Thanks for your sweet comments on my last post…which was forever ago! There is something about January that keeps my feet dragging. A heaviness that comes as I remember all that January held four years ago. I often feel like I need the Lord to take me by the hand and pull me along at this time of year. And I’m so thankful that He will do just that.
Anyway…I wanted to clarify that I didn’t mean that last year was ‘wasted’ in the sense that being a mom to my boys is a waste of my time. ‘Wasted’ might have been a bad choice of word. I know that at this stage in my life my hours are going to be poured into my children. It might not seem like I get much done outside the home…or even inside the home, right?! My boys are my purpose and it is a total privilege to be their mama. Believe me, I don’t take that for granted! And some days it will feel like I am just surviving and that is totally okay. But as I looked back over the past year I felt like too often I wasn’t pursuing God with my whole heart both on the fun days of being a mom and on the hard, surviving days of being a mom.
Yesterday at church our pastor taught from Philippians 3:12-16. Paul said, “I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.” (Philippians 3:14) He said press on means to pursue. As we pursue God we are transformed. As we spend time in God’s Word we are changed and His Word gives us direction. Our pastor made this statement: Our Father in heaven greatly desires for each of us to learn how to live in the now. Not living in my own strength, not just surviving, but fully alive as I pursue God with all of my heart. This year I want to live in the now, fully alive in Christ. I want to seek God on those ‘just surviving’ days…because He can use even those ‘just surviving’ days to transform me. I want to get to the end of the year and be changed. I hope that makes sense!
Okay…so how about a few pictures of my two monkeys? We had a whole week of no sickness last week…except there were still some runny noses going on in these pictures because they are from a few weeks ago. Yay for being healthy!
The boys got one trike for Christmas and one trike for Levi’s birthday. I know we don’t need two of everything, but man it sure eliminates a lot of arguing when there are two trikes!
Griffin is making me doubt my ability to parent so much more than Levi ever did. Which is probably a good thing because God is the only one who gives me any ability to parent anyway. I need to be on my knees for my kids and Griffin is definitely driving me to my knees. Thanks, buddy!
I can hardly believe this is the last week of January. I am so looking forward to a year filled with spending my days with these two boys. And as I change diapers, read stories, make lunches, clean up messes, do laundry, play, laugh, fill up sippy cups, search for pacifiers, cry, teach, have sleepless nights, and love them with all that I am…may I be pursuing hard after God in the midst of it all. May I end this year transformed. And may my boys see Jesus in me.