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no words.

Today is one of those days when everything that I had planned to post seems totally unimportant. I have no words. My heart is aching for the Pearson family. I have never met this family, but the Lord has impressed them on my heart ever since I heard about their sweet Paxten.

Yesterday, Paxten was welcomed into the arms of Jesus. As parents we know that there is no better place for our children to be, but it is still unimaginably painful when we are asked to say goodbye to our babies here on earth far sooner than we ever expected or dreamed.

I am astounded by the loving words that Paxten’s mama and daddy posted today. Blake and Libby are standing firm on God’s truth and promises. They know that while they grieve, they grieve with HOPE.

Last week we were studying 1 Thessalonians in BSF. I was really struck by this passage describing the Lord’s return…

Brothers, we do not want you to be ignorant about those who fall asleep, or to grieve like the rest of men, who have no hope. We believe that Jesus died and rose again and so we believe that God will bring with Jesus those who have fallen asleep in him. According to the Lord’s own word, we tell you that we who are still alive, who are left till the coming of the Lord, will certainly not precede those who have fallen asleep. For the Lord himself will come down from heaven, with a loud command, with the voice of the archangel and with the trumpet call of God, and the dead in Christ will rise first. After that, we who are still alive and are left will be caught up together with them in the clouds to meet the Lord in the air. And so we will be with the Lord forever. Therefore encourage each other with these words.

1 Thessalonians 4:13-18

My BSF notes said, “Far from being deprived of this experience, those who have died in Christ will be the first to enjoy it, for they are already fully alive and conscious in Him.” Even though I know that Cora is in the arms of Jesus, alive and healed, so often when I am talking about her it is in the context of death. I loved thinking of Cora as fully alive and conscious in Him. How incredibly awesome. And I can’t tell you how much I long for the day when I will be united with Cora and meet the Lord in the air. We will be together, forever with the Lord. I have tears streaming down my face just thinking about it. And I can imagine that the Pearson’s have a new longing for the day when they too will be united with sweet Paxten and spend eternity with the Lord. A day when there is no more pain or sorrow. What a glorious day that will be!
Please take a minute right now and pray for the Pearsons. And continue to pray for this family as the Lord brings them to mind. They have a long road ahead of them as they move forward without Paxten in their arms. I am so thankful that Paxten is in the arms of Jesus. What an impact this little girl has had, and will continue to have because of the testimony of her parents, for His Kingdom. And I am so thankful that her parents can cling to Jesus when their world feels like it has come crashing down…when their hearts are full of sorrow as they desperately miss their precious baby girl.
Sending much love and prayers to the Pearsons!
  • Alexis - your are exactly right, there are no words. My heart aches for them and I cannot fathom what they are going through. they will be in my prayers.ReplyCancel

  • Carla - Oh how devastating. She was just 4 days younger than my little boy. There are no words. My thoughts are with her family tonight, and with you Jess, as you relive your painReplyCancel

  • Rich and Carolyn Dewey - Adding my prayers as well. Can’t imagine the pain they feel – and that you relieve. Peace and comfort to all of you!ReplyCancel

  • Kristin - I read your post the other day and went to sweet Paxten’s Caring Bridge site. I so hoped and prayed that things would be different today when I saw her picture at the beginning of your post. I am so sad to hear of this news and will be keeping them in my thoughts and prayers.ReplyCancel

  • The Moffats - Read the news this morning and my heart just sunk. Praying for this precious family and for their incredible loss…and praying for you and Joel as it brings back so many painful memories. Thinking of Cora and missing her sweet smile today. Love and hugs, sweet friend.ReplyCancel

  • merlin - I cannot but help thank Cora for your words of wisdom, your compassion for this family, your love for those suffering….all gifts from Cora, along with so many more gifts that are yours for eternity, gifts that bless us who come to your site. God continues to use Cora for His kingdom. Thank you for your courage to keep sharing.
    Give those handsome boys an extra cuddle, those brothers to Cora.ReplyCancel

  • tifRN - I can’t tell you what an awesome family this is. I encouraged them to read your blog when I admitted Pax to the hospital because they reminded me so much of you guys when you were there with cora. I am devastated by the loss of that sweet girl, who loved “the cow says moo” & was so proud of her two teeth when she got them. Thank you for writing about her, & sharing her testament.ReplyCancel

  • Rachel - Praying.ReplyCancel

  • everydaymomma - Oh this saddens me so terribly I cannot even imagine.i am praying for that sweet family.ReplyCancel

  • Becky - Praying comfort and peace for this young family. Also wanted to pass along this song by JJ Heller “Olivianna”


  • Gayla - For anyone that is interested,they are doing a balloon release for Paxten tomorrow (1-31) at 5:00 at Lion’s Park in Valley Center. If you can’t make it, please consider releasing a balloon from wherever you are.ReplyCancel

  • brandonlk - As the tears flow, I am praying for for this family. I could not imagine. I love that we can all have that hope of seeing our loved ones and babies again.ReplyCancel

  • Lisa - praying for them!ReplyCancel

  • Auntie EM - I will pray for this young couple and hope they find solace in knowing so many care. You blog wise words. We all do our best in spite of our challenges, difficulties, losses, heartaches and the Savior will make up for the rest. I know you feel their pain in a very real sense with the loss of your Cora. I too am glad they are in the arms of Jesus, too perfect to live here on earth. You will see her again someday and then…..unspeakable JOY.ReplyCancel

  • Sue - There are no words. I only read about this family yesterday and didn’t know that it would be thier last moments with their baby as I read. It is just too sad; any parent’s worst nightmare. May they (and you) find the strenght they need to face their time until they are reunited…ReplyCancel

  • Natalie - Tragedy, So sad to read this this a.m. May God sustain them in a mighty way! Praying…ReplyCancel

  • The Schilling's from Cimarron - Jess…

    WHEN I Heard the news of Paxten going to be with Jesus I startes to sob….. made me think of sweet Cora and what you have been through. I knew you woul know just what to say to put this in perspective. Thank you for just being you! Still think of you all daily! Love and prayers to you and the Pearsons!ReplyCancel

  • Faith - Praying for the Pearsons!ReplyCancel

  • Janet - My heart goes out to them, and you and all who have lost a child. Thinking so much of you at this time, as it opens up the wound all over again! Much love from South Africa.ReplyCancel

  • KristinGheen - This is so very sad to read. I too am clinging to the hope we have in Christ, knowing that those we miss like Cora and Paxten are experiencing full life TODAY. Thanks for sharing your BSF notes; they are helpful. I’ll pray for the Pearson family and for you as you support them and perhaps feel an extra dose of grief and pain on these hard days.ReplyCancel

  • Lori - I’m so comforted by your words, and will definitely be praying for this special family.ReplyCancel