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The Daily Grace Collection is one of my favorites. I love the white…and the words…and the simplicity. I have several pieces from this collection, including the cake pedestal, so I had to share this deal with you too! Starting today, the Daily Grace Cake Pedestal will be on sale for $12!! This is a huge discount as this cake pedestal is listed at $40. So, stock up for Mother’s Day, summer weddings, birthdays, or grab one for yourself. To make this deal even sweeter, you can use the code MOTHER35 to get 35% off one item…you can apply this one item discount to the cake pedestal or any other item you are purchasing! And don’t forget that when you spend $25 shipping is free. DaySpring is the best.

This deal runs through Monday, May 4th. Happy shopping!

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  • C.C - Bummer…can’t get the MOTHERS35 code to work on the cake pedestal!ReplyCancel

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  • C.c. - Got the code to work w/out an S …it’s MOTHER35ReplyCancel

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    Jess Reply:

    Oh no!!! So sorry I messed that up. Glad you figured it out. I corrected the code in my post. Thank you!

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    • Jess - Oh no!!! So sorry I messed that up. Glad you figured it out. I corrected the code in my post. Thank you!ReplyCancel

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  • Dena - Thanks for the heads up on the cake pedestal…. so glad I cked your site today! I ordered two of those (one as a gift for a friend) and a few other things.ReplyCancel

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    Jess Reply:

    Oh yay! It was such a good deal. Enjoy! :)

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Today and tomorrow (March 17th and 18th) DaySpring is having a $5 Easter sale. There are some really great deals and some fun things for filling Easter baskets. Everything pictured above is just $5!! Here are a few of my favorites.

$5 sale-mug

DaySpring has the best mugs. I love this new Mighty to Save mug. And what a good reminder as you finish up that cup of coffee in the morning…He is mighty!

Mighty to Save Mug – $5

$5 sale-color wonder

This was our first time using Color Wonder…what a great idea! My kids love using markers and with these there is no mess. We even brought this pad to church and I didn’t have to worry about the kids drawing on the church chairs. Griffin even tried. This 24-page color pad has pictures from the Beginners Bible. My boys loved coloring pictures from Bible stories that they knew. These would make great gifts or something fun to put in your kid’s Easter baskets.

The Beginners Bible Color Wonder Coloring Pad and Markers – $5 $5 sale-grace creamer

Do you remember this adorable cream and sugar set? I gave them as teacher gifts last year and they were a big hit. The sugar bowl is on sale for $5. This is a great deal! Snag one for yourself and a few extra for gifts too!

Daily Grace Sugar/Candy Bowl – $5

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Here are the other six other items included in the $5 Easter sale. Visit DaySpring to see them all!

Really Wooly Plush Cora

(every kid needs a Cora sheep in their Easter basket!  😉 )

U-NEEK Set – Alliebird

Easter Jesus is Alive Children’s Activity Set

Easter Really Wooly Children’s Book

Pen/Stationary Set

Time of Refreshing Journal

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  • Melissa Joy - Jess, I just wanted you to know that you and your precious family have often been in my prayers over the last month or two. You are loved, even by those you’ve never met. May Christ’s grace be tangible for you today, with wherever your family is and whatever He has you doing. (((hugs)))ReplyCancel

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Dear Jakers,

Eight months was a rough one for our family but, just like always, Jesus was so faithful and we made it through. Griffin had to spend another night in the hospital for seizures and while I was trying to take care of him, I was pretty sure you were getting another ear infection. I was so torn as I needed to be with Griffin in the hospital but knew that would mean spending another night away from you. Thankfully Grammy was here to help us and take care of you. She even took you to the doctor the next day…sure enough, it was another double ear infection! No wonder you were cranky. While Grammy was staying with us she helped me sleep train you. I was so worn out physically and emotionally and I just couldn’t bare to hear you cry. We did a lot of snuggling but not much sleeping. So now you are sleeping in your crib in your room and taking two good naps. We are all feeling so much better about that! You are still waking up at night but hopefully we will get to sleeping through the night soon.

Don’t worry, there have been some fun things about eight months too. You have the sweetest two-teeth smile. You started clapping on April 13 and haven’t stopped since. You love being outside. You get so excited when I open the back door. We are all loving the nice weather. And you are still a big boy. You are wearing 12-18 month clothes and size 4 diapers. Oh, and I can’t forget that you said your first word…it was “dada” of course! I can’t wait to hear your sweet voice say mama.

Love you!

Mama

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  • Michelle from Australia - I think his face is pure happiness. Gorgeous boy!ReplyCancel

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  • Brady W. - Oh my goodness! What a sweet boy–and he looks JUST like Cora. Glad to hear his Grammy got him trained a little better in sleep! It’s rough on everyone when a kiddo doesn’t sleep well. And praying for Griffin. Hope his seizures get regulated quickly. I work for a pediatric neurologist in Wichita, so if you ever have any questions (not that I’m an expert!), feel free to email me :)ReplyCancel

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  • Leiah - Glad Grammy could help with the sleeping! It makes such a difference. Funny, my teeny girl is 17 months, wearing size 3 or 4 diapers.ReplyCancel

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I was talking to a friend about birthdays and we both agreed that every year is hard for a different reason. You see, we each celebrate the birthday of a daughter who is no longer on earth with us. Both sweet girls were March babies. A new year begins and before you know it you are turning the calendar to March and aren’t quite ready to face another birthday. It seems like every year should get easier, but I don’t think there is any way to prepare for the pain that comes on that day that you should be celebrating life when instead you are forced to face the gaping reality of death and your daughter’s absence. You want to celebrate, you really do, but the grief can seem overbearing. The first year everything was new and raw and painful. Not having Cora here to celebrate her first birthday, well, I honestly didn’t know how I was going to make it through that day. A few birthdays later and we were suddenly facing Cora’s fifth birthday. Five seemed like such a big milestone. A milestone that we didn’t get to experience with our girl. Last year was kindergarten and Cora would have turned six. As all her little friends celebrated and had school birthday parties I longed to know what it would be like to be doing the same with my Cora. And this year? Well, this year was just heavy. I think my emotions were worn out after walking through all of Griffin’s health issues along with other hard things that we’ve been walking through with friends all at the same time. So when Cora’s day came I just felt like it was too much. And you know what? On my own it was too much. Do you know the feeling? Like you just can’t carry the load on your own any more?

I love that God knows every feeling and emotion I have. And lately I have been feeling all the feelings. I don’t have to try to explain my heartache to Him and hope He doesn’t think I am a crazy lady. He knows me. He doesn’t think I’m crazy or even tell me to toughen up and stuff my emotions. He instead draws close to me and invites me to come to Him in my weariness and burdensome mess. God is close to me when my heart is broken and my spirit is crushed. Isn’t that the best promise? He wants me to come to Him with my burdens and all the heaviness that seems too hard to carry on my own. He wants to carry it for me. And not only that, but when I allow Jesus to meet me in my mess He promises peace and rest. On these days especially, I long for that peace and rest that can only be found in Jesus.

So I opened my eyes the morning of March 5th, 2015, and I told God that just like every other birthday, it felt like too much to get through that day. My girl would have turned seven. I remember the details of the day she was born like it was yesterday. Becoming a mama and holding my daughter in my arms for the first time was the best. The best. I remember that my heart felt like it was going to burst and I couldn’t stop looking at that precious little girl we named Cora Paige. There is nothing quite like that first time you become a mom. I can hardly even fathom what it would be like to have a seven year old little lady in my house today. And I miss her more than I can bear sometimes. I asked God to carry the burdens of that day because I knew that He would. He has been faithful to carry me through the past six birthdays and I was confident that He would faithfully carry me through her birthday again. I didn’t have to try to explain or wipe away my tears because He knew exactly what was going on in my heart. All I had to do was come to Him and lay it all at His feet.

March 5th was spent doing some normal things like spending the morning at the doctor’s office with Jake because of an ear infection. Seizure medications, naps, little boys playing and even a few fits filled the rest of the day. We released seven pink balloons at the cemetery and the boys wondered how long it would take them to get to Cora. And then we spent the evening eating dinner and bowling together as a family. It wasn’t perfect, it was still hard, but it was good. And God carried us through just like He has every year in the past. He is so faithful.

Happy birthday sweet Cora Paige! And thank you to so many of you who celebrated her along with us and prayed for our family too!

The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. Psalm 34:18

Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Matthew 11:28

 

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  • Angela - Just prayed for you. Praying you feel an overwhelming amount of comfort and joy today. I can’t imagine how you feel every March. You are such a strong mama. Thank you for using your story to bless others and point is back to God. Hugs to you!ReplyCancel

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  • Sarah - I love our friendship and I’m thankful for how our girls teach us about the heart of Christ. Marching through March with you. ReplyCancel

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  • Allison - As I was reading this post, this song kept playing in my head. The lyrics are so powerful and a great reminder that Jesus knows your heart and wants you to “come as you are”. Praying for you and your family.

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  • Trisha - I’m so grateful that there are other mama’s out there that I can relate to. So few know what it’s like to celebrate the birthday of a child in Heaven. It’s helps (a lot) to be reminded that I am NOT alone.

    Hugs,
    Trisha

    PS – My son Nate would have turned 7 on March 5th as well.ReplyCancel

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  • Toni :0) - I still pray for your family but said a special prayer for sweet Cora on her birthday. I can only imagine how difficult but I’m grateful you have a wonderful support system. God bless. xoxoReplyCancel

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  • Emily K - Jess, I have been reading your blog since Cora’s passing. Only today did I realize that Cora and my baby girl, Caroline, share a birthday – March 5th. My Caroline was born in 2014. The tears flowed as I read your post. The pain of losing a child is unimaginable. You are so strong and your blog always speaks to me. Peace to you and your precious family.ReplyCancel

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  • Mary Ann - I wished Cora happy birthday on her special day. March 5 is a very special day for me too because it was the day me and my darling husband got married. He’s been gone since August 2008, almost 7 years. Those milestones and dates are so very special but so very hard too. I’m so glad you felt God’s loving arms around you on Cora’s birthday. She is your anchor to heaven just like my husband is for me. I think about your cute family a lot…you’ve had a lot on your plate lately so I hope things are settling down for you. I love your posts and mostly I love your words of hope and inspiration, your faith and trust in God and those boys…I love the photos of them.ReplyCancel

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  • Melissa Joy - Yes, yes, yes:
    “I didn’t have to try to explain or wipe away my tears because He knew exactly what was going on in my heart. All I had to do was come to Him and lay it all at His feet.”
    Thank you, Jess.
    Your daughter shares a birthday with my daddy, so I always remember. Thanks for giving us another glimpse into your sacred moments.ReplyCancel

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  • Stefanie - Happy Birthday to your beautiful girl. She touched my heart from the moment I found your blog. I prayed for her and for you every day, and my heart broke when I heard the news. Thoughts and prayers to you and your family. Thank you for sharing her with all of us. Your story touched me, and I’ll never forget her beautiful face.ReplyCancel

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  • Jody - Thinking of you and praying for you as the school year preparations begin. I especially think of your beautiful girl every August when my daughter who is 7 starts school. Thank you for taking your precious time to share your faith.ReplyCancel

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I had a goal…not a lofty one…but a goal nonetheless. My goal was to blog twice a week in 2015. It has been hard to find any time to write since Jake has been born and I missed writing. I was sensing that God still had a purpose for this little blog and I didn’t want to miss out on what He was doing. I was off to a pretty good start and then…well, I’m not even sure how to describe what happened. But it sure seemed like our little life in Kansas began to fall apart. Some days we wondered what in the world was happening, but then God would gently remind us again of His faithfulness. And now we are trying to trust Him day by day with this new part of our story that we were not expecting. That’s how life often works isn’t it? We think we have a pretty good plan of our own but things happen and we find ourselves daily realigning with God’s plan and trusting Him even when we don’t understand.

Let me go back to January…

My brother was here helping me with a little kitchen project. We had a cabinet emptied and pulled of the wall and Joel came home for lunch. Right after lunch he started having extreme pain in his abdomen…like my big, strong husband was on the floor in tears. It kept getting worse. We had no idea what to do so my brother got him to his truck and drove him (really fast) into the ER. Two nights in the hospital and one gallbladder removal surgery later, he was feeling much better. And we were so thankful it was an easy fix. Because when your husband is on the floor in that much pain it makes you a little nervous. Just a little.

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This all happened on a Wednesday and we were scheduled to leave on a trip to California to visit my parents the following Wednesday. I was so bummed. I thought for sure we wouldn’t be able to go. But God orchestrated even the details of this little trip. We were sitting in the airport and I found myself taking a deep breath. It had been such a crazy week and this was going to be the perfect way to recover. Thank you God for this gift.

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We were planning on spending the whole week on the beach. The sunshine, rest and time as a family was going to be perfect. Friday we were driving back to my parent’s house after spending the afternoon on the beach and I heard a strange choking/gargling sound. I turned around and Griffin had a horrible blank stare on his face and was unresponsive. We weren’t sure what was happening, pulled over and called 911. I never have been as scared as I was when I pulled his little limp body out of his car seat and handed him to Joel. He was having a seizure. We took an ambulance ride to the children’s hospital, Griffin had a clear CT scan (praise the Lord!), and then we headed home…cause of seizure unknown. They told us sometimes kids just have a weird seizure and that’s it.

The next day Griffin seemed back to normal. I think it took us longer to recover…he scared us! We watched him closely, hoped it was just a random seizure, and went on with our vacation. The rest of the week was uneventful and we made it home. Thank goodness!

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And then came February…

We followed up with our pediatrician who referred us to a pediatric neurologist. At this point Griffin still seemed pretty normal and then later that same afternoon he started having jerky “falls” that we suspected were related to the California seizure. He had several more “falls” that weekend and so our pediatrician got the neurologist appointment moved up. We were expecting that the doctor would want to do further testing. What we didn’t expect was the urgency. We went straight from that appointment to the PICU. The doctor wanted to monitor the seizures and get testing done as quickly as possible. The last time we went from an appointment straight to the hospital with a child was with Cora. It felt all too familiar and we were scared. Really scared. There was a lot of waiting and a lot of crying out to God over the next few days. Our worst fear was that they would find a tumor causing the seizures. Between the two of us I am sure we told God a million times we couldn’t do cancer again. The struggle to understand how we could possibly have another sick child was big and we were begging Him for normal test results. We were so relieved when we finally heard that the MRI and EEG both read normal. Praise the Lord!! We checked in Tuesday afternoon and got dismissed Thursday evening. Griffin was diagnosed with Atonic seizures (which is a genetic thing since all the tests were normal). As much as we would love for Griffin to not have to deal with epilepsy, we felt so thankful that we weren’t dealing with cancer again. So thankful.

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And then began the journey of figuring out what seizure meds and dosages would work for Griffin. It has been a roller coaster for sure. We have had some really hard days and some really great days. I have struggled with that heart racing fear every time I hear a thud or Griffin falls. I wonder what the day is going to hold as I open my eyes each morning. It has reminded me of how I need to rely on God’s manna each day…really, each minute of each day. He is the only One who knows what I need…and He is the only one who can provide for those needs.

Like last Wednesday, almost two weeks after we had been dismissed from the hospital. Griffin had been having a few seizures again and I was in conversation with the nurse about what our next step would be. That evening the neurologist returned my call. That is never a good thing, right? When we had been in the hospital the first time they had taken a urine collection to test specifically for neuroblastoma…because of our family history, no other reason. Well that test had come back with one indicator just barely over the normal range. He wanted Griffin to come back to the hospital to have a full body CT scan to rule out neuroblastoma. I got all the details, hung up the phone and totally lost it. I couldn’t handle even hearing the word neuroblastoma. We went back to the hospital that evening with our sweet Griffin. Twenty four hours later we were getting dismissed after Griffin’s seizures were under control and the news of a NORMAL SCAN!! You can imagine the rejoicing that was going on that evening! It was a day of waiting and waiting and waiting and crying out to God (along with so many others) for our Griffin. I think Joel and I wanted to run and dance out the doors of the hospital that night. And Griffin requested a QT hotdog and drink on the way home. You’d better believe we gave him all the hotdogs he wanted.:)

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So now…

With all the tests being normal, ruling out anything that might be causing the seizures, we are back to just an epilepsy diagnosis like I explained before. We are working with the doctor to figure out what meds best work for Griffin. We are still having some really hard days but we are having some really good days mixed in there too. And we have been surrounded by so many friends and family and so much prayer as we figure this all out. We have been overwhelmed by the kindness and love we have felt from so many. We are beyond grateful.

And one more thing…

I struggled knowing how much to share with you all. Part of me wanted to just keep quiet. But let me tell you something. We have seen God work in our family in some pretty incredible ways over the past two months. And we were reminded once again of His faithfulness to us…even on the really dark days…especially on the really dark days. And I just can’t keep quiet about that! So PLEASE don’t feel sorry for us at all. That is not the point of this post. I just felt like I needed to give you a little background so I could share what God has been teaching us throughout these days that I just described. Our life has felt totally crazy. I mean…gallbladder, hospital, seizures…oh my! But this really isn’t about us at all. May God receive all the glory for the great things He has done. And may I be faithful to proclaim His glory to you on this blog.

I can’t promise when…because life has been crazy…but there is more to come!

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  • Jen - Oh how my mama heart can relate. Our stories are so similar! Almost 3 years ago, while on vacation at the beach, my then-3 year old daughter had her very first seizure. We rushed to the ER where we had a CT (normal, praise Him!) and left with the same words from the doctor. Exactly a month later, she had a second one and thus began our epilepsy journey. We are still figuring things out and while things are pretty well controlled today, it is still a scary, unpredictable condition. One that requires a daily (sometimes hourly) declaring my trust and faith in His plan for my daughter and our family.
    Just know I’m in it with you! I’ll be praying for relief and answers and peace for your family!ReplyCancel

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  • Kristina - Jess, you don’t know me, but I have been following your blog for quite awhile. You are a blessing to me. Thank you for sharing what you guys went through these past couple months. I’m glad sweet Griffin does not have cancer. Will pray that you figure out the right med/dose. Thank you for sharing His goodness with us.ReplyCancel

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  • Michelle from Australia - Jess, thank you for sharing. And thank you for inspiring me to join IG so I can keep up with The Macs! xxReplyCancel

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  • Laura - So scary! My prayers go out to all of you.ReplyCancel

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  • Ashley - Jess, I have been following your blog for some time now and have never commented. However, I felt the need to comment on this post because our son was diagnosed with epilepsy when he was 5 ( BREC seizures). God held us through the entire process and He miracuosly healed his brain this past August (his first normal EEG since his seizure). He saw a great group of pediatric neurologists at Cook Childrens in Ft. Worth, TX, but they didn’t think he’d outgrow it until puberty. It was definitely the hand of God working in the life of our son. Feel free to email me anytime ashleyboothe@hotmail.com. Praying for your Griffin!!!ReplyCancel

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  • Angela - Tears this morning as I read this. Thank you for sharing how God is working in your lives. I truly am sorry you are going through all this. My middle son had small seizures a couple years back, and it scared me every time! It’s so hard to watch. Praying for your sweet family!ReplyCancel

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  • Meggie - Thanks for sharing this journey with us. You are such a blessing and testimony of His faithfulness to so many. Praying for y’all!ReplyCancel

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  • Heather - There is too many details to go into but please know I understand all too well what you are going through. Praying for you and your sweet family.

    One song that I always would hear when we had countless hospital/doctor visits with our son was Hillsongs, “Forever Reign.” One of the lines is, “You are peace, You are peace
    Whom my fear in crippling…” And I found it to be true. I still had moments where I cried, and questioned, and stressed, and cried some more but I did feel God’s peace. Peace that only He can bring.ReplyCancel

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  • Mary Ann - I had a major health issue last fall. I wanted to keep it under wraps but finally spilled it to friends and extended family through text messages, calls, and facebook. A wise woman told me that everyone I know needed to know what was going on so they could pray for me and send me healing thoughts. That resonated with me…and it worked. I felt so much love. I am so glad the worst is over for your family, that your husband is doing well and that the doctors are helping Griffin with his seizures. I will pray for you and ask the Lord to send more tender mercies so you will feel his Love and our love. I’ve had times in my life where I thought I couldn’t take another breath because things were so hard…but I never wavered in my trust and hope in God (although there were times I wanted to give up) so I’m really glad to see you doing the same. You are strong faithful family and I know your story has strenghthened my faith in God and and probably many others too. Bless you and bless your darling sweet family.ReplyCancel

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  • Susan - You’re such a precious family. I’ve been following your updates on IG and holding my breath with each post. Thank you for filling us in and know how often we all pray and think about the Macs!!!ReplyCancel

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  • Kim - Ah sweet McClenahan family. I have prayed and cried for your family. I do believe God still has a great purpose for your blog. He still leads us(strangers) to it daily. Your little Cora brought my family to God and through your blog we continue to seek him. Thank you for taking the time to blog and share your family. Big Prayers.ReplyCancel

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  • Alyssa - You guys are so strong. Let me rephrase…God is so strong and He is shining bright through you guys. Keep it up. I think you’re an incredible witness to His power and might.ReplyCancel

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  • Brenda Jones - Jess,

    I’ve never posted anything to you before but I wanted to let you know that your family has been a part of mine since before Cora got sick. Somehow God allowed me to happen on to your blog and I have been forever changed. I’ve prayed with you, cried with you and rejoiced with you, all of it.

    You are a great mother, great example of what a true Christian should be and a lovely person. I am a Grandmother just simply in awe of you and Joel and blessed beyond words that I can see God in action through your family.

    The period of time that you were quiet on your blog made me go to Instagram for the very first time just to check up and make sure your little family was ok.

    God has great things in store for you! Please keep this little blog going, it is very much a ministry to all.ReplyCancel

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  • kelley - I will keep your beautiful family in my thoughts and prayers.
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  • Cassie - Dear Jess, I don’t know you personally but I’ve followed your blog for a while and I’m continually blessed and inspired by you and your family. To me you feel like a friend and I read this blog post today with tears running down my cheeks. I’m so glad Griffin is doing better and has been cleared from cancer. Thank you for sharing the good times and the bad-real life is hard and terrifying at times and I admire your transparency on it. I also love your faithfulness. Praying for you and Joel and your sweet family. God bless you!ReplyCancel

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  • Stefanie - You had a rough month! My thoughts and prayers are with your sweet boy, you, and the rest of your family!ReplyCancel

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  • Susan - So glad you did share, it allows us all to be a partner in prayer with you. Have a peaceful March, goodness knows you’ve had enough events for the entire year.

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  • JennySue - I am SO thankful for your blog and that you feel led to continue writing. Please never hold back asking for prayers here also! I will keep your family in mind and I hope things start to go back to “normal” for you all soon. To God be the glory!ReplyCancel

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  • andrea - praising God with you and continuing to pray for your family!ReplyCancel

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  • Toni :0) - Oh Jess, what’s scary and frightening time. Thank you for sharing and will continue praying for your sweet family, I can’t imagine. I’m glad to hear you seem to have some answers. Keep that faith going strong. I absolutely believe in Him and put all my trust in him. I know you do the same. God bless.ReplyCancel

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  • Deb - Jess, My heart goes out to you! So much for you and Joel to deal with. Thanks for sharing. I have been lifting you all up in prayer. Seizures are such scary things for all involved. (Our son deals with them too.) Take care and may the remainder of this year be quiet on the medical field.

    Also, remembering your sweet Cora on her birthday. We are remembering the day our son, Nathan, went to heaven on March 4th. So grateful to you for the blessing you were to us during our difficult time.

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  • Lea - Bless your precious heart, what a tough time and what a testimony you have been to the faithfulness of God. May the week ahead be filled with calmness and peace for you!ReplyCancel

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  • Melissa Joy - I was in tears reading this. Tears of horror, just imagining you living through that… and also tears of joyful thankfulness, praising the Lord with you that cancer is not invading the life of your sweet child again.
    Thank you for sharing this with us, Jess, so we can glorify God with you and praise Him for His faithfulness which lasts forever!! Psalm 136ReplyCancel

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  • AuntieMip - Jess,

    You are a perfect example of the good and faithful servant. I genuinely appreciate your sharing these recent developments with us because you owe us nothing. Your life and family matters are just that, yours.

    Like most I came when Cora was in need of prayer. I stayed because, in the end, it was you and Joel who needed our prayers most. I really stayed because you make beautiful and chubby baby boys, you are creative and I find inspiration here and your faith, of my word your deep, abiding and glorious faith.

    These last few weeks have been unfair and terrifying. I can imagine the fear you endured you thought Griffin might also have neuroblastoma. I am a pediatric oncology nurse. I have been in that room where parents have been told their child has cancer and sadly I know families who have endured this truth for more than one of their children. I praise God that is not your truth with Griffin. I have both a mother and nephew who are epileptic. I shared some of this with you on Instagram. My nephew is a College Sosphomore on full academic scholarship. He drives. He has friends. He leads a completely normal life. And so does my mama. Mother of 5, grandma of 8. Twenty-Seven year career as the administrator of our parish. Like you she lost a child to cancer. Like you she is strong. She is faithful. She has shown that putting your trust in Him is the only answer to questions that have none

    I hope this encourages you. Your boys are beautiful. Your family is so lovely. You have crafted a life that reaps the rewards of your faith and that you choose to share it with us, complete strangers, is a gift.

    So here I am, all these years later. Still reading. Still learning. Still praying.ReplyCancel

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  • EricaG - Oh, Jess! You’ve been through a lot. I hope you have some time to breathe. Sending my love!ReplyCancel

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  • Kathy L - I’ve been loving your family since I cried for baby Cora. You are one brave and inspiring momma. Thank you for sharing and loving and showing us how its done right. xo KathyReplyCancel

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  • Anita - Dear Jess So happy to hear all is well and God has been with you through this very trying time. I have followed your blog since Cora . Thank you for sharing your sweet family with us, you are such a blessing to so many. Keeping you in our thoughts and prayers…ReplyCancel

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  • Sue - Jess, I have been a Christian most of my life yet your faith still amazes and humbles me. You and Joel are such an inspiration to me and so many others. I have been praying for your beautiful family for years and I’m going to keep praying. I hope you continue to feel the Lord’s presence and work in your life. Your faith and this blog honor Him so much. I’m praying for healing for your beautiful boy and total peace for your family.ReplyCancel

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  • Julie - Oh Jess, I am sorry. My daughter is a neuroblastoma survivor, and we have been back at the hospital for various things (most nothing serious), and it is hard every.single.time. Everything is harder once you have been down the worst road imaginable. Thank you for being honest and sharing your heart. And so incredibly thankful for your good news and your sweet boys.ReplyCancel

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  • Celine - You are such an incredible woman, and your faith is inspiring. Praying for your family!ReplyCancel

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  • chelsea - Thank you for sharing. I am so grateful that Griffin is doing better and that your faith in God is helping you and your family. Reading this post reminded me of my pastor’s sermon from last week about Darkness. He talked about how God is with us in the darkness, even when we can’t tell. If you have time, give it a listen. Sending prayers!

    https://itunes.apple.com/us/podcast/march-1st-2015-light-dark/id292007787?i=336669573&mt=2ReplyCancel

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  • Sarah joy - Wow! Not great start to 2015. Hope the rest of the year is smooth sailing. Love your family beach photo.ReplyCancel

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  • Debbie H. - Oh my is right! Will certainly be praying for your sweet family and for Griffin’s treatment plan and meds to get figured out very soon. (((HUGS))) LOVE and PRAYERS to you all. I have been following your story since you first began posting about sweet Cora…You are a true inspiration to moms everywhere!!!
    SPRING IS ON THE WAY :) It is getting warmer and the snow is melting here in CO :) YAY!!! I hope Kansas is warming up for you too!!! So thankful that the tests Griffin had for cancer were NEGATIVE!!! That is s BIG PTL for sure!!!ReplyCancel

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  • Vera - I have been reading your blog since Cora was sick, but haven’t commented. Just prayed, cried, and then celebrated your sweet beautiful boys from afar. But this week is the one year anniversary of my son being diagnosed with epilepsy, and I just wanted to say that I’m sending prayers your way again and you are not alone. Thank you for the perspective that it is “just” epilepsy, because you are right, it could be so much worse. I hope our boys outgrow this!ReplyCancel

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  • Karen - Dear Sweet Jess,
    I just want to hug you! You are such a strong lady . So pleased Joel’s condition as well as Griffin’s is manageable. Know there are many praying for Griffin and that medication is successful. You know better than anyone how much God loves Griffin and his family. Continue to trust. You continue to be an inspiration to all of us!
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  • Mendi - I have been praying daily for darling Griffin and your family.ReplyCancel

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  • Tiffany - Thank you Jess for sharing your faith and belief, in the good and tricky times.ReplyCancel

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  • traci - I’ve been following you since your friend, Meg Duerksen (sp)…took photos of Cora and introduced us to your family asking us to pray for you all. I LOVE your spirit and can just tell, if I were to meet you one day, I would instantly like you all :) My mom was diagnosed with epilepsy and yes, it can be VERY scary to witness the seizures but once the meds are in place, they really can live a very good, normal, long life. Sooo, I believe fully your little guy is going to be just fine!! Praying for your mama nerves over this and God will continue to give you a peace that goes beyond our understanding.ReplyCancel

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  • Amie - All I can say is We love you all dearly! What a journey it has been! Thank you for always faithfully putting so much in perspective for me still to this very day! Your faith and Love for God and life still bring it all clear for me even through the storms seven years later! I will continue to pray each day for you and your family! ReplyCancel

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  • Tori - I had tears as I read this. I’m so encouraged by your honesty and trust in our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ! What a joy to know He never changes even though our emotions often do. I’m thankful for your blog! Tori Jones (Omaha, NE)ReplyCancel

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