I wasn’t expecting Easter to be so hard this year.
We already made it through the first Easter without Cora.
Levi is here this year.
I told myself it would get better.
But I was wrong.
This week leading up to Easter has been really hard.
I am missing my little girl.
I went shopping this week to find an Easter outfit for Levi.
Avoid shopping in the spring.
The little girl dresses are so stinkin’ cute.
They will make you sad.
They will make you miss Cora.
You will probably cry in the middle of the store.
And then you will have to quickly walk away
because people are staring at you.
Let’s just say that I might have picked up a pair of baby Easter shoes
that looked like some that Cora had and started crying.
Right in the middle of Target.
Joel told me that I need to stop looking.
But I can’t help it.
Why do silly things like that make me so sad?
So as I’ve been feeling a little blue this week,
I have also been thinking about how thankful I am
for what Easter really means.
Easter means that everything is different.
And it is not because of the eggs and bunnies and darling little dresses.
It is different because of what Christ has done for us.
It is different because He LIVES!
I loooove this song.
I have been listening to it over and over again this week.
Blaring it through my house.
And while I am sure that there will be some tears today,
I am thankful that He promises to one day turn
my weeping into joyful noise!
Oh, and if you are wondering…
I did find something for Levi to wear.
I promise I will refrain from putting him in a dress.
And he will still be just as cute as all the little girls!