

    sarahross - These pictures popped into my mind as soon as I read your sweet post…

    http://www.keatonprints.com/prints_love.htm

    I have the one of Jesus walking with the toddler and holding the baby in our home. I just love the joy on the babies faces…ReplyCancel

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  • April 9, 2009 - 10:53 am

    Dawn - Out of all the wonderful blogs I follow, yours always touches me the most. Like I said before, I feel that what happened to you guys can happen to any of us.
    I know it feels like life just keeps going and everyone just goes about their daily lives but you’re never far from my thoughts.
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  • April 9, 2009 - 11:18 am

    Yankee Mama - I am still praying and thinking of you often. I am inspired and encouraged by your trust and faith in our Lord. You’re such a huge blessing to me!

    “Come quickly Lord Jesus!”

    Love,
    SuziReplyCancel

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  • April 9, 2009 - 11:20 am

    Oh well, hey! - Prayers are lifted for you. May God bring you comfort and peace. You are a beautiful Mommy – your angel is watching over you.ReplyCancel

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  • April 9, 2009 - 11:50 am

    Emily - Sending hugs and prayers for strength to get through the hard days.ReplyCancel

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  • April 9, 2009 - 12:01 pm

    i love plum - my thoughts are with you always…xoReplyCancel

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    The Jones' - I pray for you everyday and think of you so very often…ReplyCancel

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  • April 9, 2009 - 12:18 pm

    tami - My heart aches as i read your words. I continue to check your blog daily. You continue to be in our prayers on a daily basis! You and your family are continuing to minister to me. Thank you!ReplyCancel

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  • April 9, 2009 - 12:22 pm

    Karina - Crying for you still…I wish you could stop suffering, it seems so unfair. I am reading the bible for the first time because of you…it is very confusing, but I am reading it. You and Cora are an inspiration.ReplyCancel

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  • April 9, 2009 - 1:16 pm

    Beck - Jess, praying for you right now and asking the Lord if I can carry the pain for you for just a few moments. Like so many others have said, He brings you to mind over and over. I’ve never thought about and prayed for someone I’ve never met the way that I have for you & Joel. Every time I go back & look at pics of Cora, I begin to weep and can only imagine your grief.ReplyCancel

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  • April 9, 2009 - 1:24 pm

    Kate - I sit here as tears flood my face. My heart feels like it is completely shattered. For you, and Joel, for me and my now sleeping children who I just lost my patience with. I’d give anything for them. ANYTHING. I can’t imagine not being able to do that. So when they get up we are going to decorate easter eggs and of course one for Cora. Yes, I will neglect my dirty house, laundry and dishes b/c I know that every moment God allows me to be with them is more of a blessing than I could ever ask for. Thank you for putting my priorities straight today. I feel such heavy pain for you but you have made my husband and I appreciate God and our children so much more.

    May God Give you the Strength and Courage to walk through all the tears. We’ll be praying for you.ReplyCancel

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  • April 9, 2009 - 1:25 pm

    Laura - My prayers are with you as you seek to bear the broken hearts and loss of your sweet and precious daughter.ReplyCancel

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  • April 9, 2009 - 1:32 pm

    Monica - I’m always thinking of you both and sending my love your way. I just don’t know what to say.ReplyCancel

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  • April 9, 2009 - 1:52 pm

    Courtney - Jess, I’m glad you guys had a nice weekend away. I still pray for you always and wish that I could make things easier. When our son passed away I really could not stand when people told me that time would heal, time does not heal you, you just learn to live with a different you. Just know that it is okay to laugh, cry, scream or whatever YOU feel the need to do. As always thank you for keeping us informed about you guys, I have you on my mind everyday. I hope someday we can meet (I’m only 45 min away) and I can’t wait to hear that Cora’s playground is finished, so we can bring the kids to play on it.
    Love In Christ,
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  • April 9, 2009 - 2:12 pm

    Marlene W. - I’m still here and still praying for you, Jess and Joel. My women’s Bible study that I attend has also been in prayer for you (it is comprised of me, a couple other young women, but mostly old ladies :). They have been through a lot, and one lady that lost her own son had tears in her eyes when I shared your story. We are all praying for you!!
    sending encouragement from Delaware,
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  • April 9, 2009 - 2:22 pm

    Brittany - Praying for you…..still.ReplyCancel

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  • April 9, 2009 - 2:27 pm

    The Mershawn's - My heart longs with yours for you to see her. Wish there were words to make it easier. Praying for you today.ReplyCancel

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  • April 9, 2009 - 2:30 pm

    Liz Bracken - Your support system of friends and family is absolutely incredible. I read your blog again start to finish last night and was stunned to see that over 1600 people left messages on the day that Cora left you and Joel. (Except part of her will always be with you.) This morning I read your post from last night and tears welled up. Fear not that you are not moving “forward.” I imagine that the numbness that offered some protection for the past two months is slowly wearing off and you are feeling the sharper edge of grief. You have so many good people to lean on. And isn’t it amazing to think how many people whom you’ve never met are thinking about you and Cora every single day. There is a power in this healing process that can come only from God.

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  • April 9, 2009 - 2:30 pm

    kbaitinger - How I found your blog, I’m not sure. But I am so thankful that I did. My heart is heavy for you both, and I think of you constantly. I have wanted to leave you a comment before, but can’t quite express what I would like to say…I think that Misty has said it best…
    Please know I am thinking, crying, and praying for you and your family. You have forever touched my heart, and my relationship with God. I will continue to read, learn and grow from you.
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  • April 9, 2009 - 2:42 pm

    Melinda - I came across your blog through a link on etsy a couple of weeks ago. You and your family are in my prayers.ReplyCancel

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    heather - Thinking of you today.ReplyCancel

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  • April 9, 2009 - 3:16 pm

    Don, Aimee, Kaitlyn and Kysen - As I celebrated my daughters birthday yesterday, I also said a prayer for yet another milestone of your lives. You two are always in my prayers!ReplyCancel

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  • April 9, 2009 - 3:26 pm

    ran shae - oh, my mama’s heart aches for yours. i am so, so sorry.

    praying for you everyday,
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  • April 9, 2009 - 3:32 pm

    Nic - I have never met you but found have followed your journey with Cora since January. I live in Utah but have family in Henderson, NE and Hillsboro and Wichita, KS – my husband and I attended Tabor college. I also follow Meg Durkeson’s blog. ANyways, through these connections I’ve been readying your entries and have prayed for you and cried with you each time I visit your blog. I pray for an abundance of God’s peace over you today. Your family and Cora’s life have impacted and encouraged so many for Christ. THanks for sharing your raw feelings with the world.ReplyCancel

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  • April 9, 2009 - 3:52 pm

    Trisha - Jess-

    It’s been just over one year since my Nate died (also born 3/5/08). I know how the hospital images playback through your mind. Our wonderful counselor explained that to us as our brains don’t understand our reality. They are trying to make sense and sort out things that are just unimaginable. I do know that it will stop. The bad images will move to the back of your mind and the happy memories will fill your heart. It just takes time. You will find that time is your friend. It’s hard to believe that the pain will ever lessen but it will. I don’t believe that it will ever go away but the joy and happiness will start to multiply and the sadness will diminish. Focus on Phil 4. It took me many months but it really did allow me to have the joy back in my life. I still miss my son like crazy and would do anything to hold him again. I’m just tired of being sad. As much as was taken from us, God has given us so much more. Just take it 1 day (or sometimes 1 hour) at a time and when the hospital images come, ask God to help you focus on the happy times. He is close to the brokenhearted and will not fail you. I know that you don’t want this (and frankly neither do I) but this loss will make you a different person. A better person. The bible will have an entirely different meaning, praise songs will feel like you got punched in the stomach and your real relationships (because some people will bail out) will be much deeper than you could have ever imagined. Just hang in there. It will be better a year from now.

    Hugs from a Mommy who gets it!

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  • April 9, 2009 - 4:43 pm

    meg duerksen - it does seem like yesterday.

    so hard to know you hurt so much jess.
    that song was one of the most beautiful i have ever heard.

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  • April 9, 2009 - 5:24 pm

    Maria - I am praying for you. May God continue to hold you and your husband in the palm of his hand.ReplyCancel

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  • April 9, 2009 - 5:31 pm

    deyoungsters - I started following your blog after Cora was diagnosed… my heart breaks for you. Your honesty and faith are so amazing. Praying, praying for you as you walk this hard road.ReplyCancel

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    Anonymous - i think you guys often and pray for you.ReplyCancel

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  • April 9, 2009 - 6:03 pm

    Lundstrom Family - I think of you so often. I wish there was something I could do. You are a wonderful person and I wish you were not going through all of this. Please know that you have changed me forever. I am a better wife, sister, daughter, and most importantly mom. I have you, your faith, and your strength to thank for that!ReplyCancel

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  • April 9, 2009 - 6:21 pm

    Kristi - May God comfort you both during this time.ReplyCancel

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  • April 9, 2009 - 6:40 pm

    Caitty - I’m a lady from southern California and I check in on you every day. Please know that I pray for your family. Your beautiful Cora has touched so many. There is such strength and love in each and every post.
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  • April 9, 2009 - 7:47 pm

    leahneer - Joel and Jess,

    I am a far away friend who has followed you through the blogging of Cora’s ordeal. We don’t know each other but I am one who has been so touched by you both and by Cora’s story. I can only imagine what sense of loss you are experiencing every day. I am sorry you have to endure this but know many around the world surround you with love. Jesus is with you always and will see you through each day. I am thinking of you daily and praying for your well being during this time. Thank you for being such a inspiration in your love for the lord and your faith. It has given me mine more than ever. May god be with you always. Hugs from far away:)
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  • April 9, 2009 - 7:48 pm

    leahneer - Joel and Jess,

    I am a far away friend who has followed you through the blogging of Cora’s ordeal. We don’t know each other but I am one who has been so touched by you both and by Cora’s story. I can only imagine what sense of loss you are experiencing every day. I am sorry you have to endure this but know many around the world surround you with love. Jesus is with you always and will see you through each day. I am thinking of you daily and praying for your well being during this time. Thank you for being such a inspiration in your love for the lord and your faith. It has given me mine more than ever. May god be with you always. Hugs from far away:)
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  • April 9, 2009 - 8:00 pm

    CinderellaMommy - Praying that God will heal your hearts as only He can and for comfort and peace to surrond you as you heal.

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  • April 9, 2009 - 9:12 pm

    Anonymous - Joel and Jess,
    You are so often in my thoughts and my prayers. My heart continues to ache for and with you. I pray you continue to feel the nearness of God.ReplyCancel

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  • April 9, 2009 - 9:16 pm

    Susan - Hurting and praying for you today… I can’t imagine.

    I’m so sorry that you have to feel this sadness. No parent should have to endure this, But, if anyone understands the loss of a child, it is our Lord. May you feel his comfort as you walk this road. You are not alone.

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  • April 9, 2009 - 9:27 pm

    Anonymous - I check your blog every day and I cannot begin to imagine the deepness of your sadness. I pray each day for God to give you an extra measure of His grace and peace. Eleanor in SCReplyCancel

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  • April 9, 2009 - 9:32 pm

    Heather - While I have no idea the pain you feel, I can only imagine having a son myself. It is hard to even imagine your pain… I wish I could take some of your hurt away. I pray for your sweet family every night before bed. I pray that God will grant you peace. Please know Cora’s life has touched so many. Big Hugs from GA.ReplyCancel

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  • April 9, 2009 - 9:53 pm

    Robin - We keep Cora’s picture on our fridge and we pray for all of you often . think about you all the time . My heart aches for you . Be strong and allow the Lord to cradle you in his arms and lean on him when you feel you cant stand the pain one more second. I will be praying . love you !!ReplyCancel

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  • April 9, 2009 - 10:01 pm

    James' Full House - Praying for you…Sweet Jesus be near.

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  • April 9, 2009 - 10:19 pm

    maryboys - i am sure that your pain does seem worse some days, and in different ways…still thinking of you and your painful loss.ReplyCancel

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  • April 9, 2009 - 10:25 pm

    Cristy - Hi Jess…

    I am praying for you. I wish I could say something that would make everything okay. Just know that I, like so many others, are praying for you.

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  • April 9, 2009 - 10:27 pm

    Anonymous - Im in Ohio, heard about little Cora, and have been following your blog ever since. Its so hard to understand why God chooses to take those we love away from us when he does..when we’re not ready. But, you are so lucky because you know where she is, and that she’ll always be your little girl there forever. This passage brought and still brings me comfort on the loss of my Father..I hope it does the same for you. I may not know you, but I am always praying for you. God Bless..

    *Phil. 1:3 – “I thank my God every time I remember you.”ReplyCancel

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  • April 9, 2009 - 11:09 pm

    The Jones' - I am prayin for you.ReplyCancel

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  • April 9, 2009 - 11:12 pm

    Suzie(Iowa) - I’m not often at a loss for words, but today, I stand in awe of you and Joel and your awesome faith!! I think of you often(just as thousands of others do) and pray for strength for you both!! Your sweet baby girl has touched so many!! Today…I have a feeling she is coloring Easter eggs in Heaven and is beaming with pride to call you her mommy and daddy!! God Bless!ReplyCancel

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  • April 9, 2009 - 11:28 pm

    Jess - oh miss jess (& beloved)! i am so sorry. i keep thinking of these verses isaiah 61:1-3 when i think of you. praying the Lord would bring much beauty from the ashes of your sorrow and knowing He is making you both into ‘oaks of righteousness, a planting of the LORD for the display of his splendor.’ReplyCancel

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  • April 9, 2009 - 11:40 pm

    PamperingBeki - I cry for you daily. Not a day has gone by in these past two months that I’ve not teared up and gotten a lump in my throat just thinking of the pain you and Joel are enduring.

    I was talking to a mutual friend of ours recently and said, as strange as it seems, in many ways I feel maternal toward you. As a mom, you know that feeling. You’re just so precious and innocent and I want to protect you. I’m only 4 or 5 years older, but there have been so many times, even during Cora’s hospital stay, that I just wanted to hold you and tell you that it was all going to be okay. The reality is, it’s not okay. You’re still left with empty arms and a broken heart, and facing the rest of your life with that. It’s something I can’t imagine.

    Continue to lean on God because only He can give you that comfort, that peace that passes all understanding. (And I know you have an amazing real mom and dad who can hold you.) :)

    I wish I could make it better.

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  • April 10, 2009 - 12:00 am

    number17cherrytreelane - i can’t believe it has been that long. I feel like it was yesterday, and I have no idea how it must feel for you. I have you in my prayer journal and think of you almost daily. My prayers are with you.ReplyCancel

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  • April 10, 2009 - 8:05 am

    Courtney Cloud - My heart still breaks for you and your family. I am just a random reader who came upon your blog. I know that there is a special purpose for you. Listen to “Your Love Is Strong” by Jon Foreman. It has such a powerful message. God’s love is Strong enough for you…even in this tragic time.ReplyCancel

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  • April 10, 2009 - 9:38 am

    Anonymous - Hope you find some peace in his very hard time. You are amazing people, and deserve happiness…which will come someday. Bless you both and keep hugging and loving each other. You are wonderful people.ReplyCancel

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  • April 10, 2009 - 9:53 am

    Anonymous - I’m so very sorry for your loss of your little Cora. I can’t imagine what you are going through, but my prayers are with you as you go through this time of grief.ReplyCancel

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  • April 10, 2009 - 1:06 pm

    Anonymous - Oh, Jess,

    You are so precious. Your honesty and transparency in your blog move me to tears. I must tell you that you and your story have encouraged and changed me (for the better) as a mom, wife, and christian woman. Oh, my dear, keep going. You are so loved.

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  • April 10, 2009 - 4:22 pm

    Polka Dot Moon - I thought of you so much that day………..sending loving prayers for you both.ReplyCancel

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  • April 10, 2009 - 6:03 pm

    Connie W - May God continue to bless and keep you.ReplyCancel

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  • April 10, 2009 - 11:00 pm

    Falling Around - Jess,

    I love that Watermark song… it must be bittersweet to listen to, though.

    I have been thinking of you guys a lot as we near Easter Sunday. I cannot imagine how painful holidays will be without your precious Cora.

    Praying God will fill you with His sweet peace & comfort.

    Love & Prayers,
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  • April 11, 2009 - 12:14 pm

    Anonymous - Praying for you guys!ReplyCancel

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  • April 12, 2009 - 3:13 pm

    Anonymous - I happened upon your blog when your baby girl was first diagnosed with cancer and have been following ever since. I’m an oncology nurse and my daughter is a month younger then Cora so I can’t even imagine the pain you must be going through. I just wanted to let you know that my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family during this trying time. You are truly an inspiration to all.

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  • April 16, 2009 - 10:17 am

    Miss Em - Jess,

    This was played at the memorial service for my little one as well. However, I can not listen to it with out crying so it has been a long time since I have. Just reading the words brings me to tears. I pray for you and Joel daily and am in awe of your strength and faith. God bless.

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FamilyLife presents weekend to remember...love like you mean it
A weekend away.
Time together.
Focusing on us.
Talking.
Date night.
SO needed!
If you ever have a chance to attend FamilyLife‘s Weekend to Remember, you should. That is what Joel and I did this weekend. The speakers were so real and challenging.  We had time to talk through some things that we normally wouldn’t take the time to talk about. We were challenged to make each other and our marriage a priority. We came away from the conference feeling more connected and united than we ever have before.
On Sunday we had a breakout session with women only.  
“The fact that I am a woman does not make me a different kind of Christian, but the fact that I am a Christian does make me a different kind of a woman. For I have accepted God’s idea of me, and my whole life is an offering back to Him of all that I am, and all that He wants me to be.” -Elisabeth Elliot
I loved how the speaker reminded us to embrace how God designed us as women.  She talked about how Biblical priorities are at the heart of becoming the wife and mother God intents us to be. I cried through the part of this session about our role as moms. It made me miss Cora SO much. I wished I could go home and apply all that I was learning about being a mom as I spent time with Cora. I cried a lot throughout the weekend, but I think that was good.  I think I just needed to cry.
My favorite part was spending time with my hubby. I needed time to talk about things I was struggling with and how I was feeling as we move forward without Cora.  He we such a good listener. I was able to better understand how he was feeling too. I am so thankful that God is allowing us to walk through this storm together.

We could see God working throughout the whole weekend. From allowing us to go in the first place at the last minute, to the speakers and people we met. Thank you Allen and Tammye for making it possible for us to go.  And thank you to all our dear friends who helped pay for our expenses.  We are so grateful.
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  • April 7, 2009 - 10:02 pm

    Anna - That sounds like a great opportunity! Still thinking of you all…ReplyCancel

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  • April 7, 2009 - 10:06 pm

    Melody - What an amazing blessing. I am so happy you guys could go! Every couple needs to take time for things like that- even if it’s not for a whole weekend. The fact that your lives have changed so much in the past few months is only more reason for you guys to reconnect and focus on each other! I’m glad you had a great time!ReplyCancel

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  • April 7, 2009 - 10:09 pm

    beckley - much love.
    grace and peace to you-ReplyCancel

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  • April 7, 2009 - 10:18 pm

    The Sieberts - I love seeing the smiles on you and Joel’s faces. i know you’re still hurting deeply. Know that we are continuously praying for you!ReplyCancel

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  • April 7, 2009 - 10:19 pm

    Misty Rice-Baniewicz - I have been wanting to do one of these weekend events for the last 2 years. I looked it up tonight and going to REALLY look into booking it tomorrow.

    Thanks for sharing and so glad you had a getaway together.

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  • April 7, 2009 - 10:23 pm

    PamperingBeki - You guys are so blessed to have each other.

    There is no doubt that God chose each of you to be the other’s spouse, and both of you to be parents to Cora. No one else could do this.

    When Camryn was a baby, she was a HORRIBLE baby. For real, she was. I mean, just plain awful – screamed for hours on end, never slept through a night until she was a year old… Just really hard. I remember her doctor telling me that no one else could be her mom. God had chosen me specifically for that job. That was a thought that had really never crossed my mind, but thinking of it put things into perspective. (And she turned out wonderful, of course…) :)

    Sounds like a wonderful weekend! Every couple should take time to refocus on their marriage.ReplyCancel

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  • April 7, 2009 - 10:26 pm

    The Jones' - What an awesome getaway! My husband and I love attending things like that. I still pray for you often and hope all is well. What a beautiful picture!
    Hugs,
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  • April 7, 2009 - 10:39 pm

    Marc, Sarah, and Luke - I’m so glad you guys got so much out of it. We did as well last year! We hope to go again someday! Know that we’re still praying for you guys each and every day…Hope to see you again soon.ReplyCancel

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  • April 7, 2009 - 11:01 pm

    Kristi - I am glad you had the weekend together. You are still in my thoughts and prayers.ReplyCancel

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  • April 7, 2009 - 11:06 pm

    Susan - Awesome for you! You totally deserve it!
    I’d love to go sometime and I think we will…this year or next. It’s in June in Indianapolis this year…perhaps I can talk my hubby into it!
    Still praying for you, thinking of you often, and knowing that God is using you for His purpose.

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  • April 7, 2009 - 11:10 pm

    Michelle - I’m glad you had this opportunity together. My parents have some friends that lost two of their children in an accident and they almost ended up get a divorce because they grieve so different. I’m sorry you are goign through this, but I hope you have a stronger, closer marriage because of it. Cora has brought so many wonderful lessons to people who never met her, hopefully a stronger marriage is a present she is giving to you. You are both still in my prayers, it’s good to see you smiling!ReplyCancel

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  • April 7, 2009 - 11:14 pm

    Jennifer W. - BEAUTIFUL picture! You’re in my heart.ReplyCancel

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  • April 7, 2009 - 11:20 pm

    The Moffats - LOVE the picture of you guys. Glad you were able to go and get a little refreshment. Much love.ReplyCancel

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  • April 7, 2009 - 11:21 pm

    Merryheart - So wonderful that you had this special time with your husband. This is the first time that I have posted here but I have been reading it since right after you lost Cora. I know your grief is heavy and you miss your little girl so very much. God was good to give you this time to be together, shed tears and heal. Blessings to your sweet family. Praying for you!ReplyCancel

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  • April 7, 2009 - 11:24 pm

    Marla Taviano - So happy for you. (you two are so cute!) So thankful for God’s blessings on your marriage.

    I continue to pray for your hurting hearts!!ReplyCancel

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  • April 7, 2009 - 11:30 pm

    meg duerksen - this is so hopeful.
    you are such an example of hope. and god’s design for marriage. wow jess.
    thanks for telling us so much of your story. i love it.
    i am so glad you got to go….so cool.ReplyCancel

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  • April 7, 2009 - 11:36 pm

    number17cherrytreelane - I am so happy that you were able to go and be together. You are right–it is so important and I am so glad you both had that time together. I continue to think about you both and the daily struggles you are having to deal with.
    The Lord is continuing to use you.
    All my love,
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  • April 7, 2009 - 11:48 pm

    blessedmomto7 - What a blessing to be with your hubby! And grow together in the LORD. God Bless!ReplyCancel

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  • April 8, 2009 - 1:04 am

    Falling Around - Jess,

    My husband and I went to a Weekend To Remember several years back, and you’re right, they are amazing and life changing. We had a great time, but more than that, it really opened us up to just talk. It was wonderful. In fact, I was just telling him that we need to do it again.

    I am so glad that you guys were able to go. I’m sure the “mom” discussions were difficult, and for that I am deeply sorry. But I am glad you and Joel got to spend some time away and grow closer to each other.

    Love,
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  • April 8, 2009 - 1:40 am

    Lori - What a blessing! Still think of you and your family every day. You will always be in our prayers. Thank you so much for sharing this journey with all of us.ReplyCancel

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  • April 8, 2009 - 3:45 am

    Aaron and Shannon - So glad you got to go! I would like to go sometime! I prayed for you both this weekend as I knew you were there. See you soon!ReplyCancel

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  • April 8, 2009 - 7:04 am

    Anonymous - You and Joel are amazing. Love the picture. So glad you are working through your grief together. I can only imagine how very hard it continues to be. Thank you and Joel for continueing to share your lives with us.

    Thoughts and prayers everyday.

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  • April 8, 2009 - 7:34 am

    Marsha - You continue to amaze me with your grace and faith. I am so happy that you were able to go and be together. I am continuing to pray for you all daily! Love and prayers.

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  • April 8, 2009 - 7:39 am

    Erin - That Elisabeth Elliot quote is AMAZING!!! What a living testimony you are becoming. What an amazing mother you are to Cora, and to her legacy. So many people are going to be changed because of your little girl. Blessings to you, sweet sister in Christ. :)ReplyCancel

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  • April 8, 2009 - 7:46 am

    Judy - It’s so great to see your smiling faces! I’m so glad you guys had that special time away to connect. Sometimes you need those purposeful times away to build your marriage even though you live under the same roof :) Still praying for you guys and I’m so happy to see you working through all of this TOGETHER! God continues to be glorified through your lives!ReplyCancel

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  • April 8, 2009 - 7:51 am

    KKJD1 - Sounds like a great weekend. Glad you were able to talk to each other and listen too. I have always been a good listener but never have been able to talk things out. I would love to go to a Family Life’s conferance. Ill check that out. Blessings,KarenReplyCancel

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  • April 8, 2009 - 8:17 am

    hoosier68 - Having worked through post traumatic stress, I know what a strain is placed on a marriage. I have posted before that I am in awe of your strength and faith and have no doubt you both are on the right path. Praying for you daily in Indiana :)ReplyCancel

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  • April 8, 2009 - 8:23 am

    Don, Aimee, Kaitlyn and Kysen - What a great opportunity at a great time for you two…I am currently doing the Love Dare book with my husband and even though we have a good relationship, it is reminding us daily how lucky we are to have someone to walk the storms with! I pray for you two daily and I hope God continues to heal your hearts!ReplyCancel

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  • April 8, 2009 - 8:43 am

    Robin in Benton - What a blessing you are to each other as you continue on through this storm that life has thrown at you. And what an inspiration you are to all of us with your dedication to each other and to God. Still praying for you and thinking of you daily.

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  • April 8, 2009 - 9:03 am

    The Boyds - I am so glad you were able to go to the conference. It sounds like there were many blessings for you! I pray for you and Joel each day. May the Lord continue to strengthen and comfort you. May he place a hedge of protection around you.ReplyCancel

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  • April 8, 2009 - 9:05 am

    Anonymous - Just thought you would love this amazing poem…

    I carry your heart with me (I carry it in my heart)

    I am never without it (anywhere I go you go, my dear; and whatever is done by only me is your doing, my darling)

    I fear no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet)
    I want no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)

    and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant
    and whatever a sun will always sing is you

    here is the deepest secret nobody knows (here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)

    and this is the wonder that’s keeping the stars apart

    I carry your heart (I carry it in my heart)

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  • April 8, 2009 - 9:09 am

    Anonymous - There is happiness in your eyes in that picture and it made me smile. So nice to see that after the terrible loss that you suffered. Still thinking of you often and continuing to wish you peace :-)ReplyCancel

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  • April 8, 2009 - 9:34 am

    The Carroll's - I love what Beki said about God choosing you and Joel to be Cora’s parents. He created you and Joel uniquely, and perfectly ordained that you would be the best compliment to one another in marriage. He knew that only YOU could love and care for Cora and be the best parents for her. He knew that YOU would bring Him glory even in the midst of unthinkable heartache. There is no one who could have loved her better or taught her more than you and Joel.
    What a gift to get away with one another. I imagine there are so many layers to your grief and though there are probably many similarities in the way you’re grieving, there are probably also so many differences between your hurt and Joel’s.
    Praying this scripture for you today- I know this will be a tough one:
    “May your unfailing love be with us Lord, even as we put our hope in you.” Psalm 33:22ReplyCancel

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  • April 8, 2009 - 9:41 am

    Mindee - Those conferences are amazing, I’m so glad you had the opportunity to go.

    The truth of the matter is that our spouses are the only people God truly “gives” us. The kids are just on loan. It’s important to prioritize that relationship.ReplyCancel

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  • April 8, 2009 - 10:20 am

    Polka Dot Moon - A wonderful opportunity for the both of you!

    It’s good to see the two of you smile :) even though your hearts are heavy and missing your sweet Cora so much!ReplyCancel

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  • April 8, 2009 - 10:29 am

    Micah - Every couple needs time to re-focus on their marriage and making it what God wants it to be. I’m so glad you were able to have a much needed get-away!ReplyCancel

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  • April 8, 2009 - 10:39 am

    Anonymous - I have known people whose marriage didn’t survive after the loss of a child. I often wonder if my husband and I would survive, since we don’t have a common ground like you do with each other. Your faith and strength is so amazing to me. I remember after I found your blog and I just felt so awful for you. But when I realized you had the faith that you do, I felt immediately better, still so hard and awful, but I knew that you would be okay because of your strength for Him. May your journey continue to inspire others and strengthen you both.ReplyCancel

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  • April 8, 2009 - 10:44 am

    Heather's Home (aka Chez Hez) - So glad you guys go to have date nite! We get so few of those around here and to get out of town and reassess what makes you two such a great couple! <3 I'm very sure all of the mom discussions were very hard, but I agree with Beki that you and Joel were chosen to be Cora's mom and dad. What a joy and blessing. Thanks for the lovely picture and update!ReplyCancel

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  • April 8, 2009 - 10:51 am

    Kylie, Jesse and Asher - Thanks for sharing about your powerful weekend. It’s awesome how God is strenghtening your marriage in this time of great sadness. He cares about you….I’m encouraged by your testimony.ReplyCancel

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  • April 8, 2009 - 11:13 am

    Alison - What a great conference! I am so happy to hear that you were so blessed through your time there. Your family is on my heart often and I will continue to keep you all in prayer.ReplyCancel

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  • April 8, 2009 - 11:20 am

    Anonymous - still no words… only ♥ReplyCancel

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  • April 8, 2009 - 11:58 am

    Christine - I love your picture. I am so happy that you both got to get away. Praying for you!ReplyCancel

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  • April 8, 2009 - 12:12 pm

    James' Full House - That is wonderful. I feel so energized after things like that. Like I can face the world just a bit longer. Glad you two had time to talk and cry together. It was great to see a picture of you smiling. Ya’ll make a cute couple.
    Still praying everyday.

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  • April 8, 2009 - 12:44 pm

    Teresa @ Grammy Girlfriend - Sounds like a great conference. So happy that I found your blog.

    Hope you will stop by my blog. I am a new blogger. This is my second month in the world of BLOG. I am great give away this month. This drawing will be the last day of April.
    Every comment you leave throughout the month will enter your name in the drawing. This NEW blogger was so touched by all the comments I got on the Blog Party Give Away,(over 300) that I decided to make this a monthly GIFT…
    Also, if you mention blog telling about the monthly giveaway, you will have your name entered 10 extra times…Just be sure and let me know that you did. How is that for an incentive?
    I was so blown away by all the responses that I wanted to email each person personally… I did love reading all of them..I am continuing to introduce my family members. In May, there will be some fun blogs coming from Disney World with the grandkids. I hope to blog every night, in case you like a good trip report. And there will also be a great Disney giveaway.
    I am so thankful for all my new friends.ReplyCancel

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  • April 8, 2009 - 1:34 pm

    The Christys - Thank you SO much for sharing your journey with us. Both of you are truly amazing people. Your love for the Lord is AWESOME!! I have been thinking about both of you and Cora LOTS today and continue to pray for your family everyday.
    Love & Prayers~
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  • April 8, 2009 - 1:50 pm

    Anonymous - God Bless the two of you.ReplyCancel

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  • April 8, 2009 - 1:52 pm

    Liana - I’m so glad you got to go. My husband and I went for our anniversary last year and plan on making it a yearly activity. I too highly recommend it to all my friends. I really felt that it hits you where you are…it speaks to people in all situations, as you said. Did you get the couple with 13 kids? They too lost a child before a year (in an accident), and the stories they shared about how they were able to grow together instead of apart after their son’s death were really powerful.

    Thank you for you continued witness and for sharing your walk with your “friends”. I think of you often and pray for you and Joel daily.ReplyCancel

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  • April 8, 2009 - 2:44 pm

    Audrey - Oh Jess, that is so awesome you got to attend the conference. Unfortunatley, we missed it when it stopped by our city. Though when we first got married, Family Life had a different couples’ conference they don’t do anymore that we attended that was just as inspiring and really touched our marriage. We even got to see Steven Curtis Chapman there. It was awesome.

    When I read that you had someone sponsor your trip, it reminded me that when the conference was here, our local Christian station was giving away tickets and they recalled giving away tickets to a couple that also just lost their baby. So inspiring in teaching us to love our neighbors and support them through their struggles too.

    Still praying for you both.ReplyCancel

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  • April 8, 2009 - 3:09 pm

    Greg - Thanks for letting me weep with you. You are the best and I love YOU! Greg SpeckReplyCancel

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  • April 8, 2009 - 5:12 pm

    Anonymous - I’m so glad for you and your husband that you got to spend this weekend together. My husband and I went to Weekend to Remember on our 10th wedding anniversary. I wish we had gone sooner, and I recommend it to newlyweds and engaged couples. It really is a wonderful time to focus on your marriage, even when everything’s just peachy.

    In your situation, I’m especially glad you took this opportunity. A family in our church lost a child to an accident in the home several years ago (I think he was about 18 months old). This family didn’t take the time to really dig in and work through all that they were going through, and years later they had to deal with it in a much more painful way, including marital problems. God is so gracious, and He walked with this family through the marital trial and now they are working as missionaries with a strong marriage.

    Just keep holding on to your hubby and seeking God in this terrible trial in your life. He will never leave you nor forsake you.

    We will be praying for you as you approach Easter this weekend.ReplyCancel

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  • April 8, 2009 - 7:21 pm

    Anonymous - I am so happy that you have each other to lean on, and had the opportunity to try to understand each other on an even deeper level. I still think of you every day, and pray for your family, and sweet Cora every day, Leslie in CTReplyCancel

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  • April 8, 2009 - 8:12 pm

    All Doll(ed) Up - I am so proud of you guys- putting your marriage first is the foundation to get through many more obstacles ahead. Your story is and will continue to be an inspiration to all who know you! We think and pray for you often-ReplyCancel

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  • April 8, 2009 - 9:10 pm

    kristin - Still thinking of you on a daily
    basis and praying that God will lift & carry you through each day.
    So glad you all had a great time.ReplyCancel

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    Jessatsea - awhhh… so glad you two had such a wonderful and blessed weekend.

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  • April 8, 2009 - 9:55 pm

    TRICIA boutellefamilyzoo@yahoo.com - I’m so glad you two got to get away and spend some real quality time together talking and crying together.
    You are still in my prayers daily.
    Thank you for being so open with all of us out here through your very difficult journey.
    God is good.
    May he continue to bless you as your strength, faith, and love have blessed me.
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  • April 8, 2009 - 10:17 pm

    Lauren Kelly - WOW, sounds like a time much needed and so glad you and your hubby got to experience this time together!!!! :o)ReplyCancel

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  • April 8, 2009 - 10:24 pm

    Angela - Sounds like you guys had an amazing weekend! I’m so glad you were able to go!! I LOVE the picture of you two, such sweet smiles and your eyes are so blue!!

    Still praying for you… we love you so much!

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  • April 8, 2009 - 10:38 pm

    Cristy - Hi Jess…

    How wonderful it is to see yuor smiling faces! Praying for you….

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  • April 8, 2009 - 10:38 pm

    Allen and Debby Graber - We were praying for you this weekend while you were there. We went to the one in Denver a few years ago and learned a lot – even though we had been married around 30 years then.

    Farming hours will keep Joel busy these next few months so it was good for you to have this time together!

    “Encourage one another and build each other up…” 1 Thess.5:11ReplyCancel

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    Misty - I know I have said it before, but you inspire me daily.ReplyCancel

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  • April 9, 2009 - 10:41 am

    Ashlie - We have not met, but a friend suggested I read your blogs in hopes that I would find strength in your faith as I find my “new” normal. I lost my 15 year old daughter a month ago in an accident. As a single mother she was my life. It has been very hard, but I have put my trust in the Lord. I know that He has a plan and He was ready for my daughter. It doesn’t lessen the saddness or how much I miss her. She is my first thought when I wake, my constant thought throughout the day, and my last thought as I close my weary eyes. The hardest part is not knowing “why”. But, I know I must live until I am with her again. I would love to connect with you and your husband as we each travel this journey that has been chosen for us.ReplyCancel

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  • April 12, 2009 - 9:35 pm

    Miss G - That is so wonderful! I am so glad for you. I just wanted to stop by and say that God put you on my heart a couple different times this weekend, Friday afternoon standing in Target looking at Easter candy and then again today in church to pray for you guys that He would carry you through this holiday weekend without Cora. I hope you have a good week this week. KellyReplyCancel

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  • April 14, 2009 - 8:58 am

    Anonymous - Hi dear! You don’t know me but I have been following your blogs for months. My daughter was born on March 3rd so she was just a few days apart from Cora! I think that has made me feel so connected to you & your blogs.
    I just wanted you to know that we also attend the WTR in Wichita… I am so grateful that you were able to attend. It really put some things into perspective & was rekindling. I wish I would have seen you so I may have had the opportunity to introduce myself & thank you. Your faith has made me a better mother, wife and follower of Christ.
    I just wanted you to know that my family thinks of Cora often and prays for you & your husband.
    With many prayer & lots of love to our family in Christ… The Harshmans; Cedar Point ~Tiffany~ReplyCancel

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  • April 28, 2009 - 9:40 am

    Miranda - My husband and I have been to the weekend to remember conferences twice. They’re amazing! I’m glad you guys got to go because it’s a great experience and you learn so much. I love the picture of the two of you together. You’re a beautiful couple.ReplyCancel

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…but not this week.

Sorry! We are still working on them, but just didn’t get quite done. The last two weeks have been busy. Thanks for being patient with us.

We PROMISE to list them next week.
And more burpies too!

Right now the dresses are lined up just waiting to be finished.

And we are surrounded by piles of fabric. Now it’s back to work!

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  • April 3, 2009 - 12:33 pm

    Michele - Thought of this when I read your post….if you feel led, go to http://www.virtuealert.com (Vicki Courtney’s blog) and scroll down to the posting under April 1st (after the part about B. Spears and Kohl’s) to the section entitled: It feels like chaos, but somehow there’s peace. May it give you comfort…
    still praying in Charlottesville!ReplyCancel

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  • April 3, 2009 - 12:38 pm

    Staci - Where do you get all of your adorable, springy fabrics??? Adorable!ReplyCancel

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  • April 3, 2009 - 12:40 pm

    Becky - Those are the cutest! Praying for you all…..Much love, BeckyReplyCancel

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  • April 3, 2009 - 12:42 pm

    Ethansmom08 - I have made it my mission to snatch up one of those dresses and a Tripp tee!

    Your work is beautiful!

    Love,
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  • April 3, 2009 - 12:57 pm

    Robin in Benton - What happy pictures with all the colors! I have to try to get one of these for my granddaughter!!!

    Love and prayers to you,

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  • April 3, 2009 - 12:59 pm

    Micah - Oh your fabrics are SO cute!! The first one is some I have to make my little girl’s birthday dress out of :). I love it! Don’t rush yourself – just do it when it’s fun and convenient!ReplyCancel

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  • April 3, 2009 - 1:31 pm

    Kristi REDISKE - Ok-this is exciting-take your time though. I sure hope I can get one this time. I check about 100 times a day-ha! I will check next week. I hope and pray for comfort for you all. I pray that you can build that playground soon. Can’t wait to see it. God Bless you all.ReplyCancel

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  • April 3, 2009 - 1:32 pm

    purejoy - the colors are so precious. you’ve been such a busy bee!!ReplyCancel

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  • April 3, 2009 - 1:33 pm

    Jessica - Too sweet… my son is going to wear his Tripp Tee on Easter Sunday. Think and pray for you often!ReplyCancel

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  • April 3, 2009 - 1:34 pm

    Kristi REDISKE - I just posted but I just thought that you would maybe sometimes you would like to see other stories of people trusting our Great God in hard times. My friend has cancer and has not been given good news-she will be leaving about 5 grandkids-its sad but she is giving glory to our God. If you would like to read their story it is at Vickidees.blogspot.com.ReplyCancel

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  • April 3, 2009 - 1:50 pm

    Judy - I’ve been too slow each time you’ve posted them, so I hope that next week I might be able to snag one! They’re so cute! I’d love for my little girl to have a “Cora’s dress.”ReplyCancel

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  • April 3, 2009 - 1:55 pm

    Polka Dot Moon - Look at all that lovely fabric! The dresses are adorable :)ReplyCancel

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    Midwest Mommy - Wow! That’s a lot of dresses!ReplyCancel

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    ShellyStout - Can’t wait for all the dresses!ReplyCancel

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    The Buchanan Family - What pretty dresses, I want a tripp t but my lil boy wears a size 24month! hope to see bigger sizes soon!ReplyCancel

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  • April 3, 2009 - 3:05 pm

    Amy - Such adorable stuff! I definitely want some… but you don’t worry about getting them listed. Take your time and take care of yourself. We’ll still be here.ReplyCancel

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  • April 3, 2009 - 3:11 pm

    Whimsical Creations - ooohhhhhhh can’t wait!! =DReplyCancel

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  • April 3, 2009 - 3:41 pm

    Anonymous - They are ADORABLE! Hopefully you are finding some comfort in all of your and Grammy’s sewing. What a great tribute to your sweet Cora!

    Thoughts and prayers stay with you!

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  • April 3, 2009 - 3:50 pm

    The Jones' - I still pray for you often and am happy to know more dresses are on there way! Hugs and Prayers~
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  • April 3, 2009 - 3:58 pm

    PamperingBeki - So cute!! I love all the bright colors in the fabrics.ReplyCancel

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  • April 3, 2009 - 4:04 pm

    Robin in Benton - Hi Jess

    I left you a message earlier but wanted to encourage you to go to http://www.virtuealert.com and go to the chaos section that Michele suggested. There is a line in there about leading to something bigger than me. I believe very strongly that God has worked something very big through you, Joel and Cora that have touched many lives and will go on touching them. I know you have touched me and through your faith strengthened mine. I hope the encouragement that we all give you comforts you as you continue to go through the grieving process. Don’t be upset with yourself for still being in a state of recovery – I would guess that will go on for a long time. Praying for blessings and comfort for you
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  • April 3, 2009 - 5:45 pm

    i love plum - ooooooh, i’ll keep my eye out…i NEED a dress or two :) xoReplyCancel

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  • April 3, 2009 - 7:46 pm

    Liz Bracken - Jess–I found your blog about a month ago through my daughter who was searching for some polka dot things for her daughter’s first birthday. She was curious because she saw a link to Cora’s Playground and her daughter’s (my only granddaughter) name is Cora, too. Little did I know where this would lead us. My Cora’s Playground necklace came this week. It is beautiful. I have linked your blog to mine and I know people who wouldn’t have found yours are now reading it. It’s taken me awhile to post something here but this is what I’d like to tell you: you are strong and you will become stronger. There are many of us who have lived through times of unbelievable grief and we who have come through the sad days are here to support you, whether you know us or not. We lift you up in prayer and watch as your faith carries you through each day. And someday–as sad as it may be–you may well have the opportunity to reach out to a young mother (or father) and hold out your hand, saying, “walk with us.” Cora will be with you always.
    I’m so glad that she is touching my life now.
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  • April 3, 2009 - 8:24 pm

    Anonymous - I think you should send your incredible story to Oprah!ReplyCancel

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  • April 3, 2009 - 8:59 pm

    jkck - Thinking of you! Also wondering where you found those beautiful fabrics. Hang in there!ReplyCancel

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  • April 4, 2009 - 12:09 am

    Debbie - My name is Debbie McClerren, your blog was mentioned to me by a friend of mine who reads your blog and she wanted to connect us. We are members of a very sad group, the group of grieving parents. We lost our sweet son, Jon Michael, May 31 of 2002. He was 17. So we have been in this process for almost 7 years. There is no good time to lose a child but I want to encourage you to hold on, hold on to hope, hold on to each other, hold on to your friends and family and mostly hold on to your heavenly Father. Who knows the pain of a childs death more that our Father. Time does change things .. the journey is a long, many times lonely path but you CAN make it. It is an exercise in if you REALLY believe what you say you believe. Our children are in our Fathers house now, who could possibly take better care of them. Please know there are alot of us out here and if you think I can encourage you or hear you in a way someone else cannot, please contact me. My prayers are with you and your family. Hugs from another child of God. debbiemcclerren989@msn.comReplyCancel

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  • April 4, 2009 - 7:30 am

    Lauren Kelly - The fabric and dresses are so adorable!!!! :o)ReplyCancel

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  • April 4, 2009 - 10:16 am

    mommaof4wife2r - sweet things…so precious.

    still praying…ReplyCancel

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  • April 4, 2009 - 1:52 pm

    Mandy - Look at you go! While you have been busy creating, I felt inspired to make something for the two of you. I live in Utah, so it’s not like I can just drop it by your house, but e-mail me and let me know where I can send it to. mandywilding@hotmail.com.

    You still inspire me! I can’t wait to get my hands on one of those cute Cora dresses for my little one!

    Sending warm hugs from snowy Utah,
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  • April 4, 2009 - 7:38 pm

    Kimberly - more boy stuff!!!!! please….ReplyCancel

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  • April 5, 2009 - 10:40 am

    Julie - I found your blog through a friend. I am so sorry to hear about your daugher. I have a custom photo jewelry business. I donate a free item to anyone who has lost a child to cancer. I would be happy to make you something. My website is
    http://www.jwoodsjewelry.com
    Contact me if you are interested.
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  • April 5, 2009 - 3:37 pm

    Anonymous - Thinking of you, Joel and your sweet Cora today….

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  • April 5, 2009 - 6:11 pm

    Heather's Home (aka Chez Hez) - Such adorable fabrics for your Cora dresses and Tripp tees!! Can’t wait to see them. We’re still praying for you here in Iowa! <3ReplyCancel

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  • April 5, 2009 - 6:59 pm

    Mum2twopreciousgifts - Dear Joel and Jess

    Our little family of four is about to fly off on an Easter break. No doubt I’ll miss your next round of listings but I wanted to let you know that I’ll be saying some prayers for you all while we are away.

    Thank you for inspiring, thank you for sharing, thank you for being you and sharing your Love of Our Lord with the world.

    With a big hug from Australia

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  • April 5, 2009 - 8:55 pm

    Brooke - Can’t wait to try and grab a dress. I have been checking Etsy everyday. Sending lots of thoughts and prayers your way. I have passed your blog to many friends and family members and asked special prayer for your entire family. My husband is not the emotional type, but when I spoke of your battle he held our baby extra tight that night before we put her to bed. I still do not understand God’s plan as to why he took your angel, but I know there is a reason. Your journey has touched my life so much. I pray for your comfort, peace and that you and your family will grow even stronger and closer to one another as well as the Lord. May you all be blessed.ReplyCancel

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  • April 5, 2009 - 9:49 pm

    Rebecca - Praying for you!ReplyCancel

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  • April 5, 2009 - 11:31 pm

    Lynnette Kraft - I’ve said hello before, but I thought I’d say hello again. :)

    My name is Lynnette. I live down the road from you near Sedgwick. I’ve met your husband’s family at Newton Bible Church (such wonderful people), although I don’t actually remember meeting you or your husband.

    I have also lost children: my 2 baby boys and my 6 year old daughter Anna. I know how hard it is to lose (temporarily) your sweet child. I’ve prayed for you so often and just want you to know that you are still on my heart.

    If you’d ever like to get together to visit, I’m just down the road a ways.

    Lynnette
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  • April 6, 2009 - 11:26 am

    PamperingBeki - Thinking of you today.ReplyCancel

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    The Carroll's - Praying and thinking about you today- Hope you’re getting more sun than we are in the ATL!ReplyCancel

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  • April 7, 2009 - 6:48 am

    Rebecca - Sending you hugs and praying for you today.ReplyCancel

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  • April 7, 2009 - 12:30 pm

    Misty Rice-Baniewicz - Thinking of you all today.ReplyCancel

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    PamperingBeki - Praying for you.ReplyCancel

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  • April 7, 2009 - 7:17 pm

    Anonymous - Always in my thoughts and prayers. Trying not to bother you everyday BUT you are always in my thoughts and prayers..of course I check your blog multiple times a day. :)
    Had my little ones picture made Sat. in several of his pics he is holding one of his Cora blocks, wouldn’t let go of it..

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  • April 7, 2009 - 9:30 pm

    Anonymous - JOEL YOU’RE AWESOME JUST LIKE ME! I HOPE JESS KNOWS HOW AWESOME YOU REALLY ARE! THE END.ReplyCancel

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  • April 7, 2009 - 9:34 pm

    Anonymous - Joel and Jess,

    We LOVE you guys!

    The Zipf Family-
    Nathan, Kim, Ivy, Owen and Paisan SplashReplyCancel

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  • April 7, 2009 - 9:36 pm

    Anonymous - Ok, Jess you are awesome to. Take care of my Joey!ReplyCancel

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  • April 7, 2009 - 9:58 pm

    ~Kelli - can’t wait for the dresses, i have to have one : ) thinking and praying for your family!ReplyCancel

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  • May 1, 2009 - 4:35 am

    Pamela - What a lovely collection of dresses looking nice colors and fabric!! Thanks for sharing!!ReplyCancel

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I’m still here. We are getting through the days, but this grieving stuff is HARD.

We had a big ice/snowstorm here this weekend. Just when I was getting used to Spring. Lovely Kansas weather! Seeing those big, beautiful snowflakes falling and kids playing in the snow made me miss Cora even more. Cora never really experienced snow. She even had a new sled that Joel’s parents had given to her for Christmas. She never got to use it. It was another “first” to go through without Cora.
Sundays are hard too (I think I am still recovering). Joel is a farmer and works a lot. Sunday was our family day–the one day that we always got to be together. Joel loved spending Sundays with Cora. Going to church without her now is hard. It is hard to go to church and see all the families. It is hard to see all the little girls in their pretty dresses. It is hard to see kids coming out of the nursery. At the same time it is so good to be a church. It is good to be around people who love us and who are praying for us. It is good to sing–the worship songs have entirely new meanings to us now. It is good to be in the Word and learn from the sermons.
Each week continues to have ups and downs. I don’t think that is bad. We need time to be sad and cry. We need time to laugh and feel a glimpse of “normal” again. It is just hard and tiring. You never know what your emotions are going to do next.
This emotional unsteadiness keeps reminding me that I have to cling to my ROCK. I am so thankful that no matter what an emotional mess I feel inside that I have a firm foundation in Christ. He fully understands my grief and emotions and is walking this road right beside me. Even when I don’t feel secure, I know that with Jesus I can stand secure. I can keep moving forward. Even through this storm. This is what I continue to put my HOPE in.
The Lord is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer;
my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge.
Psalm 18:2a
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  • March 31, 2009 - 5:32 pm

    kristin - your grief is so real.

    that in itself is an inspiration.

    be patient with yourself as every day will bring a “first” of some sort another, i’m sure.

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  • March 31, 2009 - 5:34 pm

    mommyof2sons - I think of you so often. Your faith is so amazing as you go through each day. Prayers for you!ReplyCancel

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    Marla Taviano - Loving you from Ohio!ReplyCancel

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  • March 31, 2009 - 5:38 pm

    Livesays - Oh Jess, your words are so sweet and touching. You write with such an openness and honestly that I respect and admire. We continue to pray for you and Joel and your extended families.ReplyCancel

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  • March 31, 2009 - 5:39 pm

    Vera - Oh, it is so hard to read your updates and know you are hurting, but they help me focus my prayers for y’all.ReplyCancel

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  • March 31, 2009 - 5:45 pm

    Polka Dot Moon - There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t think of you, Joel and Cora.

    As a stranger to you, I feel heartache every time I read your posts, so I can’t imagine what the two of you go through daily.

    I’m amazed at your strength and Faith!
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  • March 31, 2009 - 5:49 pm

    Kathryn - I’m keeping you in my prayers. I can’t imagine how hard it is to have empty arms – but your heart isn’t empty!

    I lost one in an early miscarriage, so it is not the same, but i do understand watching the little ones who would be her age.

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  • March 31, 2009 - 5:50 pm

    mandie - i can’t even begin to to communicate to you how much your sweet cora and your faith throughout all of this has had such an enormous impact on my personal walk with Christ.

    even in the midst of grief, you are a blessing to others.ReplyCancel

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  • March 31, 2009 - 5:51 pm

    hoosier68 - I’m not sure how you do it but you have such grace and faith. Keeping you in my prayers.ReplyCancel

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    Trish - I think of you everyday! I will continue to pray for you and Joel!ReplyCancel

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  • March 31, 2009 - 5:57 pm

    Anonymous - Your grief touches my very soul. My heart continues to ache for you. I too thought how it must be for you, most of your blogs that you follow have little ones. How hard it must be to read how life is going on, but for you and Joel to want your sweet Cora back. I admire you and Joel for your strength and FAITH.
    Please know that we(blog readers etc) are here for whatever support we can give you. You are always in my thoughts and prayers. Thank you for continueing to share with us. As much as it brings me to tears, it also makes my heart ache a little less after you post.

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  • March 31, 2009 - 5:58 pm

    PamperingBeki - These are exactly the things I think of and I can only imagine how much more intsense the feelings are for you.

    I think of you every Sunday. (Everyday really, but especially Sunday.) Being surrounded by people must be such a mixed blessing. I’d think sometimes you just want to be left alone but of course that’s not the right thing to do.

    I also know that Sundays mark another week that’s passed.

    I think of songs differently as well. The words in worship service have taken on a new meaning.

    Please don’t feel like you “owe” us anything. Don’t feel like you have to come and blog, have pretty pictures, have cute new items for sale, have eloquent words, reply to emails and requests, etc.

    We all love you and love seeing your new posts and wish the best for you. But you focus on you and Joel and God. If blogging is helpful then do it, but if it’s an obligation, don’t worry about it. :)

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  • March 31, 2009 - 6:00 pm

    Something In The Glass - Your faith continues to be inspiring and a huge blessing to those who read your blog. If being a Christian is about being “Christ-like,” then you have definitely set the bar.ReplyCancel

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  • March 31, 2009 - 6:04 pm

    Melissa - I think of you guys all the time and pray for your hearts, as they’re still mending.

    Glad to see that you’re still around.ReplyCancel

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    Drew, Taylor, and Caroline Clayton - I think of your situation and faith a lot you are very inspiring!ReplyCancel

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  • March 31, 2009 - 6:18 pm

    Dawn - Your posts always make my heart ache. I cannot, cannot imagine what you 2 are going through. And the way you talked about the sled really put a large lump in my throat.
    I think about firsts a lot and I can understand how painful that must be. I’m sure you’ll always have those reminders and it most likely will always be hard. Just remember all the firsts you did have with her. First July 4th, First Halloween, First Christmas. You did have some amazing moments and although it was painfully short, I’m sure they were awesome.
    I have shed tears for her as if she were my own.ReplyCancel

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  • March 31, 2009 - 6:22 pm

    Micah - Keep being strong and being an inspiration to everyone around you. Your light is shining so bright right now for Jesus!

    Still praying!!!ReplyCancel

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    Whimsical Creations - hugs from buffalo!ReplyCancel

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  • March 31, 2009 - 6:26 pm

    angie c - You will have ups and downs for sure… and I’m so glad you are surrounded by so many people (both real and blog-world) to love on you during both the happy and sad times! I think of you guys daily, and often at church as well. I think of you worshipping the One who loves us and is real and true and HOPE everyday. There is much despair in this world…yours included. but the HOPE that you are clinging too is what will get you thru. Thinking of you-Angie C.ReplyCancel

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  • March 31, 2009 - 6:27 pm

    Heather - My heart continues to ache for your loss. I think of you, Joel and Cora everyday and pray for you. I love my Cora’s Playground pendant and it reminds me of a sweet little angel who left this earth too soon but left such a big impact on those around her. I am praying for you Jess and Joel.
    Hugs and prayers,
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  • March 31, 2009 - 6:29 pm

    Christy - you are doing a great job as a mom to Cora. She is looking down on you smiling at the great time she got to spend with you. I can’t imagine what you are going through but your strength is inspiring!ReplyCancel

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  • March 31, 2009 - 6:29 pm

    Heather's Home (aka Chez Hez) - Jess,

    I’m pretty much in agreement with what all of these lovely folks have said before me. We are strangers, but your journey with Cora has made us united in one way…

    We think of and continue to pray for you and Joel and your family often. Take care. <3

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  • March 31, 2009 - 6:32 pm

    Midwest Mommy - I think about you often and pray for you.ReplyCancel

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  • March 31, 2009 - 6:39 pm

    dg darling - Just wanted you to know that I am still praying for you daily. Though we have never met, I think of you often and I think of Cora often. Frequently when my own baby girl gives me a big grin I think of your sweet Cora and send up a prayer on your behalf. May the Lord continue to help you get through your grieving process…

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  • March 31, 2009 - 6:57 pm

    The Di Vito's - You are an amazing woman! You are so lucky to have had the time you did with Cora, and she was lucky to have you guys too. She will always be with you in your heart! God bless you & Joel, you are always in my prayers.ReplyCancel

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  • March 31, 2009 - 6:57 pm

    Suzie - Oh my…you are both so strong!! What an inspiration…you are so real and I really admire that about you. Thank you for posting…even though I am a stranger, you have been on my mind daily. I just received my Cora’s Playground necklace and I wear it proudly and tell your story to whoever asks!! He is doing amazing work!! Don’t ever feel obligated to blog, but if it help you, then by all means do it. Praying for your heart to heal with time. Hugs from Iowa!!ReplyCancel

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  • March 31, 2009 - 7:00 pm

    Melody - I am so glad that you realize how important it is to grieve. As hard as it is and how much I truly wish you guys didn’t go through all of this, you are allowing God to heal you and move in your life.

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  • March 31, 2009 - 7:08 pm

    mushroommeadows - The thing about grief is that the battle is never quite over until we get to heaven.

    Something that I discovered is that in my own grief, I sometimes mistaken rest to signify the end of the battle. On the contrary, the rest is the time we have to prepare for upcoming battles. Keep clinging to Jesus and when those battles resume, you’ll be safe.

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  • March 31, 2009 - 7:25 pm

    41wray - “Bless your Hearts” (a favorite Aunt ‘Cille quote)
    Sweet Jessica I thot of you guys, the sled etc when I read about the snow. Just know what a Godly inspiration you guys are to ALL of us. I’m always inspired and strengthened by you strong faith. Your Calif. cousins continue to send love and hugs and prayers for you all.
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  • March 31, 2009 - 7:39 pm

    Auntie Mip - One of my favorite Bible passages seems so appropriate to share with you today. I just found Cora’s site yesterday. I am a peds. oncology/Onc PICU nurse….never in 21 years have I seen neuroblastoma move so fast…3 weeks. That is just not enough time to absorp the news let alone come to terms with Cora fying to the heavens. I am so very sorry for the both of you and your families. I hope this passage brings you some peace. You are both prayed for every day!

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  • March 31, 2009 - 7:44 pm

    Stacy - Continue to trust in God and know that prayers are being said for you and Joel each and every day. My heart aches for you knowing how much you miss your sweet baby Cora. I promise to continue to pray for you both.

    Take good care and God Bless.

    With thoughts & prayers,
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  • March 31, 2009 - 7:53 pm

    Anonymous - I just miscarried our twins this weekend and so appreciate your post reminding me that Jesus is the rock that we can cling to when everything seems upside-down.ReplyCancel

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  • March 31, 2009 - 7:53 pm

    Allen and Debby Graber - Jess,
    This song has been going through my head for over a week:

    A refuge for the poor
    A shelter from the storm
    This is our God
    He will wipe away your tears
    And return your wasted years
    This is our God
    Oh this is our God
    Oh this is our God

    This is the One we have waited for
    This is the One we have waited for
    This is the One we have waited for
    Oh this is our God

    A Father to the orphan
    A healer to the broken
    This is our God
    He brings peace to our madness
    And comfort in our sadness
    This is our God
    Oh this is our God
    Oh this is our God

    We listened to Cora’s mix all the way to Arkansas and back. God really speaks through these worship songs. They speak to the soul. I wholeheartedly agree with “Pampering Beki”. We’re there to hold you up!
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  • March 31, 2009 - 8:35 pm

    Beav's Wife - still praying. i think of you guys all the time.ReplyCancel

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    Susie (So Blessed) - Praying for you as you continue on your grief journey…ReplyCancel

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  • March 31, 2009 - 9:12 pm

    Krista - Jess,
    you don’t know me (I am a friend of a friend of yours & have been following your blog for a few months.) I just wanted you to know that I think of you and Joel and pray for you often. as a mother of 3 girls, i can’t even begin to imagine the heartache you feel. you are an amazing girl and such an inspiration to SO MANY and although God is using this is mighty ways, I am deeply saddened it is so painful for both of you. It would be easy for me to tell you to keep pressing on…I have no words for you except thank you for sharing so honestly and so beautifully.ReplyCancel

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  • March 31, 2009 - 9:14 pm

    lgraves - cheering you guys on …
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  • March 31, 2009 - 9:20 pm

    k and c's mom - We haven’t forgotten to pray for you and your family during this time. You stay near to our hearts.ReplyCancel

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  • March 31, 2009 - 9:26 pm

    Cristy - Jess…

    I think about each day. We are praying for you.

    Hugs and love…

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  • March 31, 2009 - 9:31 pm

    James' Full House - I think of you all daily. You continue to be in my prayers.
    There is a book I read called Silent Grief, it helped. It didn’t make me feel better but it helped me understand.
    God is right there walking beside you. We are here praying.
    It was good to hear from you.

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  • March 31, 2009 - 9:39 pm

    Lipstick - Thank you for sharing how you really feel. I grew up with the thought that you have to hide your real emotions. That is so wrong. I can’t even tell you how much I appreciate you sharing your true emotions.ReplyCancel

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    The Jones' - Sooo glad to know your still here! Sending you hugs and prayers always!!ReplyCancel

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  • March 31, 2009 - 9:54 pm

    Misty Rice-Baniewicz - Thinking, loving you and praying for you so much. Your in my thoughts all the time. The “FIRST” you miss so much, allow me to and remind me to APPRECIATE all my first and not so happy moments that much more. Tonight, while rocking baby girl she out of no where vomited a huge puddle all over me, herself and the floor and we both just had showers. I took a deep breath, smiled at her and just hoped in the shower with her and washed us both us again, before putting her to sleep. Then a thought of Cora ALWAYS comes to my mind and I pray for you.

    I know that doesn’t make it any easier for you….but I just really want you to see how you and Cora have BLESSED so many like me. THANK YOU.

    Sending big hugs.

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  • March 31, 2009 - 10:02 pm

    Angie - Thinking of you everyday and sending prayers on your behalf to the One who can comfort you.
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  • March 31, 2009 - 10:04 pm

    katie - You don’t know me, but I continue to be so, so impressed with the way you cling to your faith during this unimaginably difficult time.

    I am a Christian woman and you are a great example for me.

    And, I’m sure you know this, but remember — God knows you’re human. HE KNOWS that you are going to grieve, for a long time, and it will be extremely difficult for you. I think you have amazing, amazing faith in the midst of extremely sad circumstances.

    And, even though I don’t know you, from reading your blog, I can tell that Jesus will say to you someday – “Well done, good and faithful servant.”ReplyCancel

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  • March 31, 2009 - 10:07 pm

    Ray, Megan and Ruby Denise - praying for you in your sorrow. i remember you and your sweet Cora at 1:00 every day. my heart is sad for you tonight after reading your post, i wish there was some way to take away your pain.
    my mom died on a Sunday (Easter Sunday of 2006)…without realizing it, I get ansy/anxious/irritable/discontent/angry/sad on Sundays…Easter is hard because it is Easter…it changes days…so there is the date of her death and the date of Easter…

    ‘there will be a day with no more tears, no more pain, no more fears – there will be a day when the burdens of this place, will be no more – We’ll see Jesus FACE to FACE – but until that day…I’ll hold onto you always’

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  • March 31, 2009 - 10:23 pm

    Stephanie - I feel like you’re stronger than I could ever be…I’m just speechless at your strength! I pray for you every night….sending hugs your way!ReplyCancel

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  • March 31, 2009 - 10:29 pm

    The little things - I pray for you daily and know from some sort of same type of experience that grief is real and grief is hard- ride the waves girl…ReplyCancel

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  • March 31, 2009 - 10:44 pm

    Christina - Even though I don’t know you guys, after reading your story about 10 days into your ordeal, and then reading about Cora’s (almost) final rest (until that glorious day when we will all know true rest forever), for days I couldn’t think of anything else. I had a hard time functioning in my own home, it was strange and so gripping. Slowly as the days went by, and my own life “took over” again, thoughts of your sad, inspiring, beautiful, heartbreaking story were not so strongly in the forefront of my mind. We had a move to focus on, packing and stuff, my parents were coming, and other things were going on. But each day I thought of and prayed for you guys. I didn’t spend hours crying, though. (I hope that’s not too strange coming from one who has never met you-I was just so affected by the suddenness of it all and then the faithfulness of you both.) The other day I saw a picture of your family again on someone’s blog, a friend of yours, and it all hit me again, just the sadness of the whole thing. Your sweet family, so happy, and now…so much change. I thought to myself how funny it is that there are stages to sadness. I’ve never experienced something like what you are going through. There have been hard things, but not a loss like that. And you are so right about clinging to the Rock, there is only one. I think of you every Sunday, especially. I thought this Sunday that they might be more difficult. I thought of the Sunday that is coming up, where we will celebrate the risen Lord, the reason for our hope, the answer to our questions, the final victory over the enemy, and conqueror of death. I thought it would be hard and also a wonderful blessing to worship on this upcoming Easter. I pray that it is a blessing to you, that you will be blessed because you are loving and blessing the Lord. We sang “Blessed Be Your Name” on Sunday and I thought of you all-that is one of my favorite songs. It’s so powerful. Remembering the faithful believers in Scripture who were able to call on the Lord in their trials, and still lift up his name above all other names, giving him all glory and honor, helps so much when things are hard. I pray that you can continue to do the same thing, together as you take one day at a time, or even one minute at a time. Well, I have written a novel here, sorry. Many prayers cover you-ChristinaReplyCancel

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  • March 31, 2009 - 10:46 pm

    Amy - I thought of you the other day… I had an appt. near Wesley. As I turned the corner, tears just started. It took me a few seconds to realize why I was crying. I can’t even begin to imagine the number of things that bring tears to your eyes.

    We love you guys so much. You continue to inspire all those around you.ReplyCancel

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  • March 31, 2009 - 10:57 pm

    ran shae - you keep clinging to that rock, and we’ll be here praying for you. hold on!ReplyCancel

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    Misty - You inspire me so much.ReplyCancel

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    michele - hang on tight to the Lord and each other. may God richly bless you as you walk through these days. your deep faith is inspiring.ReplyCancel

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  • March 31, 2009 - 11:47 pm

    Lori - I’m sure I can speak on behalf of all us “anonymous” bloggers that don’t know you personally—–your friend, “PamperingBeki,” stated it best!!!

    We love you and think of you everyday. We continue to pray for you every day.

    Thank you for sharing your testimony with us all as you are on this journey. But listen to your friend, Beki!

    God Bless you and your sweet family!ReplyCancel

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  • March 31, 2009 - 11:49 pm

    Lexie Loo & Dylan Too - Continuing to pray for your family.ReplyCancel

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  • April 1, 2009 - 12:20 am

    carollai - grieving is so hard. i’m glad you have God to draw strength from. i myself am figuring out how to surrender all and finding that it’s easily said, hard to actively follow.ReplyCancel

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  • April 1, 2009 - 12:51 am

    wicker0407 - I check your blog often and Cora is never far from my mind or my heart. I do not know you but I thank you so much for sharing sweet Cora with me. My daughter is 15 months old and I could never imagine losing her, especially so fast I would never be able to be as graceful as you are. You and Joel are such an inspiration to me and my family. You show such raw emotion in your post. You have truly restored my faith in the Lord as well as humanity.Seeing how selfless all the people who don’t even know your family have been touched by your sweet Cora and donated for the Playground. I still don’t understand why God took her from you but her mission is surley clear and she will be remembered forever. God Bless and you will continue to be in my prayers.

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  • April 1, 2009 - 1:00 am

    Alison - I check back here often and think of you guys and Cora frequently. Praying for you always.ReplyCancel

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  • April 1, 2009 - 3:45 am

    Steve & Nancy - Oh bless your heart for even writing this post! I think of you and pray for you. Let yourself be sad, be angry and cry…it’s ok. God knows your pains. I am so proud of you for sharing your true feelings with us. I don’t know you personally, but wish I did. You are an inspiration. I will keep praying for you and your family God bless!ReplyCancel

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  • April 1, 2009 - 7:16 am

    Toni :O) - Sweet Jess….you have such a way of writing where I am able to feel your pain as well. I continue to pray for you and Joel and wish so hard that your days and nights get easier. That your grief eases a bit and you continue to gain more strength towards peace. I hope you and Joel find comfort in all of us praying for you the same way you give us comfort in keeping us updated on how you are doing. I too cherish God and I’m so thankful that He is there standing beside you both and helping to hold you up. Sending you much love and hugs of strength from Michigan as not a day goes by where I don’t think about you and your struggles to come to grips with such a devastating loss. We ALL miss Cora and I hope the playground fundraiser was a complete success!ReplyCancel

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  • April 1, 2009 - 7:31 am

    Christina (aka - Tina) - Thinking of you and praying for you still.

    Your blog friend from Missouri,

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    Megan (mommyesquire) - By far one of my favorite verses. Continuing to pray for you.ReplyCancel

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  • April 1, 2009 - 8:07 am

    Kristin Stegent - Thank you for sharing what you are going through and what you are feeling!

    In the worst time of my life (which was nothing compared to yours!), Jesus became my very best friend and the love of my life. My life will never be the same because of Him then…and the sweetness He and I still have.

    May He wrap you up and carry you…and may He become your very life, breath, song, and love…even more than ever before.

    You are beautiful, Jess, and I think of you guys almost daily and ache for you so often!ReplyCancel

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  • April 1, 2009 - 8:10 am

    Anonymous - Since finding your blog around the time that Cora was diagnosed, not a day goes by when I don’t think about your family and pray for you. My heart is so very sad for you. I continue to pray that the Lord will provide you with strength and encouragement during these hard days. (((HUGS)))ReplyCancel

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  • April 1, 2009 - 8:38 am

    Robin in Benton - I thought of Cora and her sled Saturday while I was watching it snow and knew that you and Joel had to be thinking about it too. While I worry about how you are doing (even though I’ve never met you) when you don’t blog, please take care of yourself. Grieving is a hard process and you are more brave than I would ever be able to be with the way that you are sharing it with all of us. Please know that we support you and pray for you constantly and that we are there for you – don’t feel obligated to blog all the time to be there for us. Love, hugs and prayers to you

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  • April 1, 2009 - 9:12 am

    Michelle - It has been awhile since your last post and I have been wondering about you. It’s good to hear from you again. Funny thing is I want to help you, but I end up here and you help me. I always hope to write something so profound but they are lost to me. I love reading your scriptures and versus. They inspire me to be try and do better. Still praying for you and your family.ReplyCancel

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  • April 1, 2009 - 9:34 am

    Don, Aimee, Kaitlyn and Kysen - Every time I sit and read your blog, I have the image of the one set of footprints walking on the sandy waters and the words of my favorite poem come to mind “Footprints”. For some reason, I have always found this poem so insiprational and such a testimony of God’s love for us in times of deep sadness. I can just imagine God holding you and Joel and walking you through this path of healing. We are not expected to be able to do these times by ourselves and that is why we are so lucky to have God as our Father. I ache every day for you as I hold my two year old….I ache for you when I think of you seeing little girls play, or wearing dresses. I ache for you and Joel even though you are in Kansas and I in Colorado. I will continue to pray for you and your family. I know that life will NEVER be the same for you, but the promise of Easter is among us and I pray that its meaning will empower you to continue to let God carry you through this storm.
    Here are the words to my favorite poem that I have read so many times. I even have them posted on my blog so I remeber to read it every day. GOD BLESS YOUR FAMILY!

    One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord. Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.
    In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand. Sometimes there were two sets of footprints, other times there was one only.
    This bothered me because I noticed that during the low periods of my life, when I was suffering from anguish, sorrow or defeat, I could see only one set of footprints, so I said to the Lord,
    “You promised me Lord,that if I followed you, you would walk with me always. But I have noticed that during the most trying periods of my life there has only been one set of footprints in the sand. Why, when I needed you most, have you not been there for me?”
    The Lord replied, “The years when you have seen only one set of footprints, my child, is when I carried you.”

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  • April 1, 2009 - 9:45 am

    Marsha - You are an inspiration to so many. I know that God is holding you tight through all this. Continuing to pray for you and your family every day! Love and prayers…

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  • April 1, 2009 - 9:59 am

    Judy - I’m still here too…just checking in and praying for you!ReplyCancel

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    Hair Bows & Guitar Picks - I think of you and your family all the time…ReplyCancel

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  • April 1, 2009 - 10:11 am

    Heidi - Jess, What you are going through is the worst type of grief. It is great that you talk about it and know to let it out. Remember all the little things about cora that made you laugh. Know that she is not in pain. When my Aunt lost her little boy she was grief stricken for quite some time. I told my aunt about you and she told me, Her doctor told her to get pregnant and have a baby. She said she couldn’t even think about that. When they day came that she did have another baby, when she felt ready,(girl this time) her heart got a little lighter. She said that she got to share the love with her little girl and she told her all about her big brother. The sadness of missing him will always be there, she said you learn how to live with it. I hope some day that the love you have for cora you will be able to share with many more babies. She will always be their big sister and a special angel for them. You seem to have great support from you family and friends. May God bless you all. Heidi, Coral Springs- FloridaReplyCancel

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  • April 1, 2009 - 10:21 am

    Falling Around - Jess,

    Though I’ve been on a bloggy break, you have remained in my thoughts and prayers. I was so sorry to read that Tony’s dad passed away. It just doesn’t seem fair that one family should suffer so much grief and loss in such a short period of time, but I know God has a plan. I will be praying for Olivia and her children… so sad.

    Thank you for continuing to share your journey with all of us. Your posts bring inspiration and perspective to those who read them. And though our hearts are heavy and broken for you, we can never truly know the pain you face day to day. But I hope that you get some small comfort in knowing that your readers are loving you and praying for you daily.

    XOXO’s
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  • April 1, 2009 - 10:41 am

    Steph - I have checked your blog daily and am greatful for your return. Again I will say that your faith is inspiring. It can’t be said enough. I know from my own heart that this greif thing really sucks. It physically hurts in the pit of your stomach. I am praying for you and just know that with time the hurt will go away a little everyday.
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  • April 1, 2009 - 10:51 am

    The Carroll's - and provide for those who grieve in Zion—
    to bestow on them a crown of beauty
    instead of ashes,
    the oil of gladness
    instead of mourning,
    and a garment of praise
    instead of a spirit of despair.
    They will be called oaks of righteousness,
    a planting of the LORD
    for the display of his splendor.
    Isaiah 61:3

    You are a display of his splendor! Praying and thinking of you always.

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  • April 1, 2009 - 11:36 am

    Kelli - Sending a prayer and a hug your way!ReplyCancel

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    amyflew - My thoughts and prayers are with you both and not a day goes by where I don’t lift up your family in prayer. I agree with PamperingBeki, don’t feel like you have to all this stuff for other people, it’s important you and Joel take time for yourselves and allow the Lord to lead you. Know that we are all praying for you (including lots of us you have never met)! You are both amazing people, thank you for your honesty it’s inspiring.ReplyCancel

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  • April 1, 2009 - 1:35 pm

    Jenny - Continuing to pray for you both….ReplyCancel

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    Brian and Staci - I think of you all the time. I’m in awe of your strength. Praying for you from Crazy Weather Oklahoma too ;)ReplyCancel

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  • April 1, 2009 - 2:08 pm

    Grace Halsey - A friend let me know about your blog and you have been in my thoughts and prayers for a while, but this is my first comment.

    We lost our son at 19 weeks (2nd trimester) last fall. I read two books that were helpful and I wanted to pass the titles onto you in case you feel like reading what other contemporary Christians have had to say after they walked through loss.

    “A Grace Disguised” by Jerry Sittser and “Holding onto Hope” by Nancy Guthrie.

    You have all you need in Christ, but sometimes it is helpful to be reminded of that over and over again. May God grant you the grace to be closer to HIM now and forever.ReplyCancel

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  • April 1, 2009 - 2:30 pm

    The Mershawn's - I’m so very sad at how painful this has to be. It stinks. But I’m still praying. Praying for better days to come, full of sweet, peaceful memories.

    “He who dwells in the secret place of the most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.”
    Psalm 91:1

    Stay there, and let Him hold you. He loves you both so dearly. As real as your love for Cora, He loves you more. And He understands how deeply, sharp and painful it is.
    Praying for you both!
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  • April 1, 2009 - 2:45 pm

    heather - Another beautiful post. I found your blog through Etsy and am so glad I did. It’s such an encouragement to see such strong reliance on God and His plan. Even when it hurts, He knows and is there. Your posts are a solid reminder of that. Thank you.ReplyCancel

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  • April 1, 2009 - 2:49 pm

    maryvigil - Jesus be near… Bless this mama and her hurting heart. Bless her with peaceful sleep, restful moments at your feet, dear friends, good fod, soft tissues and tender memories of her precious one. Be with her husband. Bless him with strength, patience, understanding, love, Godly men, good food and peaceful sleep. We love you and give glory to your Name. AmenReplyCancel

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  • April 1, 2009 - 3:17 pm

    Karina - I’m sure you will have a very rough year (at least – grieving takes time), and it seems unfair that you must suffer so intensely and there’s not a thing any of us can do to fix it. These are surely the darkest days; it has not been long enough since Cora left for you to feel relief, and time must stretch before you long and sad. The only things I can say: I haven’t forgotten your shining daughter; you and Cora have taken a permanent place in my heart because I am a mother too; and even though I am anxious when you don’t post (I imagine the worst, that you cannot even peel yourself out of bed in the morning for grief), I feel guilty when you pop in to say you are still there – after all it is none of my business if you don’t feel up to posting, who am I but a stranger anyway?? Pampering Beki already said it so well. Please take care of yourself and Joel – we can keep.ReplyCancel

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  • April 1, 2009 - 3:33 pm

    Tonya - Praying for you sweet thing. I, too, know the pain of losing a child…nothing in the world compares to it. It’s just so not the way things are supposed to happen. Your faith and strength in your grief are an inspiration to all who stop by your blog.

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  • April 1, 2009 - 5:07 pm

    mom2wendy - The “missing” part is most difficult. Walking through life without Cora will always bring pangs of deep saddness and great joy. Your written message is beautiul. You have given a voice to other grieving Mothers who have no ablity to express. But, by reading your words, they are able to make sense of what they too are feeling. You are giving a wonderful gift to other grieving souls simply by writing your honest thoughts. Bless you.
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  • April 1, 2009 - 5:08 pm

    Lynn Jones - Love to you two from Arizona. I think of you in so many circumstances and know how hard so many things must be to get through without tears. Of course no one expects you to. Your honesty is humbling and I pray that when you share it ministers to you in multiples of how richly you minister to us. God bless you, Jess.ReplyCancel

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  • April 1, 2009 - 5:14 pm

    timmonstimes - You are incredible! You don’t know me but I pray for you daily and think of you daily.

    A friend of mine and I keep up with your blog and we both have babies…we cry for your loss a lot but are amazed each day with your strength!

    I love the stuff in your store and will have to get my daughter, Corinne, a dress! Love from Texas!ReplyCancel

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  • April 1, 2009 - 5:23 pm

    Mandy - I still think, and speak of you often. I ache for you and pray for you as you endure this grieving process. It is not an easy thing to do, but you are definatly doing it right. Our Savior is proud that you have chosen to cling to Him at this time instead of turning your back. What faithful children of God you are!ReplyCancel

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  • April 1, 2009 - 5:28 pm

    Anonymous - I can’t really say anything that hasn’t already been said. I don’t know you, but I have been thinking and praying for you every day since I first read your blog when Cora was in the hospital. Even though I don’t know you, I even see little girls at church that are Cora’s age and it makes me sad. I can’t imagine how it must be for you. God bless you and Joel, may God continue to be your rock.

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  • April 1, 2009 - 5:56 pm

    Ashley Broach - I have posted on here before and check in on you …I too lost a sweet baby about three months ago to a brain tumor…he was 18 months old. The grief is unbearable, and about 6 weeks in, I felt the worst. I guess that’s when the shock wore off for me. Like you, I also have found much comfort in Scripture and love Psalm 143: 4-8; it helps me through some of the rough spots. Praying for you sweetie, and your precious Cora. Ashley (Webb’s mommy) ashleybroach.blogspot.comReplyCancel

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  • April 1, 2009 - 7:13 pm

    Sheryl from Colorado - Hi Jess,

    I am so sorry that your grief is so raw. My prayers are with you! I have something special for you that I made and want to send it to you. Please get back to me so I know what address that I can sent it to soon! Praying for peace and a healed heart. mvanduren@msn.comReplyCancel

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  • April 1, 2009 - 7:53 pm

    Lindsey - I continue to lift you in prayer. I pray that the Lord will wrap His loving arms around you and comfort you!ReplyCancel

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  • April 1, 2009 - 9:19 pm

    Townsend Crew - We continue to be inspired and blessed by your journey. We check your blog every day, but think of you a thousand times a day. We pray that your journey is made lighter by the many prayers and inspiration sent to you. Cora continues to teach us incredible lessons through you, her blessed parents. You will always be her parents. Parents of an angel!ReplyCancel

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  • April 1, 2009 - 9:38 pm

    wenbren explains it all - I got the pink Cora’s Playground pendant, and I loved it I put it on the first day it arrived!ReplyCancel

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  • April 1, 2009 - 10:20 pm

    Robin - still praying :)ReplyCancel

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    PamperingBeki - Praying for you tonight.

    That’s all.ReplyCancel

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  • April 1, 2009 - 11:27 pm

    JANE - You are an amazing woman. To be called to be such a witness for our God. You inspire the rest of us to be better. And I know I am better and stronger in my faith from reading your blog and knowing Cora’s story. You are always in my prayers.ReplyCancel

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  • April 2, 2009 - 7:21 am

    Anonymous - Always in my thoughts and prayers.

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  • April 2, 2009 - 10:11 am

    The Faulk Family - Praying for you every time God brings little Cora’s story to mind. You are such a witness, even in your grief…ReplyCancel

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  • April 2, 2009 - 10:27 am

    Misty Rice-Baniewicz - Stopping by to say hi to a sister….. thinking about you TODAY.ReplyCancel

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  • April 2, 2009 - 10:38 am

    lucyseay - Thinking of you and praying for you daily.
    Lucy Seay
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  • April 2, 2009 - 12:14 pm

    Anonymous - Hi-while I agree 100% with your friends, you are NOT obligated to blog, post etc on our behalf! I can not imagine the pain you are going through. My heart breaks for you. However for those of us who do not see you around, at church, stores etc it does our hearts good just to know that you are OK. So even though you don’t have to and as painful as it must be, THANK YOU for taking the time to let us know that you are ok. You have touched my life more than you will ever know. You, Joel and Cora are always in my thoughts, heart and I will continue to pray daily for you and your families.

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  • April 2, 2009 - 1:37 pm

    Wendy - My daughter has been living with a chronic, life-threatening disease for nearly 4 years. She looks seeminly normal on the outside, but an unpredictable war rages inside and I spend every day with some anxiety about her overall well-being. It requires an exhausting amount of brainpower and energy to keep her alive.

    Since following your blog, I’ve been challenged to ask myself if I would be as faithful in my deepest moments of sorrow…and I don’t know the answer.

    Both of you are an inspiration to me. Cora’s battle happened so fast. One day, one hour, one minute life was ordinary — and the next it was forever changed.

    “Ordinary” seems impossible to ever achieve again.

    May God bless every day of your journey.ReplyCancel

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  • April 2, 2009 - 1:41 pm

    Lauren - Still remembering and praying for you all. This Easter will take on a new and very special meaning.ReplyCancel

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    Heather - I think of you and your family often. You all are in my prayers!ReplyCancel

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  • April 2, 2009 - 2:45 pm

    lauren - you and your husband are an absolute inspiration.ReplyCancel

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  • April 2, 2009 - 4:15 pm

    Anonymous - thank you
    your faith is so strong. That is a reaffirmation to me as to how reliable our Father is. If He has strengthened your faith to that degree in your situation, then my faith can grow, too.
    thank you for your exampleReplyCancel

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  • April 2, 2009 - 5:02 pm

    Amy - I weep with your every post. From one mommy to another, I am praying for you.
    Your sister in Christ,
    Amy in Washington stateReplyCancel

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  • April 2, 2009 - 5:08 pm

    Kristi - I am so sorry. I still pray for you and your husband. I cannot imagine what you must be going through. I am glad you have Jesus to cling to.ReplyCancel

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  • April 2, 2009 - 8:17 pm

    ChinaSue - http://www.audreycaroline.blogspot.com

    Her words are inspiring and honest like yours….ReplyCancel

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  • April 2, 2009 - 9:04 pm

    Ethansmom08 - I think of you, your family, and Cora everyday…your story, grief, and words are so real and eloquently spoken. Cora’s life and story have had such an amazing impact on my life…I continue to pray for you often.

    And I whole heartedly agree with the others that have said you don’t “owe” us anything…just get to things in your own time and when you are ready.

    Prayers,
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  • April 2, 2009 - 9:16 pm

    Marlene W. - Thinking of you and Joel and continuing to pray for you daily. I thought of you when I was listening to a song by Poor Baker’s Dozen:

    Be my bread and water
    Lord you know I need you
    Lord you know I want you
    To fill me with your love

    I love that song. I pray that you will be continually filled with God’s amazing love for you.ReplyCancel

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  • April 2, 2009 - 11:01 pm

    Anonymous - Dear Jess and Joel,
    Jess, you are so honest about the
    grieving you are walking through…What courage it takes to be real and honest about your journey. Please keep writing about your journey, whether here on the blog or on paper….Also, you are not
    alone, consider finding a group of parents who are experiencing this same very difficult path. Blessings and take care of yourselves. Thinking and praying for you both. DianeReplyCancel

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  • April 4, 2009 - 12:25 pm

    The Schilling's from PICU - Jess and Joel,

    We continue to pray for you! I wish there was something we could do to make the days less painful! you are such an inspiration to us and have taught us a new way of life with God in it stonger than ever, and for that we are truely blessed! thank you! I think of you both everyday and hope for brighter days! Please know we are here for you! love and miss you!ReplyCancel

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  • April 4, 2009 - 7:20 pm

    Katie - You and your sweet Cora are still in our thoughts and prayers. I can’t imagine the grief you and your husband feel, but God can and feels it right along with you. I’m so glad you’re able to cling to your faith. Your family’s story has touched my heart, and Cora will never, ever be forgotten. Your faith, grace, and reliance on God serve as an inspiration for me, and show me how I want to live. I wish you peace and love.ReplyCancel

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  • April 4, 2009 - 9:37 pm

    Steph - Keeping you in our thoughts and prayers! You are so strong, God has special plans for you & Joel. Thanks for sharing your life with so many and being a Light in this world.
    xo,
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  • April 5, 2009 - 7:48 pm

    ARK - You are such an amazing woman of faith! I don’t know you but have followed your story and am praying for you all. Every time I think of you I say a prayer. I love your dresses, you are so talented.ReplyCancel

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  • April 6, 2009 - 1:56 pm

    Miss Em - I find myself praying for you and Joel everyday. I generally pray that you will find peace today and to make it through another day. Believe it or not, your grieving is normal and you are so right some days are harder then others and all of it is exhausting. I lost my little one two and a half years ago and found myself sobbing in church yesterday. I think the thing that frustrates me the most is the complete lack of control of my emotions. One minute I am fine and the next I am a heap on the floor smothered by grief. I just read what I wrote and not entirely sure that I am being helpful, so I will stop here. I am truely just trying to tell you that I know your pain and that in time it will ease but I would never really want it to go away completely because it reminds me of the love I have for my son and that God holds him and me and loves us so much and we are together that way for now. I am so blessed to know Cora’s story and I know God has so many amazing things for you and Joel. Sending my love to you.ReplyCancel

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There are six new dresses…
…and more coming next week!
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  • March 24, 2009 - 6:13 pm

    Anonymous - Tooooo cute..You and Grammy have been busy bees! I did get a cute burpie for my munchkin…he’s a little big(9 months wearing 12 months)and a boy, to wear the cute little things..
    I will continue to help support Cora’s Playground Project!
    You, Joel, Cora and your families are always in my thoughts and prayers!

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  • March 24, 2009 - 6:18 pm

    Maureen - Beautiful! I love your creativity!

    Thinking of you today,

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  • March 24, 2009 - 6:18 pm

    Phoenix's Mom - These are way to cute! You both have an amazing gift!
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  • March 24, 2009 - 6:22 pm

    Jenn - Please please please make that dress in an 18 month size. :)ReplyCancel

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  • March 24, 2009 - 7:01 pm

    Staci - Beautiful…

    I went to the store looking to buy a dress but didn’t see any. Are they sold out already?

    Lovely work!ReplyCancel

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  • March 24, 2009 - 7:08 pm

    Alisha - wow. I went to buy and they were all sold out. i will look for more…18 months size or more.ReplyCancel

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  • March 24, 2009 - 7:12 pm

    Whimsical Creations - wow those went fast!! That dress is beautiful!!ReplyCancel

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  • March 24, 2009 - 7:17 pm

    Heather - I’m never fast enough… lol!ReplyCancel

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  • March 24, 2009 - 7:29 pm

    Anonymous - I am never fast enough either. I just checked earlier today and now they are gone. You are doing a wonderful job. And we are praying for you!ReplyCancel

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  • March 24, 2009 - 7:41 pm

    Jennifer W. - Can’t believe how fast they sold! I LOVE those dresses but my 11 month old is in 18 mo+. I ditto the requests to make big sizes!ReplyCancel

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  • March 24, 2009 - 7:43 pm

    purejoy - sooo super cute! too bad my daughter is 18!! i know you’re going to sell out immediately!
    that playground won’t be long, now!ReplyCancel

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  • March 24, 2009 - 7:47 pm

    Lori - oh man I missed the dresses again!!!! The jackets are so cute. I hope to be able to get those dresses in 12 months for my twin girls… I love them!!!ReplyCancel

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  • March 24, 2009 - 7:50 pm

    The Carroll's - I just can’t get enough of the dresses! Unfortunately, I was too slow this time :) I’m so glad that this is another way to contribute to the Cora Playground… although my husband might be cutting me off soon- haha!ReplyCancel

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  • March 24, 2009 - 7:58 pm

    The little things - I’m too SLOW!! I was a dress so bad for my baby girl! I’ll be blog/etsy stalking like crazy nest week.

    I hope your hanging in there and sewing these adorable things is bringing some comfort to your heart. You are always in my prayers…ReplyCancel

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  • March 24, 2009 - 7:59 pm

    Marla Taviano - You sell out faster than you can even blog about them!! (charge more…) :)

    That is soooooooooo awesome! Such a tribute to Cora! They’re beautiful!!ReplyCancel

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  • March 24, 2009 - 8:10 pm

    Sara - ok…so, can we get a list going so we can get a dress?? ;)
    or a secret email so I know when to check?
    I really want a dress for my daughter to wear (24 month) in honor of Cora, too!
    Good for you…what an amazing baby girl- she’s touching a lot of people!ReplyCancel

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  • March 24, 2009 - 8:11 pm

    mommaof4wife2r - oh so beautiful!ReplyCancel

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  • March 24, 2009 - 8:28 pm

    Aimee Bakke - Just ordered a few more items for my nephew. I feel honored to help in this little way to make Cora’s Playground a reality. Still keeping you and Joel in my prayers. “Now may the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in Him, that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.” Romans 15:13 God bless!
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  • March 24, 2009 - 8:36 pm

    Kelli - Beautiful things to honor a beautiful life!!ReplyCancel

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  • March 24, 2009 - 8:49 pm

    Stephanie - Seriously as soon as you put them in there they’re gone! I’m not giving up though..I’m going to keep trying!!! :)ReplyCancel

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  • March 24, 2009 - 9:02 pm

    Ethansmom08 - Everything is just beautiful, I love it all and will be patient because I know one day I will grab one of those cute Tripp tees for my 1 year old son! And the dresses are amazing, just so precious!

    You and your mom are so talented!

    Love,
    Sara :)ReplyCancel

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  • March 24, 2009 - 9:04 pm

    Katherine - You’re sold out again. Doesn’t matter what I read on your blog–it all makes me cry. But, because of Jesus, yours is a story of HOPE in the midst of sadness.ReplyCancel

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  • March 24, 2009 - 9:10 pm

    Julie - Jess! I LOVE the pink hoodie. Those are a fun addition to Cora’s. See you soon and praying for you continually.ReplyCancel

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  • March 24, 2009 - 9:18 pm

    Midwest Mommy - Sold out already? Awesome!ReplyCancel

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    blessedmomto7 - Missed them again!ReplyCancel

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  • March 24, 2009 - 10:01 pm

    Polka Dot Moon - So cute and I’m too late AGAIN!!ReplyCancel

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  • March 24, 2009 - 10:32 pm

    Kristin Stegent - Loving the hoodies! I just didn’t get there fast enough! So cute!! :)

    Loved that you got to share Cora’s story on the news and in the paper! I have shared her story and yours several times. Almost everyone I tell cries.

    My 10 month old girl has two ear infections (2nd time this month) and a bad cold…and I must admit that I am slightly paranoid now. I really think you guys are amazing and pray Jesus continues to walk you through and through!ReplyCancel

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  • March 24, 2009 - 10:55 pm

    Jessica - I missed them again! I wish I had a little girl for those beautiful dresses.

    Waiting on more caterpillar tees for my babies 4T and 6 or 9 months *hint hint* lol

    You are always in my prayers!

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  • March 24, 2009 - 11:03 pm

    Tonya - Wow. It is all so beautiful!ReplyCancel

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  • March 24, 2009 - 11:13 pm

    Anonymous - Jess,
    The clothes you’re making are absolutely so adorable. I can’t wait to see what kinds of boy things you might come up with…
    I know I don’t publish very many comments on your blog, but I do want to you to know that I think about you everyday-honestly. I’m one of the many, many people who await for your next post on your blog- just something to make me know you’re doing ok or not doing ok, but just “hearing” you gives comfort to me. That’s a selfish thing to say, but I want you to know I think/pray for you often.
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  • March 24, 2009 - 11:21 pm

    Susan - Surely you are the most popular store on ETSY right now! Perseverance will eventually pay off and I’ll get something (a dress or hoodie) someday! What a great way to support the playground and hopefully this helps in your healing process as well.

    Much love to you as you wake each new day. I’ve not forgotten about sweet Cora- she is one of Gods’ miracles….(did you read MckMama’s post on Miracles)- if not, you should- it’s really good.

    All you Mommies who have gone through all that you have- oh, the admiration I have for you all. I’ll say it again- I don’t know if I could do it….but, yet, I know I could.

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  • March 24, 2009 - 11:43 pm

    Kristi REDISKE - Well I missed out on the dresses again, so I will keep checking. I did get a necklace ordered the other day so I am excited about that. You guys are great-still praying for you-God Bless you all.ReplyCancel

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  • March 25, 2009 - 12:21 am

    Jill - Beautiful dresses! I can not wait to find a 2t available!! They sure go quickly!!!
    In my prayers,
    JillReplyCancel

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  • March 25, 2009 - 1:34 am

    Candice - You are SO making me want a girl next time around. :)ReplyCancel

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  • March 25, 2009 - 8:31 am

    ems - poop – i’m never fast enough either!!! Was thinking about you in bible study yesterday. Doing the newest Beth Moore Study (Esther) I’m sure you know someone doing it, seems like tons of people are!! Anyways, she was talking about facing your biggest fears and said that the word courage comes from the latin root “cor” (instantly my mind went to little Cora, and of course started crying). “Cor” means heart,and courage comes from a heart thatis convinced it is loved. Truely could be said about your little girl!! The lesson was so good, if you have a minute it’s worth downloading (www.lifeway.com) – it was session 4ReplyCancel

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  • March 25, 2009 - 8:34 am

    Micah - Girl, I really can’t believe how fast this stuff sells OUT! Cute, cute stuff!!! Love the hoodie!ReplyCancel

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  • March 25, 2009 - 9:02 am

    PamperingBeki - SOOOO stinking cute!

    I was awake late last night praying for you. Don’t know why you were on my mind so heavily but you were.

    I really love that every time my eyes land on hot pink now, I instantly think of you and Cora. Hot pink is now synonymous with “The Macs” and I have a little bittersweet moment every time I see it.

    I’m not making requests here ;-) … BUT if I were to see a 2T or 3T Tripp tee, I’d love to snatch it up.

    God bless you guys! Love you!ReplyCancel

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  • March 25, 2009 - 9:16 am

    Shelly - Wow… you sure do sell out fast!
    But that’s a good thing =)
    If you were to have some dresses in a 5T and 4T, I would be sure to buy those for my daughters.
    Thank you so much for all the cute items that you have been able to put together.
    Great work!
    Shelly
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  • March 25, 2009 - 9:30 am

    Marsha - I missed them again! I am waiting for a dress and now a hoodie for my little girl! I hope that I can be fast enough one of these days! You all are amazing people who God is using in mighty ways. My prayers are with you!

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  • March 25, 2009 - 10:03 am

    Anonymous - Your dresses are so cute, you definately have a talent (& a great fashion sense)! With all the people trying to get their hands on them, you should consider opening your own business!

    Still praying for you guys!
    Lisa
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  • March 25, 2009 - 10:35 am

    Anonymous - How courageous you all are! Your faith is still oh so inspiring.
    Thoughts and prayers are with you multiple times a day.

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  • March 25, 2009 - 12:23 pm

    Wendy - wow, those went quick. i went on to buy this morning and everything for a 6 month girl was gone. (mine is 4 months). i’m so glad for you that things are selling so quickly. i think so many people want these beautiful reminders of cora. i hope i see more soon, i love everything that you and your mother made. it’s just so precious and i think of you everyday. by the way, the news piece was great. thanks for sharing your story and touching so many lives in ways you may never know, (until we all get to heaven, anyway!)ReplyCancel

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  • March 25, 2009 - 12:50 pm

    sarahross - Beautiful!ReplyCancel

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  • March 25, 2009 - 1:34 pm

    Karina - Dang, too late again! At this pace you’ll have to hire help to satisfy the masses, lol! The photos you posted are adorable. I’ll just have to stay up all night to have better luck tomorrow…ReplyCancel

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  • March 25, 2009 - 1:51 pm

    Kristin - You continue to inspire me with your etsy store! I have been wanting to do something like that for a year now, and still haven’t! Your items are so adorable and so creative! I love them!ReplyCancel

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  • March 25, 2009 - 3:49 pm

    Ruth - beautiful, beautiful. i love how fast you sell out! still praying for you daily. God bless.ReplyCancel

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  • March 25, 2009 - 5:11 pm

    Anonymous - Jess, Wow!!! You guys have quite the business! I read some comments on here about not being fast enough. I’m the same, they are always gone. I wish I was as talented as you and your mom and could come help get the orders out:) You continue to amaze me! The McClenahan fam. is so blessed to have you. You have done our name proud and now you are making us look like we have talent in the craft area:) Thanks!!! We are trying to get down there for a visit sometime, we will see. It may not be until Ivy’s grad now. You and Joel are always welcome here. We love you guys and I pray for you all the time! You continue to amaze me and I love how I can see God in all of this. Love you, AndiReplyCancel

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  • March 25, 2009 - 5:55 pm

    angie c - Missed the dresses again! Ack! How awesome how quickly your stuff sells out… everyone loves you and your creations! Hope that you are having a better week this week, you are in my thoughts daily. AngieReplyCancel

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  • March 25, 2009 - 7:27 pm

    Karen - I read the Etsy blog post about your situation today, and my first thought was, “how horribly sad” and second was “I wonder if they are Christians?” I was so excited to read your blog and see that you have the grace of Jesus Christ in your life. I have never had children so I can’t truly relate to the pain you are suffering – but I know that God’s grace is sufficient to meet your needs, as impossible as that may seem or feel. May God bless your family with His encouragement and love. He has promised to never leave or forsake you.ReplyCancel

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  • March 25, 2009 - 9:02 pm

    ang - WOW!!!! CUTE, CUTE stuff!! I can’t believe it’s almost gone again! You are in our thoughts and prayers each day.ReplyCancel

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  • March 25, 2009 - 10:10 pm

    Be My Chickadee - Your fabric selections & combos are great.ReplyCancel

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  • March 26, 2009 - 12:42 am

    Dawn - Those items are, but of course, ADORABLE. But I’m always way too slow. Hoping to someday buy a 3T or 4T size. And a block.
    I’m patient though. :)ReplyCancel

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  • March 26, 2009 - 11:18 am

    meg duerksen - hey jess….
    been thinking about you a lot today.
    i will be praying.
    these are cute dresses.
    they were already all gone before i got one. :)
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  • March 26, 2009 - 12:25 pm

    young fam - You are so talented! Do you have any formal training or does it all come naturally? Also, the photographs that you take look so professional. I hope you have been able to find some peace and healing. Best wishes.ReplyCancel

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  • March 26, 2009 - 2:46 pm

    Anonymous - Always thinking of you and praying for you. My heart just hurts for you and Joel.

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  • March 26, 2009 - 3:40 pm

    Steve & Nancy - I wished I had the opportunity to purchase something before it’s all gone!!… I guess that is a good thing…the clothes are ADORABLE! I will keep checking back :) I have prayed for you and your husband. God bless!

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  • March 26, 2009 - 11:30 pm

    The Schilling's from PICU - Hey, How are you? The dresses are soooo cute! I also loved the necklace and had bought one when they first came out! love it and have had lots of sweet comments about it when I wear it! Jaylee has been sick again this week, not RSV this time or yet? but on 2 steriods and breathing treatments every six hours. They warned us that the first cold would be bad! SCARY and we have been on top of it…..probably a little tooo much, the doctors are used to or should I say sick of seeing us this week! ha
    Ruth had sent us an invite for Easter dinner….. How sweet is that….. We are planning on coming, unless my brother from Lawrence comes home…. Then we will go to my parents. I don’t get to see him or my nephew to often. My kids are soooo excited to meet you all! Sounds like you are doing good…. I still hear the sadness in your voice, but I am very proud of you and know that it is a daily struggle. I still appreciate your words of wisdom and faith more than you know! Looking forward to seeing you all soon! Now I should head to bed, and get ready for this big snow storm they say is coming….
    So we have a snow day from school tom. YEPPPEEE!
    But I am sure that won’t keep Mr. Blake from heading out to play in it! :)
    Take care and know We think of you daily and pray for “happier” days ahead! :)
    love you!

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  • March 27, 2009 - 2:40 am

    The Gustafson Family - Will you be making more?? I would love to honor Cora by having my daughter wear a dress. Make more pretty please!!ReplyCancel

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  • March 27, 2009 - 4:37 pm

    Anonymous - Thinking of you!

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  • March 27, 2009 - 8:10 pm

    Robin in Benton - I got my Cora’s Playground necklace today and was just thinking about you – wanted to let you know that I am still praying for the two of you and hoping for peace in your hearts.

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  • March 27, 2009 - 10:20 pm

    Christine - Jess, I don’t leave many regular comments on your blog, but I just want you to know that my family is still thinking and praying for you and Joel and Cora. I keep checking in on you.

    I left an award for you on my blog.

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  • March 28, 2009 - 9:29 am

    Heather - Thinking of you guys and praying for you. I just got my Cora’s Playground pendant necklace in the mail and I love it! Cora will never be forgotten.
    Hugs and prayers
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  • March 28, 2009 - 3:52 pm

    PamperingBeki - Loving and praying for you guys today.ReplyCancel

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  • March 28, 2009 - 4:09 pm

    mommyoflove2 - I came across your blog in the past 6 weeks and was brought to tears over the loss of your beautiful Cora. I think it’s so amazing that you share her story through your grief to share God’s love with others. I pray for your family often.
    And your etsy items are beyond adorable!ReplyCancel

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  • March 28, 2009 - 6:29 pm

    Kristi REDISKE - I received my necklace in the mail today and was so excited-I love it and I will keep praying for you all. It will be a good reminder to me of what God has done and is doing. Thankyou for being faithful and loving our God and letting people see it even in these difficult times.ReplyCancel

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  • March 28, 2009 - 9:14 pm

    Anonymous - I too received my Cora’s Playground necklace. Lovely
    I don’t think that you, Joel or sweet Cora will EVER leave my mind..but my many keepsakes are beautiful..blocks, burpie, necklace and more to come..
    ALWAYS in my thoughts, heart and continue to send many prayers.

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  • March 28, 2009 - 11:27 pm

    KAM~ - I said a prayer for you tonight as I released a balloon for Cora. I find myself thinking of Cora and your family often. Please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers.

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  • March 29, 2009 - 9:02 am

    PamperingBeki - The song Mighty To Save has been in my head all morning and I can’t stop thinking about you guys on this Sunday.

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  • March 29, 2009 - 2:17 pm

    The Carroll's - Thinking about you guys today- still praying :)ReplyCancel

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  • March 29, 2009 - 9:55 pm

    Sheryl from Colorado - Hi Jessica,

    I have been following your blog and continue to pray for your family. I have something that I would like to send to you and I would like either your address, your church’s address or a P.O. Box to have this delivered. I know that it sounds strange but my daughter and I made something special for you! Please, if you can, get back with me at mvanduren@msn.com. Thank You and I hope that the signs of Spring bring you hope!ReplyCancel

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  • March 30, 2009 - 9:09 am

    Joe, Katie and Taylor - Hi! I have been following your site for a while, passed on from a friend. I think you all are doing such a wonderful thing, especially during such a hard period.

    I wanted to know if you all where you got the pattern for the sweet little dresses? I sew and since you sell out so fast, wanted to see if I could attempt to make one myself. Please let me know!!ReplyCancel

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  • March 30, 2009 - 9:11 am

    PamperingBeki - I’m praying you smile a lot today every time you think about Cora and her chubby cheeks and her laughs.ReplyCancel

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  • March 30, 2009 - 10:52 am

    Anonymous - Hoping you are finding some joy in life as you find ways to continue to make it through the day. Always in my thoughts and always sending my prayers. I think you are amazing, inspiring and full of grace..

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  • March 30, 2009 - 11:58 am

    hoosier68 - Still thinking about you here daily in SW Indiana. I’ve ordered a necklace and am hoping to get one of your adorable dresses. Such creative ideas. Prayers for you and yours.ReplyCancel

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  • March 31, 2009 - 8:34 am

    Anonymous - you are weighing heavily on my heart today. Always praying for you and Joel! Can we help?

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  • March 31, 2009 - 11:12 am

    PamperingBeki - Thinking of you and praying for peace for you today.ReplyCancel

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  • March 31, 2009 - 1:40 pm

    Robin in Benton - Thinking of you and praying for you today.

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  • March 31, 2009 - 3:53 pm

    lucinda - hi jessica,
    i just wanted to say hi and reach out. i am inspired by your project and have one of mine own going to honor my son cooper who died when he was 3 weeks old. any way just wanted to say i understand the journey and my grieving heart aches for your grieving heart.
    stay strong
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  • March 31, 2009 - 5:14 pm

    Ruth - Still praying.
    :)ReplyCancel

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  • April 1, 2009 - 9:15 am

    Erin - Darn it. Too late again. :( My son is too old, but looking to get one of those cute little dresses for my niece!ReplyCancel

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  • April 8, 2009 - 5:53 pm

    awalkthroughthevalley - How beautiful! You are very talented. I only wish I had a little girl to put in one of those dresses!

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